#i probably won't like it but god i want to#i don't //want// to not like her anymore#it's just a thing that's happening GOD SAME this new single is like 2 edgy 4 u and i hate it. like where even is the melody in the chorus and i hate the story and it just feels very robin daggers?????
see the vast majority of my problem is that i genuinely do still love fearless and speak now and red (and also her first album but mainly the other three) and they were all very very important to me in their own ways at certain points in my life and like
the last couple years of middle school were made worse by the fact that i loved her because it gave my classmates yet another excuse to bully me (not that they needed more cause they found plenty but it was nice and convenient) but i held fast to liking her because i wasn’t going to let them take that away from me and i did the defending taylor swift and my choice to like her thing for six years
and then 1989 came out and suddenly all the people who bullied me for liking her started liking her too and that should’ve made me happy but it mostly just pissed me off (the hypocrisy!!!!) which made it really hard to keep being her fan
so i never wanted to stop liking her but the new music just hasn’t been lining up and the shift in the fan base hasn’t been a positive thing for me and it’s only recently that i’ve even been able to listen to the old stuff that i still love without getting too annoyed about it and so i’m over here hoping to hell that she’ll put out something like her old stuff so that i don’t have to lose it completely but something tells me that’s not going to happen and just ugh
being a former taylor swift fan is exhausting