#rotating her

[randomly-generated-posts-machine]

rotating catgirl in my head

[eidingate]

Of the red

[brw]

She is the people's princess 🩷♦️

[florencebirdsong]

I literally spend all day sick over Wanda then open my doc and suddenly the images vanish

[kringle-c]

ghost of christmas past

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

Thinking about vampire romana again

[lyinginthesnow]

just finished the bear and i wanna talk about sydneyyyyy. specifically her fear of her own naivete. it’s like. she needs to believe in herself to stay motivated, but she’s constantly aware that if she fails, that ambition will be viewed as foolishness like it did with her catering company. her strengths (thinking outside the box, willingness to take risks, commitment to her goals) are double edged. maybe she has what it takes to make it, or maybe she’s got herself in too deep with something that was doomed to fail from the start.

but this insecurity around her potential naïveté doesn’t work great for her when it comes to being taken seriously, i.e. .. perceived as not naive. she closely monitors everything, including her partnership with carmy — did she make the wrong choice in a business partner? she’s paranoid that everything that goes wrong is proof of her poor judgement. but carmy, far more secure in his position, does not have the same anxieties about syd in return. so when her fear is expressed, she comes off as overly anxious and nitpicky, which can lead to her being dismissed. the scene where she confronts carmy for not telling her they’re knocking down the walls is a good example. he responds sarcastically, downplaying the issue, as though she has unreasonable expectations of him. (“What? Sorry. You would have preferred that we…?”). to save face, sydney opts to match his tone. but this ultimately undermines her position because, though carmy does eventually concede and apologize, the confrontation has gone from a genuine expression of concern to an exciting drama, as richie points out by going “ooooohhh!”. carmy may have lost the argument but he won the room, because sydney, by retreating from authenticity to flippant banter to be taken seriously, trivialized her own position.

god she’s such an interesting character to me. her fear of being naive, or perceived as naive, often leads to that very outcome. she second guesses everything to the point of having expectations that other people deem unreasonable. she bites off more than she can chew, and then, embarrassingly, she has to spit it back out. yk. and this is not to say her concerns are invalid (her frustration w carmy is warranted), only to say that her neuroses in this area feed into her mounting doubts, and the way she expresses them, in a sort of feedback loop, and this increases more and more as the stakes rise. there is no way to hold back, or hesitate. she needs to commit to giving the bear everything she has. but what if that commitment is just recklessness? what if that risk tasking is just foolish? if she truly is being naive, how can she know that? the harder she commits to her goals, the deeper her fear, the deeper her need to commit to something…… anyway.

[kabutoraiger]

technology is crazy these days. now get that thang outta here