Jun 26
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I could make the world’s greatest minecraft mod
(^ Guy with absolutely zero coding, rigging, sound design, or modding experience at all)
Some affirmations that Venti would love my body would be great actually I would appreciate that very much
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VENTI!!!!
I was gonna do something somber and super meaningful but honestly I really just wanna jump up and down and kiss him a million billion times over.
That bard is getting a motherfucking CUDDLE and a KISS and a GIANT ASS BIRTHDAY CAKE.
I love him more than my words could properly express. My heart knows that I love only him.
Cheers to the fallout of terrible relationships he’s saved me from, and once again-
Happy Birthday Venti! I love you!
My old httyd drawings are beginning to attract some attention…
Intriguing. Maybe I should try doing some more sketches or try making my own au for it. I’ve had an idea for a character bouncing around in my head for a hot minute now so maybe
Just maybe I can make it work
HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY TO VENTI AND I!!!!
I have. So many words to describe how I feel about this, but I sadly don’t have the time to type it out.
But yes happy anniversary to the only man to ever make me feel loved and safe
I love you my Windrise ❤️
HAPPY 20 YEARS OF NEIL BANGING OUT THE TUNES
Hate.
There is so much hate in me.
It’s all mine.
It’s all for myself.
Ichorous, black tendrils of hatred that spill out of my spine, my chest, and my hands. They strangle my neck and leave me silently screaming as I tear my face into a smile.
Because they can’t know.
No one can know.
No one should be exposed to how much anger, how little emotion, how much raw, seething hatred there is within me.
I want it to explode. I want it to cover my body like ink and transform me into a monster that can kill without consequence, without thought, without need for justification.
Some mindless beast who those who know me simply run in terror instead of trying to shout me down or twist my emotions further.
A monster who runs down those I have so grown to despise, and tears them limb from limb before burning myself into a small pile of harmless ashes who can’t hurt anyone who doesn’t deserve it.
I am so full of hate. It’s all for me.
How many times do I have to cry out to God before I am finally allowed to be happy without fear?
How many times, Lord?
I love you, God. I want your teachings and boundless love to flow through me like a beacon. I want others to so desperately love and thank you the way I do.
Why must I wallow in this pool of self hatred to understand what kindness is?
How many nights do I have to spend wondering if its even worth it to wake up in the mornings before I’m allowed to love life.
How much longer, God, until I meet someone like me, who’s so eager to love others? So willing to accept the joy I could bring them whilst accepting it myself?
HOW MUCH LONGER DO I HAVE TO SUFFER, GOD, BEFORE I CAN BE LOVED ON EARTH AS YOU LOVE ME FROM HEAVEN???
How much longer do I have to bear this hatred in my soul before I find the one who helps me quench that inferno?
Why do I hate so deeply yet smile so kindly?
Why, God?
Why?
Venting to my friend last night and they fell asleep right in the middle of it…
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Like damn bro I didn’t realize I was that boring