...him being so mean and rude to you to the point that you shut down. Already planning and scheduling when he leaves and comes home from work. All your things gone, even your pictures, the ones with just you and the ones with him in it. You made sure that you left no trace in his home. You didnt even block him, nothing ever happened between the two of you. In your current state of mind. No argument. No hateful words thrown at each other. Just emptiness now.
Imagine...
...the looking his face when he comes home to see something was wrong immediately. When he calls out your name.. nothing. He must've called about 100 times. Even coming to your job to find you had been transferred out a month ago!?
Now he sits on the cold bed alone, thinking back on what went wrong. What could he have done more or less. What could he have said. How could you give him everything and snatch it away so brutally.
While you have moved on times 2. He still stuck trying to fill the crater you left in his heart...
It was like a dark cloud had permanently followed you everywhere. ever since that day you walked in on Nanami with that woman.
After you had picked up your daughter from school, you had thought over and over about how you would explain why mommy and daddy aren't together anymore.
You quickly found a good lawyer and were currently looking at places to stay for when you finally hand nanami the divorce papers. A part of you felt like you should talk it out with him. A part of you believed it wasn't true.
Then you went through his phone...
The woman was his secretary, and apparently, they had been sneaking around for around three months. Every single time he had to stay late it was for her. It made you feel sick. From every sweet to every nasty thing they sent to each other, you felt your heart shrivel a little more.
All the times your daughter had begged for her dad. All the storytimes he missed, the school events, and who the hell knows what else. But you kept your poker face and moved in silence. You wanted to hit him with everything at once.
Currently, you sat in your new lawyers office with a hand resting on your stomach. while your soon to be ex-husband was at work. Higuruma Hiromi was his name. He was one of the best in your area, and you would be lying if you said he wasn't handsome.
Tall frame, very fit, tired eyes that seemed to make him even more attractive. It was only your 2nd meeting, and yet he seemed so sweet, but it was his job after all. "Ok, so we'll have to go over everything that's in your name versus his, and then we can discuss custody over your child. or rather children" His quiet yet deep voice seemed to echo in your head. you could only hug yourself tighter.
It felt unreal talking about this. You still haven't told your daughter. How would she react? Would she want to stay with you or him?
You thanked higuruma and went home, nanami would be home in an hour, and you've come too far to have your plans ruined. Before you met with your lawyer, you stopped in town to look for job openings near some of the apartments you were looking at.
You applied for 3 jobs, an accountant position at a finance department, a manager for a grocery story, and a waitresses position. You knew you'd have to get at least 2 jobs to ensure you were fully prepared. It was weird even though he's the one who was cheating it felt like you were living a double life.
You arrived home with about 30 minutes to spare before he got home.. if he decided to come home. Once you settled and chilled on the couch, you got a text from higuruma.
"We should be all set to finalize the divorce papers by tomorrow. Only If you are ready." You felt your breath hitch. This was it. The beginning of the end.
But also your newfound freedom. You replied and set a time to meet with Higuruma and thought about how you would give him the papers. Some women get all nice and dressed up or change their look before they hand their husbands the papers.
It was decided after your doctors appointment you had scheduled a salon and hair appointment for tomorrow. And just as you were gonna go to bed, your thoughts went back to your daughter. You would tell her every thing , but only once everything is finalized. So you wouldn't feel like you had stalled or broke any promises. you hadnt even told anyone about the pregnancy, your daughter would surely get too excited and tell her dad. but you felt like you could trust no one until you were settled into your new life
The hardest part you realize was acting as you did before. Naturally ofcourse there was a strange tension in the atmosphere. Nanami noticed how you didnt seek him out anymore, how you no longer drilled home about your daughter's events or missing storytime.
Strangely, it felt like the two of you had already separated. Like you were living on two different planes. You waited atleast a week before getting the papers from higuruma, and in the meantime you had been accepted to work at the finance department and the waitresses position at a popular diner close to the hotel youd be staying at until you get approved for an apartment. It also helped that you had money saved up for an emergency. And this situation felt quite fitting.
For the first time you felt in control of your life....
Before Louis before Armand, before Nicky there was you. a known party girl, who seemed untouchable. and there in the shadows was a man willing to try.
warnings: guys i have only read the first book but i have also watched the movies and the show, so i apologize if it doesn't seem accurate. porn with a plot, blood sucking, cannibalism i guess, Lestat may seem a little ooc so i apologize for that he is a very complex character 😭
only a week before Christmas and everything seemed to be moving at once, from the rush of people in and out of shops, to the soft snowflakes that landed upon their hats. even still you seemed to be in the middle of it all.
you had prepared the most luxurious winter ball France had seen and everyone important would be there. "Marie don't you think this dress is a bit too much?" the brunette tilts head examining your sleek satin purple dress that hugged your curves perfectly "madame no it looks fine yes" you shake your head "then i guess i need a new one" you laugh and walk over towards your closet you pull out the most gorgeous forest green dress that had crystal patterns which resembled snowflakes. marie gasps "my goodness thats beautiful where did you get that" her eyes were wide with surprise as she placed her hands on the side of her face.
you smile wide "my father sent it to me from germany" marie walks over and helps you take off your previos dress and you step into the new one. "marie would you hand me those emerald earrings on my vanity please" you point towards the small white box on your table. "ofcourse would you also like the necklace your mother bought you last month" you tilt you head to the side and think for a moment. "oh! yes i forgot about that. the silver would compliment the dress wonderfully" Marie nods and hands you the earrings while she clasps the necklace on your neck.
"i just get this feeling tonight will eclipse every party iv have thrown in the past don't you Marie?" she walks you to the mirror "you seem to raise the bar every time madame" she smiles at you through the reflection. she hands you a pair of long white velvet gloves and you put them on. "alright now your ready lets get you downstairs before its too late madame" you nod and exit the room.
the decorated ball room was filled with people, music and the smell of chocolate. a band stood of to the side playing Christmas songs while people dressed to the nines laughed and danced no doubt intoxicated upon entering your estate. but that didnt stop them from acknowledging your presence. the music stop and everyone had their eyes on you as you stood at the balcony.
"i would just like to say thank you everyone for attending this party i so meticously organised all for your entertainment, so i ask of you to fully enjoy everything i prepared for you all tonight thank you" you bow as everyone erupts into applause and the night continues on. but you couldnt help but feel that one gaze that seem to burn holes into you during your speech. but you brushed it off since there were about a hundred people in the room.
you mustve danced with more than 20 people after being pulled every which way to converse with people youve never met. someone always had to make sure they introduced themselves to you. it was a sure way to get up in status. all they had to do was toss your name around.
but you lived for this, you loved the attention, the fame. the night was still young but your feet had started to kill you so you decided to find a place to breathe for a moment. you had found yourself ont he second floor and found an outside balcony you assumed you were by yourself until you hear a voice behind "tired already ma cherie" you jump at the deep voice "jesus! you cant scare a lady like that" you place a hand over heart and turn around but you freeze when you face your assailant "you know some people these days have no manners- oh!" he was the most handsome man youve ever seen. tall with blonde hair and striking blue eyes.
he stood confidently before striding towards you. "my apologies cherie i didn't mean to frighten something as delicate as you" he takes your hand and bends to on one knee before placing a kiss untop. you bow "I'm afraid i don't recognize you monsieur" he chuckles standing to his feet "ah that is to be expected it is only my first day in paris" he walks over to the guardrail, looking at the view. before quickly turning back to you. "how rude of me i havent introduced myself"
it mustve been of intensly his eyes seemed to stare into your soul or just the confident energy he radiated but every nerve in your body felt like it was on fire. he made you feel uncomfortably consious of yourself. "my name is Lestat De Lioncourt" he places his arm under his chest and bows. you smile "well its a pleasure Mr. De Lioncourt" you say bowing as well. he steps closer "lestat is fine ma cherie" you feel your heart skip and you lose your words "oh uh -cough- well my name is y/n l/n" he tilts his head to the side with a smirk "hmm souch a lovely name for an even lovelier lady" you feel you face heat up.
"why thank you lestat, however if your going to flatter me this much why not treat me to a dance" you look off to the side mischievously "that is unless you dont know how" he raises his brow and nods with a smirk. "i suppose its only right to prove you wrong" he grabs your hand and leads you downstairs and to the middle of the dancefloor. he places a hand on your plush waist and guides you throught the music, spinning you withe ease and grace.
"i guess i was wrong about you Lestat, you are quite the excellent dancer" you laugh when he twirls you around "what can i say any good dancer needs an equally talented partner" you scoff "don't flatter me, its taken me far to long to even just stand on my own two feet" he smiles down at you. "Lestat sorry if this is rude but why are you hear? in Paris i mean? you said this is your first time here right?" he nods "yes you are correct, i came to Paris because i am an actor" your eyes sparkle "does that mean you work at the opera house?" "i do, why? are you interested in such things?"
"yes i love the opera my mother used to take me all the time? he smiles at that "well then i hope i see you there one day" and with that the song ends and you're pulled away from your handsome dance partner to mingle with the guests.
Lestat had been in Paris for a few weeks now and like a moth to flame he had become bewitched to your parties. he had gone for the lavishness but stayed for you, you were the heart of every event. dressed to perfection every guest in line just to get a lick of your attention. while in Paris he had done his research about you. you rich lineage, the way you crave attention just like him, your body... everything about you was perfection. he had to have you.
tonight was the first time he had you 1-on-1. he heard every lustful thought you had about him don't get him started on your scent it took all of his strength to not pounce just then. he knew he had you hook, line and sinker. now all he had to do was wait just a moment longer till he could get you by yourself once more.
it was already past midnight and people had since started to leave and you as a responsible host made sure everyone left safely. you groan tiredly as the last guest finally left and you shut the front door. staff had already begun to clean up and you were ready to crash.
you drug yourself up the stairs to your chambers and plopped on your bed eyes heavy and your dress started to feel uncomfortable. you sigh and sink further into your soft bed. "i didn't think a party girl like yourself could have such low stamina" you jump from your bed falling onto the floor. you look up to see Lestat standing in front of your doors. "Lestat! your going to give me a heart ache" he chuckles "i wouldn't dream it"
"What are you even doing in here, the party ended almost an hour ago" he steps further into the room "yes well I'm afraid i am just getting started ma Cherie" he was standing right in front of you in what seemed like a blink of an eye, you flinch as he cups your face with his hand and trails it down your neck and down to your bust. he watches as your plump lips part and you left out a shaky breath.
you made it so hard for him to control himself. the way your heart beat accelerated under his palm. "tell me have you ever had a man tke you in your room like this." you swear you almost passed out on the spot. you shake your head no. your brain wouldnt let you form words at the moment, and lestat just smiled. this time it was wide and you could see his insanely sharp canines.
then he dived into your neck at first he peppered light kisses then he became ravenous you were sure it would bruise in the morning. you moan as he continued his attacks on your sentsitive neck. your hands pinned to your sides while he had one on your head pulling it to the side to get better access and the other firm against your ass pulling you further into him. he unlatch himself from you his warm breah aginst your neck "you dont know how long i waited to have you"he inhaled your scent before sighing "please~ you dont know what it was you were asking for. your entire mind was empty only filled with him, his close proximity to you the way he held you so obsessively.
"what is it, use your words tell me what it is that you desire" you flinch. his words had not come from his mouth as he had continued leaving wet kisses on your neck. "how- mmph~ how did you do that?" he grumbles "do what ma Cherie?" again his deep sultry voice echoed in your head" you had closed your eyes in pleasure not in your right mind to push him away. "ngh~ how are you speaking ~fuck~ to me in my mind?" he chuckles "am i~? but i asked you a question answer me"
you whine trying to search for the memory of what he had asked you" he just chuckles "tell me ma Cherie what is it do you desire in this moment" his hands grope your soft body "you" you breath out "i want you Lestat" he chuckles before picking you up bridal style and placing you on the bed.
you're in awe at his strength, near the edge of the bed he unbuttons his shirt and begins crawling towards till he cages you on the bed. "lestat~" he leans down and captures you lips with his tongue entangling with yours he moans into your mouth while expertly undoing your corset letting your breasts free. he pulls away from your mouth a thin string of saliva trailing between you.
he trails down to your chest, his mouth enrapturing your nipple you moan out and grab his hair. you arch you back into him and he lets go with a pop. "i need to feel all of you" he brings his long nails down to your dress "i apologize in advance i will be sure to compensate you" you look up "what are talking abou- oh!" he interrupts you by ripping you ball gown off and tosses it on the floor. "hey i really liked that dress" he ignores you and makes his way down near the end of the bed till his face is in between your thick thighs he kneads his hands in your skin and starts softly biting the plush area which was dangerously close to your unguarded core sending shivers up your spine.
his long hair curtained his face, as he pulled you closer to him by your ankles. he inhaled deeply before diving in, abusing your puffy clit expertly with his tongue. he ate you out like a starved man. your nails dug in his scalp gripping his hair tight. you tried to speak and tell him to slow down but you could only moan and babble nonsense. "les-oh god yes~" his eyes catch yours, they were dilated, bloodshot, and a brighter shade of blue. his clawed fingers found their way to your hole burying them deep inside. you let out a choked gasp as he finds your g-spot.
"fuck please~" your free finds bawls up the sheets in your fist, you start to feel that familar pressure in your core. he speeds up long fingers repeatedly hitting your sweet spot, until you come undone on your white sheets.
he helps you ride the strong wave of pleasure, before pulling his fingers out and licking them clean. he grins deviously at you, before crawling towards you. he kisses you once again hungrily this time. he takes your hand and runs it against his bulge he bigger than what you had briefly imagined. "this is what you do to me ma cherie" he breathes out before moving down your neck while loosening the string to his trousers. you had expected him to suck on your neck but this time you felt him peirce your skin. you shiver violently from overstimulation "oh shit~ fuck~ did you mmhh~ just bite me" you hiss out from a mixture of pain and pleasure.
lestat doesnt answer you, all you can hear is a lewd slurping sound and his moans. you begin to feel lightheaded and weak, but the feeling was just to good. he grinds his cock agaisnt your bare pussy over and over. you were gonna cum just from the friction. "lestat i cant take it ngh~" he finally lets go of your neck you see a ring of blood around his lips. your heart skips a beat "wha- what are you?" you try to back up and you place a hand on your neck wincing from the 2 small wounds he left there.
"shhh, don't worry ma cherie "he cages you against the bed. "ill make you feel real good ok?" you could only nod you were scared as hell but he just gave you the best orgasm of your life. so you were you to just what he was into. even if it was a little cannibalistic.
he lines his cock with your entrance before pushing in slowly. "yes~" he hisses out "I've been waiting so long for this- shit- for you" he groans bottoms out. his pace was slow and deep. yet every stroke was breathtaking. his hands gripping your waist to keep himself grounded.
the was pleasure overstimulating yet you couldn't get enough. his pace became rougher and sloppier. he was getting closer. he kisses you again, moaning in between. he lets go and grabs a hold of our leg pushing it up against your chest to get a better angle. your eyes roll to the back of your head as you feel the most mind numbing orgasm of your life. he buries himself deep within you and you feel his warmth shoot into you.
after you both wind down he collapses down next you bury his head into the side of your next planting soft kisses everywhere. you could only stare into the ceiling. "that was amazing" you say turning to face him. his hand caresses your face "I'm glad you enjoyed it as much as i did mon amour" you stare into his eyes "what's wrong?" he asks furrowing his eyebrows. "your eyes they've changed again. how is that possible" he smirks "its late we can talk about tomorrow" you furrow your brows, but you yawn. "alright, but dont leave yet, just stay still i fall asleep."
he nods and pulls you closer "as you wish my love"
Since you were young it had been drilled into your mind to be a good women, a good wife. No matter how much you craved to be outside rolling in the dirt and rough housing with your brothers. At a young age you were taught to handle your emotions appropriately to always talk things out before resorting to anger. and these lessons, among others, had followed you all throughout your life until now.
And now the perfect little housewife, motionless in the middle of your bedroom- now torn and tossed about- with puffy eyes and a sore throat. It was only 1:30, only 4 more hours until nanami your perfect cookie cutter husband came home to his cookie cutter wife.
Yeah, you lived a mundane life at home with your daughter with another kid on the way. Have you had just found out about this morning. while nanami had gone out and lived the life of a superhero, of course your only human, so thoughts of a more exciting life often haunted you, but you were comfortable.
You smiled in the mirror as you admired the revealing sundress you bought on a whim. You adjusted your hair and makeup and set out with the little bent box you put so much effort in.
And so being the perfect little wife you are you noticed nanami had forgotten a lunch today and you wanted to surprise him today at work before you told him you were expecting. With your daughter being at school for the next 3hrs. You were hopeful he would want to finally do something special to celebrate. And that's not to say he isn't a good lover in bed, in fact he was amazing, however it wasnt often he would feel up to do anything after being so tired from work.
You sprayed yourself with the perfume nanami bought you for your birthday last year before you got out the car abd prayed that he was still in his office and wasnt called out into the field. You put on the brightest smile you could muster and greeted the older man at the front desk.
"Is nanami available?" You asked, the man smiles back and nods."Would you like me to let him know you're coming up?" You shake your head."im trying to surprise him. i know he has been really busy lately, so hopefully, I can help him the best i can." The man chuckles."Now ain't that sweet reminds me of the old lady back at home. Now you get on up there. Do you remember where he's at?" You nod and say goodbye before finding the elevator.
You look at the watch on your wrist another gift from your loving husband. You suddenly began to feel nervous checking to make sure everything was perfect. Check your makeup, adjust your dress, and then the elevator dinged, and you took a deep breath.
His office was just down the hall, and you wave to his coworkers on the way down. It was odd that strange feeling you felt in your gut, the smell of a strong yet unfamiliar perfume, that just smelled expensive, the whispers you heard nearing his office.
It was like your body was trying to hint towards something but you ignored it. You fingers wrapped around the slim door handle but then something caught your eye through his barely closed blinds.
You squint, peering through and you almost stop breathing.
A women. Well his secretary to be exact. Leaning over his desk. His tie in her hands, the same tie you ironed this morning, gripped tightly in her perfectly manicured nails. And the way he looked up at her, you had never seen him like that before with you.
Your hand had started shaking you pull it away from the door, but you gaze stays on him, praying that it was all a misunderstanding. Then they kissed, a very passionate kiss. His hands in her hair and everything. With labored breathing you stumble backwards against the wall. You bite your hand to stop yourself from sobbing out.
You take a careful deep breath and held it as you walked back to the elevator. Not a single glance back. Afraid of the looks nanamis coworkers might give you. You some how made it back to your car and you let it all out.
It must've been 30 minutes before you composed yourself to drive back home. You must've blacked for a better part of the evening, because when you came to your whole room was a wreck and you just stared holes into your wedding picture.
You had thought about what to do next, how you would confront him. And even the shared custody of your daughter and the baby you hadn't even shared the news of yet.
But then you remember every lesson taught to you growing up. Be calm. Be composed. Be a lady. And that's exactly what you did you cleaned your bedroom, as well as the rest of the house as not to worry your daughter when she got home. Then you took a shower and put yourself back to together as best as you could.
Then it was time to pick up your daughter. And the time you had to yourself you asked yourself f the most important question how were you gonna live with nanami. The same man you've been marry to for almost 7 years. Right out of college. He promised you that youd could always rely on him. But now you didnt want to. You couldn't.
You have little money to your name everything from the car to your house was in his name. The thought that you had been so dependent on him for a majority of your adulthood made you feel nauseous. And now youd have to learn how to live all over again with now 2 children....
A/N: I do have a plus sized reader in mind when writing this so if you do not like it, do not read it.
Two months. It had been two months since the first gift appeared at your door. your room was just about overflowing with stuffed animals, flowers, jewelry. every day there was something new, something bigger, some things were even personal. At first, it was sweet, maybe even romantic. But after a while, it started to feel like... too much.
you didn't think anyone close to you was able to afford stuff like this
it wasn't like you asked for any of it, but at the same time, you couldn't deny how much you liked this attention. none of your past partners had ever gone this far to make you feel special to think someone is going this far for you. But it also kind of freaked you out as well
the more gifts were delivered to you, the more anxious you became. you assumed the person would reveal themselves to you any time now. not a single letter or hint of who it could be. it was weirding you out. your friends and roommate brushed you off, not believing anyone would go this far you. they said it was most likely a prank, probably a coworking or a frat guy from your university. "its not that big of a deal, you actually think someone would actually do this for you"
you never brought it up again to anyone. But the thought kept nagging you. even if it was just a prank who was it? Was it someone you knew?
After returning from a long day at work, your roommate Alice entered your room holding a bouquet of flowers and an enormous teddy bear. you could tell she was annoyed by the look on her face . "oh lucky you, another delivery for you. and this time they had the courtesy of actually sending a letter."
you apologize to Alice and take the bear and flowers. once she leaves flopped onto my bed. you couldn't help the small rush of anxiety that ran through you as I reached for the letter placed inside the flowers.
you take a deep breath. it had been months and now you were going to find out who your secret admired was. hastily you ripped open the envelope. Inside was a note -obviously- along with flower petals of deep purples and blue. you unfold the letter the most beautiful handwriting you've ever seen.
"My dear,
its been quite awhile since our first meeting you may not remember me and that is not your fault however i am sure you have been quite anxious to know my true identity.
that is why this letter is an invitation for an informal meeting at evergreen park in an hour.
i know this may seem sudden, but i feel s though it is time to reveal myself to you my love.
sincerely,
L"
I froze "what the hell" he wants to meet you in an hour. it was already 6 o'clock at night. but it is Friday so there would be quite a few people there. he couldn't even tell you his name? he did say that you've met him so maybe it was someone from work that a client or something. you wracked your brain trying to remember anyone with an L initial. but nothing.
against every survival instinct in you, you get and dig through your closet for something casual yet cute, and something to keep you warm in the early winter air. black fleece lined leggings under a pair of jeans a simple black shirt and a burgundy colored jacket. as you grab your shoes, purse and phone you hear your roommate on the phone in her room.
"i think its actually insane, why doesn't anyone ever send me gifts. and I'm like actually pretty" you felt a sharp pain in your heart and little insecure. what if this was all just a prank to hurt you. you dug your nails in your palm and sucked in a breath. you had to be confident. there is no way someone who go to these length just to make a fool out of you.
you wrapped your scarf around your head to keep your ears warm and walked outside. the weather had signs that would snow soon, it was very apparent with he dark clouds and the frost on the ground.
you worried nobody would be out now, but there were a few people decorating for the holiday and others sat around a bonfire drinking. you hadn't even gotten a specific location for our meeting but you hoped you were going in the right direction.
then the scent of a scent of a very expensive cologne wafted in the air. before you could turn around a hand is placed on your shoulder "y/n?" you jump and back up. turning around and see the most handsomest man you've ever met. he's tall and pale with reddish brown eyes, a face sculpted from the gods and dark hair that reached his shoulders.
"Is it really you?..."you stare of in amazement taking in all of his features. "y/n i have been waiting for this moment for as long as i could remember" he had a bit of a posh British accent. everything about him scream rich. "but i don't understand why me- who even are you?"
while you were absolutely taken in by his looks, you still had questions. "I'm sorry for being rude but i don't even know your name and I'm sure i would have recognized you" the man chuckles and guides you to sit at a bench nearby. "i will answer all of your questions my dear in due time, however the best i can give you is my name." your eyes widen willing to take what you can get. "my name is Lucien Hawthorne, and oncourse i already know your name." wow even is name sounded rich on his tongue.
"okay well could you also tell me how you know me? and you wouldn't just come to me earlier." he smiles down at you eyes flickering down at your chest and then back at your eyes. "you saved me a very long time ago, and then after i promised to find you and make you mine" the air around you suddenly the air around you became heavy and thick. the street lamps dimmed, and people seemed to have disappeared. " i saved you? how?' lucien nods.
"you saved me from myself, from becoming the monster i am. with your love and care for me." you tilt your head. was this guy like actually insane or something. you feel your getting uncomfortable. and a bit scared. it felt like he could tell as his expression softened. "I'm sure you don't remember that was about four lifetimes ago. the human concept of time is quite unforgivable." you nod along with ever word he says, scooting away from him preparing to make a run for it if need be.
"its been so long since i was given the opportunity to bathe in your beauty and essence. you smell just as good as i remember" he smiles wide this time revealing a pair of sharp canines. "hey i think its pretty late now. i should be getting home now. my friends are waiting for me-" you stand up and back away. and he scoffs "your friends? you mean your roommate? the same person who insults you and talks about behind your back" he looks up and shakes his head "don't make me laugh" in a blink of an eye he stands before you. you jump and hold your breath afraid to make a move.
"please don-" he shushes yo and wipes the tears that free falls for your eyes " do not cry my love i will not hurt in fact i want to do the exact opposite, i want to protect you" he gives you a tight lip smile and tilts his head. "so please forgive me for what i am about to do" you furrow your brows you realize you're sandwich between him and a tree "what do you mean by tha-"| your cut of as he rips away your scary letting it blow away in the wind and attaches his mouth to your neck. pain shoots through your system. but you are not able to make a sound.
a passerby would assumed the two of you were just making out. but his teeth were deep within your jugular sucking away your life force one of his hands gripped on your plush waist while the other pinned your hands above you against the tree. the pain becomes and your eyes roll back. soon tiny snowflakes land softly against he ground and your hair. drips of blood soaking the ground turning the few flakes red. after what seems like forever he detaches his mouth and your knees buckle. you were too week to complain as he catches you in his arms swiftly. carrying you away...
Imagine he's just teasing you all day, just thinking you're gonna crack and beg him to fuck you. But you just don't care and continue on with your day all the while ignoring his attempts until he starts getting desperate....
It all started when you were out running errands and you just looked so sexy, he couldn't help himself. In the car and he's just rubbing your thigh until slowly reaching higher and higher... then once yall reach the destination he looks over at you expression hoping for a sign of arousal, annoyance, anything! but you were looking over the list of things on your phone.
Then while you were walking around the grocery store and you had paused to check stuff off your list and he comes up behind you and starts to kiss your neck... nothing.
No reactions. you dont even push him away like you're annoyed, you just move along. The whole day went like this he even made a game of it to see how long it takes until you react. Risqué touches, random kisses, rubbing, grinding. You didn't budge well you laughed and brushed him off but to keep his pride we won't count that.
He thought that once you guys got home you'd surrender but even once you put away groceries and settled in you remain neutral and unbothered, scrolling away while some show played on the TV.
But little did he know, he had forgotten that your anniversary was two days ago and as punishment you had put him on a sex ban until he remembered.
He was really going to lose his mind....
this lowkey gonna be the last smutty thing I write for awhile, but trust ill be feeding yall. more coming soon
Warnings: this is angst with no comfort till later on. Child loss, abuse, main character death, themes of revenge, there will be sexual content as well, lovers to enemies to lovers, VERY slowburn
Chapter 2
Before he could say anything, the sounds of people yelling and running came from behind you. "THERE SHE IS, OVER THERE!" You look back, men with lit torches and what looked like pitch forks came running towards you.
Looking towards Tomoe for help, you hear another voice, "Come on, Tomoe, we don't have time to play games with human filth." Looking up, you see a red-haired man perched up on a branch. "Who is that?" You look at Tomoe who looks agitated.
"Oh, don't tell me, you haven't told her yet?" You raised an eyebrow concerned, still worried about the mobbed of people running towards you. "Well, let's just say Tomoe has had his fun with his plaything. But now it's time to say farewell." The male muses with a shit eating grin. While Tomoe frowns but says nothing. "So run along now unless you want to meet what looks to me an unfortunate fate."
You look at tomoe urging him to give an explanation. "What is he talking about? Are you leaving me?" Tomoe looks as though he's the one who's been done wrong, too embarrassed to look you in the eye.
"Fine, no, I understand. I was just a toy for you to use and throw away, I get it." You look back at the crowd who are even closer than before. "I don't need you, I can do this on my own," and with that, you take off away from the 2 yokai and the angry mob, going deeper and deeper in the woods. Once you feel you're far enough away, you lay against a tree and let yourself go. Crying out into the deep and seemingly endless forest.
Everyone who was supposed to love you has betrayed you. Hugging your waist tightly as if the life growing inside you would comfort you. The cold night air engulfed your skin as the wind blew. Your eyes grew heavy exhaustion weighing heavy on your mind.
But before you could give in, you heard the sounds of branches breaking as if someone was walking around. Slowly, you turned and looked around. Already on high alert you look around and see a few people searching the area for you. But before you could make a run for it, a hand wraps around your mouth and waist, struggling you hear the person yell.
"Hey, she's over here. i found her!" The familiar voice was of a man in your village who had attempted to court to which you rejected. At the moment, you felt defeated as multiple people ran over to where you were. They forced you back to the village, and everyone had gathered around you as a man you recognized as the villages elder stood before.
"Everyone gathered hear will bear witness to the exercism of a woman who has laid down with a beast, a demon!" You were currently tied to a chair while the heat from a torch warmed your skin. You would've been grateful for it. However, the uncomfortable moment made it burn uncomfortably.
But his words made your heart heavy with ache, you didn't see tomoe as a demon, at the time he made you feel only love and protection but now you are alone and vulnerable.
Gasps came from the crowd as you looked down not wanting to see the faces of the people who were betraying, so maybe that way death would be more peaceful and the longing for revenge wouldn't follow you in to the afterlife.
"This woman who was once the pride of our community now bears a seed from that demon, perhaps evil is hereditary" the man's voice echoes through the towns center, he steps behind me and pulls me by the heas forcing you to see the crowd in front of you, You spot your father and brother in the crowd. Which wasn't too shocking as it would it be if they weren't here.
"So now we will begin the exercism of the demon and cleanse our sacred village." He poors a bucket filled with a ice cold liquid over me, the night air doesn't help at all as you shiver as the foul scent of the liquid he poured burned your nose.
The crowd stays silent, anticipating what's happens next. But you already know you've seen it all before.
When a women betrays the village, she's punished publicly. And then the elder exercises and cleanses the village riding it of all impurities. You've seen my mother in this exact spot after she was caught with a man from another village it was only found out after she gave birth to the child, she kept her eyes on me the entire time like a parting gift for you to hold for the rest of your life, even as flames engulfed her, you tried to look away but your father forced you to watch. It was a reminder, one that showed how quickly ones life could be taken away.
As if you had one to begin with, tomoe was that glimmer of hope that you could have your own life and dreams. But of course you couldn't be so lucky.
You hear the sound of a match being struck, and for once you made your own decision you look up and at the top of my lungs I scream his name. "TOMOE!!" and the match drops my whole body is covered with searing hot flames. My screams send shivers through some, while others watch in sympathy, some glad it wasn't them.
My skin which was once warm is now ice cold and I slowly lose consciousness. The cold embrace of death comforts me. But I don't feel peace. I feel anger and fury, for my self, my unborn child, and my mother who was wronged by everyone.
The sounds of cheers surrounded me. How was that possible I should be dead, I feel again, the hot flames and the cool wind around me but I feel empty and angry all at once.
I try to open my eyes but i don't feel in control anymore, i hear gasps from the crowd the sound of the elder yelling and then screams. But I can't tell where they are coming from. And suddenly the whole village was silent and the smell of blood filled the air.
Even covered in blood Leon was handsome. Hah, it was weird to think that about somebody especially when you were currently dying, and it was your blood that covered his large veiny arms. Slumped against a broken wall, breathing weak and eyes impossible heavy.
You were a government agent this is what you signed up for. But you should've expected this, been more prepared. Well, it didn't matter now.
"Hey...hey! Stay with me they're almost here" his voice echoed in the empty room. And his hands were pressed against your abdomen, you try and think back to your anatomy classes, my intestines maybe... or was it the liver? Either way, it hurt like hell, and leon pressing down didn't make you feel any better. "Hey, Kennedy if you wanted to touch me you should've just said so hah-ack!" You were cut off when you started hacking up blood, your vision getting blurry.
He laughed sharply"You need to save your breath the helicopter will be here soon alright" You smiled at him stupidly blood dripping down your lips. "I know you hate me now -wince- but will you get me a burger after this, you owe me" Now it was his turn to laugh, but it was sad and breathy "I have never hated you, but yes I will get you a burger and whatever else you'd like."
It hurt him to lie to you, he knew deep down you weren't gonna make it, but he wanted to believe. But it hurt him even more to know he made you think that he hated you. He could never hate you.
"Hey Leon this is gonna sound really corny but it started to get like really cold" You laughed but this time tears ran down your face as if it were all truly dawning on you. It was like a punch to his gut, he had to keep it in you were gonna be okay, he was gonna be okay. That mantra repeated over and over in his head.
He moved one of his hands and put his jacket around your shoulders. "You'll be warmer on the ride back" he grabbed his walkie and was yelling something. Everything was muffled. "Hey, Kennedy I think... I think I just need to take a nap...it'll be ok" he drops his walkie a places a hand on the side of your head. "No just a little longer alright just hold on please." Your head drops into his palm "I'm so tired"
The whoosh of a helicopter could be heard in the distance, however, they were too late.
Two weeks later...
"And her family?" The blonde shakes his head, "she had none" except for him, he was your family. "Listen if you ever need to talk I'm here man" Chris pats Leon's back and walks off before paying his respects. You lay in the coffin eerily still and silent. Very unlike you, you were loud and always seemed to be doing a dozen things at once.
But now the sound of your voice was replaced by the echo of his heart he could feel it in his veins and head. The heaviness was overwhelming. Not many attended the service just him, Chris, and a few other agents.
After he left and went home he stood in his shower thinking to himself. About you mostly, all the ways he could've kept you alive. He should've worked things out, quit his job, moved in with you, and married you. The thoughts sent tremors to his heart.
Should've, could've, would've.
The first night he couldn't sleep, the second night he drank himself to sleep, the night after that he got back to work. Training harder than before. Mission after mission, working himself to the bone. His coworkers noticed of course, telling him it was okay to take a break.
How could he take a break when it was his incompetence that got you killed anyway? It wouldn't bring you back he knew that but he felt like he had to prove to you he could be better. Or it was all just a distraction. Like when he came home and blacked out on his couch with a bottle of whiskey in his hand.
Either way, as long as it got him through the long hard days and nights without you there.
