#rowan's rambles!

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some1 actually k1ll me bro i have a pacer test on wednesday (i have asthma and POTS) and the minimum score just to get a fucking D is 26. TWENTY. SIX. YES ITS GRADED. last time i took it i got 27 and fell on the ground and went legit unconscious for a second or two... it's only gotten worse in the last two years... if i get anything lower than a B on even js one assignment or test my mom will yell at me, so i might have to somehow get like 33 on it. im gonna end up doing an accidental kyu-kurarin doing this shitty test

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oliver, what the fuck were you on when you fronted ?? /lh

i know it was you, you logged it on simply plural TwT

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HUGE RANT INCOMING oh GOD pacer tests. look at this torturous "making kids fit" or whatever the fuck kinda reason they could possibly have for this ableist excuse of a grading scale.

i barely even got 44 (fyi 1 lap is 10 meters) before i nearly passed out and had to sit, then i had a panic attack for 15 minutes because my score wasn't good enough. why the fuck are we comparing disabled kids still recovering from a horrid £D to kids who can legitimately physically exercise, weigh way more than me, and who, yk, aren't literally fucking disabled ??????? FUCKING EXCUSE ME. how is this actually legal?? and to be graded off of the comparison to the other kids??? that's on another level. ykw??? if someone runs to the point they nearly pass out they should just get an A. how am i supposed to run any more? did you just want me to pass out or what?? do you actually have a death wish??? actually smh don't even get me STARTED on the numbers. why is the gap between SiX aNd sEvEn (oMg sIx SeVeN wOaHh)/10 twenty one laps instead of eleven like EVERY OTHER GAP SEEMS TO BE ???? are you kidding?? well SoRrY i have a anxious emotionally unstable mom that will yell at me if i dare to get one grade below her fucking standards??? as if that's MY fault? guess how many people got a C or above. FUCKING GUESS. TEN. PEOPLE. OUT OF LIKE 40. when only 25 fucking percent of people get an AVERAGE GRADE you KNOW your scale is insane. i hate my life. i just found out today there's two more of these this semester too... my GPA is cooked. for legit disabilities i have no control over. kill me

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was just trying to reminisce about the ONE good thing i ever had throughout all of middle school!! the newspaper!! and in a section with photos i saw a photo of my abuser/possible groomer??? idk if it was grooming but whatever- it is triggering asf and now i rlly wanna cvt bro </3 ive got sm shit to rant about so hope you guys are okay with a fuck ton of rants on this acc for the next few days

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