Time has past and it had made a lot of changes in the world, our neighbors, and in me. I have learn so many things about myself, so many things I had for granted before.
I learned how I’m worth it. How I am such a caring, sweet and self giving human. How I’m not immortal and I bleed and suffer like many of us do.
I have learned that society will always have a judgement for your actions, good or bad, selfless or careless.
How people will see what they want to. How you can’t change the mind or perspective of someone who doesn’t see anything wrong with theirs. Because at the end we believe in what we decide and sometimes people can’t see beyond.
I learned that I wasn’t indestructible as I thought I was. I was played by someone I truly loved and I was broken, I didn’t see it coming.
I also learned that I had the strength to pick myself up and continue living. The pretty, ugly, exciting, unexpected, new, adventurous world I’ve been living for 26 years was right in front of me, waiting for my comeback. And that’s what I did I came back to it, to the raw life inside a new reality.
I accepted that the plans I once had, were no longer part of my life. I had to start a new path, one where I was the protagonist and solemnly decision maker if I want it to be my story and only mine.
Its a new year, “a new life” for some. For me I’m still the same, version 26.02. An improved version of myself, older but younger, wiser, sensible but stronger. To move forward we need to accept the circumstances, hold to truthful loved ones and jumped into the unknown and be discovered. To this day I stand, A self that only craves to be truly free, respected and happy, someone who isn’t afraid to love because of her past but she is only hopeful for the future… because Time will tell and scars will become memories.