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[cremesofaart]

Eyeball Ruby Stimboard

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Our first stimboard. Our eyeball Ruby fictive couldn't find any of her so we made her one with things she likes.

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My Experience With Eyeball

it’s not really a secret that eyeball means a lot to me. really she’s the character i’ve related most to in my entire life. and i just feel like i need to put it out there why i love and relate to her so much

if anyone wants to add to this with why they may love eyeball or other rubies or other characters entirely, i encourage you! however, if you wish to keep things private, that’s alright, too! <3

tw: me projecting trauma on to eyeball (however i leave the details vague, no mentions of assaults or other ‘typical’ traumas. implied emotional abuse)

i feel like a lot of my love for eyeball spawns from my trauma, and how it lets me relate to her.

when i first realized eyeball was my favorite character, i was just all, “haha its weird! i dont know why i love her so much, i dont even relate to her.” yet here i am now. it’s obvious that i do, in fact, relate to her.

it was just kind of a realization? it’s funny. i always just kind of denied my trauma, but then i just slowly realized that it was, in fact, trauma. its like how i slowly realized i love eyeball and how i relate to her. maybe both of those things happened at the same time? i’m not sure. i don’t remember a whole lot.

really when i first determined that i liked eyeball for whatever reason, it was like a smack to the face. way back since i first realized it, before i even knew i related to her. and really when i very, very first determined that i was actually experiencing trauma, it was like a smack to the face. the same feeling. and there was an even bigger smack to the face when i was just sifting through eyeball fanart. i ended up coming across a piece by @empyrisan of eyeball having to leave a situation because of the volume. as someone with misophonia and other sound sensitivity issues it really hit home for me. that was the biggest smack in the face, the biggest smack that CEMENTED the fact i relate to eyeball.

and just,, my trauma translates seamlessly to eyeball. i project a ton of it on to eyeball, most notably from a pretty low point in my life. basically everything i felt back then was extremely easily translated to eyeball, it just made sense. so much sense. 

in some ways with my trauma i even envied her, weird as it sounds. i envy the fact that she can exude her emotions clearly on the outside, really. you can just kinda tell she’s never really in a great mood. i was always punished for showing any kind of negative emotion in that low point of my life. its funny though, even though i can kind of envy that she was able to show her emotions, honestly? i still do project the fact that i wasn’t really allowed to show my emotions. i just imagine her feeling the same way i did - feeling like she’d be punished for showing her emotions back on homeworld. i just feel like she’d be worried of being punished for anything and everything because of being constantly mistreated by her superiors.

maybe with all i project on to her, it makes me want her to get better more than anything. maybe it’s a subconscious idea of wanting to have someone you can really relate to to get a happy ending. you can have a happy ending, too, just like the character. it’s lovely.

eyeball may only be a minor character who appears in 8 episodes +1 cameo in the movie, but god help me if she doesn’t mean so much.

thank you, rebecca, for making such a character for people like me. :)

[maybeimwierd]

PLEASE DONT TAKE THE HAND GESTURE THE WRONG WAy

[tripod-fish]

redraw! (first - 2018, second - 2017)

silly little soldier

[cremesofaart]

screenshot edit! showing how our Ruby squad fictives look in-sys!

I did most of the editing on this one

-Eye Ruby (don't call me "eyeball" please)

original screenshot by the way. idk why we dont have eyebrows lmao

[cremesofaart]

sketched our ruby fictives! this is more or less how they appear in headspace. would color but don't have time

[maybeimwierd]

Doc (ruby) dresses like a hoe, this is her in my art style

Her straps covers the nipples y’all ain’t seen nothin yet

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alright imagine you’ve been living with the grief of your diamond being dead and you’ve been moved to a much worse court where the higher class shits on you and reminds you of how much of an insignificant pebble you are all day, criticizing everything you do wrong with no praise, you’re depressed as shit for even more reasons than that, and then you look out your window

and you see your original diamond’s fucking ass ship