Jul 30, 2025
the secret to nam-gyu's strong work ethic.
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the secret to nam-gyu's strong work ethic.
i feel like someone already did this for squid game but whatever. silly messily made squid game ship meme thing
could you do any of the Squid Game cast with an f reader who's insecure about her weight? I know Korean beauty standards but let a girl dream okay😔
valid girl, here treat yourself! Lets's all be in denial and pretend Canon didn't happen. 💌
ft. Salesman, Frontman, Thanos, Dae-ho (388), Se-mi (380), Nam-gyu (124), Hyun-ju (120), Jun-hee (222), Masked Officer and Gi-hun (456)
Headcanons. Mentions of pregnancy and fatphobia. A tiny bit suggestive but mostly just random whimsy stuff. Some could also be read platonic I guess. Not proofread. Spoiler-free.
The only thing stopping me from including more characters was the GIF limit.
Salesman
Sorry, but this guy will definetly be a bully about it. Not like your weight is bothering him at all, it's simply a habit of his to go after other's insecurities for his own entertainment.
Doesn't really think that much about how his words affect you and even gets a bit irritated at you being "too sensitive". In the end however, he'll always make up for it with expensive gifts and extravagant dates to remind you of "your status".
Also, prepare for a looong lecture of him trying to express his emotions but failing horrible, talking about how it's illogical to think he'd date someone he isn't attracted to since "clearly you don't serve any other purpose to me" ughh he's trying okay.
If anyone else dares commenting on your body on the other hand? Let's just say he's gonna try out some new games on them.
This man lacks any basic empathy, so don't expect him to be sympathetic. If you complain, you'll get rational solutions, but he's very dedicated with it. Already makes mental spreadsheets to better your workout and eating habits.
In his eyes, as his partner you should carry yourself with dignity, and it's his mission to make you finally see your worth.
Frontman / Hwang In-ho
Is 100% responsible for your weight gain. This man is an amazing cook and loves to indulge you in any way he can.
Still, it was only during your first pregnancy when In-ho realized that he actualy prefered you that way. There's just something about seeing your belly grow round with his child that drives him literally crazy.
He also forbid you from any kind of physical activity in that state, since due to his past he was terrified to lose you and the child, and he certainly isn't taking any chances.
Literally can't leave his hands off of you. Offers you massages on the regulary just so he can shamelessly enjoy himself digging his hands at every inch of you he can get.
Kinda feels bad about "objectifying" you though? Idk I feel like in his private life this guy is very old-school and bad at communicating, he's basically kinkshaming himself lmao.
In his kind of profession he needs to stay throughoutly fit, so he's definetly able to carry you at any weight.
To him it's the most natural thing in the world that bodies change over time, and it's such an incredible privilege to grow together with the love of his life!
Thanos
Dude is definetly gonna call you some corny shit like "my marshmallow girl" unironically, comes up with all sorts of nicknames that are lowkey awful but he thinks are super cute
Picking out clothes for you has become a passion of his and he spares no expense when it comes to it. After all, he likes to see you happy and especially to see you in those outfits.
There's no filter between those last two braincells and his mouth. Constantly comments and catcalls you, "damnnn girl" is already his most used phrase at this point.
Saw too many memes. Says shit like "choke me with your thighs" while dropping to his knees.
His manager lowkey hates you because he claims it's bad for his public image if he officially has a relationship, let alone with someone not fitting Korean beauty standards, but he doesn't give a damn when it's about you.
It's your decision whether you want to be part of his celebrity life, but he'd be soo excited to show you off!
In the end the two of you get celebrated by his fans and they call you the new "plus size icon". He always claims "anyone who talks shit is just jealous, babe."
Kang Dae-ho
Literally doesn't see the problem until you point it out. Explain it to him like he's dull because this man is too wholesome to understand.
A bigger girl just means more to love?? Duh.
You could literally be picking yourself apart in front of the mirror saying "I'm so fat" and he'd be like "ikr🥰you look amazing".
It actually makes him very sad if you talk badly about yourself, since he knows what it's like to feel inadequate too well...luckily for you that's exactly the reason he always knows how to hype you up about yourself!
Also, he thinks you give the best cuddles ever. His favourite place to be is with his face nuzzling against your stomach while lazily caressing your skin.
He's just so happy and proud to have a girlfriend who's pretty inside and out, this man will adore you to bits.
Se-mi
This girl is supportive af, consider her your personal bodyguard at this point (at least verbally).
No reason to be ashamed of your stretch marks, she's got her own from growing too fast in her youth. Has a habit to trace yours with her finger absentmindedl whenever she got the chance, as if she wants to remember every single unique pattern of your body.
Don't try to hide anything from her, she's very good at reading people so she'll know if you're feeling down. And yes, she's willing to hear about your insecurities for the 10.000th time, because that's also a part of the wonderful person that you are.
Would give anything for you to be able to just see yourself with her eyes for one moment at least...
Nam-gyu
I can't quite explain, I just feel like this guy has huge mommy issues and yes that is (not exclusively but in this case) tied to your weight. So expect him to be uncharacteristically submissive in your presence.
"Boobs or ass?" Neither. Prefers hip dips and stomach rolls, a man of culture indeed.
Is very handsy no matter when or where, loves to grab your butt even in public, or sneak up from behind to squeeze your boobs or belly just for funsies.
Is a little paranoid, somehow about both that others might disrespect or try to take you away from him. Oftentimes you might need to hold him back from doing something stupid just for the tiniest bit of your approval.
Will kneel in front of you and look up with those puppy eyes, zero thoughts but all the commitment.
Cho Hyun-ju
Let's be honest, she knwos best about both body dysmorphia and not fitting society's beauty standards. You'd definetly have someone to talk and at least partially relate to.
While she's very harsh on herself, appearances in general don't matter to her at all, what matters most is on the inside - and you got the most beautiful soul she ever got a glimpse of.
Doesn't know whether to be jealous of your curves or just be obsessed with 'em, haha
She's incredibly affectionate both with words and actions, constantly reassuring you about how pretty you are and how much you are appreciated as a person.
Willing to go to any lenghts to protect you from any cruel people that fail to see your light.
Kim Jun-hee
Frankly, she always had the opposite problem especially since she was expecting a child: People shamed her for being "too skinny" and how it would negatively effect her baby.
She'd be so supportive and hyped up to work on yourselves together, suggests working out after the baby's here so you can both become fit! No pressure at all though.
Steals your hoodies and shirts constantly, they're just so comfy especially when she doesn't fit into her regular clothes anymore because of her pregnancy belly.
Obsessed with your size difference honestly, being in your arms with her head buried in your neck makes her feel both cozy and safe at the same time. Also tends to hide behind you when she's stressed or afraid.
Really looks up to you as a person, no matter the weight.
Masked Officer
Concentrates on more important matters. You're loyal, sharp, and get the job done. Also you're quite literally his better half, so who cares what you look like?
You wonder why the mean comments got way less since you're with him but he straight up kills anyone that even looks at you the wrong way before they could even speak.
Is a tad bid sadistic, so considering those tendencies it's only for the best if you got some "extra cushion". With a grip as firm as his you're practically his stressball at this point.
Actually a bit concerned for your health, but his own smoking and drinking habits would make him a hypocrite for pointing this out, wouldn't it? So he mostly keeps his mouth shut about it. You're a catch either way.
Get's super talkative when drunk, like totally out of character. The usually stoic man is all over you, gushing about how lucky he is to have you in his life and how it pains him to see you doubting yourself. It's actually very endearing to wittness.
Seong Gi-hun
C'mon now, just look at this guy.
Literally hates himself and for many reasons at that, so he can't understand how someone so perfect could feel negative about yourself when there's actual evil out there.
Just so awkward and innocent, it doesn't take much to make him wax in your hands. While not really interested in things like that generally, it hits different when it's you. Show a lil' cleavage or wear a tight dress and this man is gonna have a short-circuit.
Hope you're ready for a heartfelt speech about true beauty and how your presence has affected him and many others for the better, no matter what you look like.
Gain or lose weight all you want, if this man is in love he'll worship the very ground you walk on.
the majority of the squid game women are THEEEE living personifications of the phrase, “she looks like a chase atlantic song”. dark, sexy, androgynous, and enigmatic. effortlessly alluring, as if they just walked straight out of a neon-lit fever dream rife with sin, whispered secrets, and the lingering pulse of a slow, hypnotic bassline.
PLEASEE SE-MI FICSS, I've been looking for stories about her and i only saw like 2-4 here in tumblr it makes me wanna bawl my eyes out😭🙏 fem reader if you please🙇♀️🙇♀️
─ ⵌ you’re her lockscreen
content tags: se-mi / player 380 x reader, female reader, (newly) established relationship, lover girl se-mi, light teasing, fluff
author’s note: the way i received 10+ reqs for our girl se-mi restored my faith in humanity
“am i your lockscreen?” se-mi’s gaze wonders over to you at the sound of your voice, then falling to her phone that was held in your hand.
“you weren’t supposed to see that.” her cheeks are quickly heated with a pink tint much to her displeasure, brushing it off with a embarrassed chuckle.
“why not? it’s cute.” she watches the way you struggle to contain your pretty smile, the corners of your glossy lips twitching upwards as you gush over her lockscreen. it’s a candid photo of you smelling the bouquet of flowers she brought you on one of your first dates.
she can’t fight off the bashfulness as you direct your attention to her, enjoying the sight very much. “i didn’t know you were such a romantic,” you tease, coming closer to wrap your arms around her shoulders.
“you make me like this.” she sighs contentedly as you press a kiss to her cheek, cooing softly as she melts into your touch.
“do i now?” at the sound of your teasing tone se-mi looks down at you from her position. you’re practically in her lap as you cheekily grin up at her as if you don’t know what your smile does to her heart as it beats erratically in her chest.
“you have no idea.”
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blood on your hands
kang dae ho x f!reader
in which you commit an act so unforgivable, yet reasonable
warnings: murder, death, nsfw!! 18+, minors please dni. smut with plot. oral (dh receiving). switch!daeho. switch!reader. praise. no PinV. VERY long chapter. dark chapter. original plot changes. y/n is used. reader is player 099. reader is the murderer. established relationship with dae-ho before the games. this takes place after the mingle games. the original character in this fic is player 123. I am not responsible for the content you choose to read after you hit, "keep reading"
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the bathroom is a mess of bodies and tension.
the air thick with sweat, fear, disgusting body waste, and the sharp buzz of the overhead fluorescent lights. the guards stand at the entrance, their rifles slung carelessly over their shoulders, barely paying attention.
they know no one is dumb enough to try anything here, not after the mingle game.
a game in which you barely survived too.
anyways, you should be focusing on keeping jun-hee safe, making sure she gets in and out of here without trouble, but your mind keeps circling back to dae-ho.
your man.
the love of your life.
the marine’s voice is still fresh in your ears.
"stay safe, no heroics."
all of the women were assigned to all go to the bathroom before lights out. you had smiled at him, something small, something just for him.
"i’ll be okay,"
you had promised, squeezing his hand.
"i'll stay with jun-hee the whole time."
he hadn't liked it. you could tell by the way his jaw clenched, by the flicker of hesitation in his eyes, like he wanted to argue but knew it would only make things harder. he is super protective about you, even before the games back at home.
in the end, he let you go, but not before tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering like he was trying to memorize you.
"come back to me."
you had nodded. you always would.
the two of you had been together for years. your relationship wasn’t new, wasn’t fragile. it was something built, something strong, something that had withstood everything life had thrown at you before the games.
this?
this was different.
this was a nightmare neither of you had ever prepared for.
when you first locked eyes after red light, green light, it felt like the world had cracked open. neither of you had known the other would be here.
neither of you had imagined, in your worst nightmares, that this was how you’d meet again after not seeing each other for days.
after meeting the salesman, the both of you had a plan to pay off each other's debts. unaware that the other had the same exact plan too.
the first game, dae-ho had stormed across the bloodstained ground, past the trembling bodies of the survivors, past the bodies that would never move again, and grabbed you like you were slipping through his fingers.
“why are you here?"
his voice had been raw, panicked.
"how…why…"
"why are you here?"
you had shot back, just as desperate, just as lost.
you both had kept your struggles quieter than you should have, thinking you could handle them alone. thinking you didn’t have to drag each other down.
it didn’t matter now.
now, all that mattered was surviving. together.
which was what led you here…standing in a sea of exhausted, wary women, pushing into the bathroom with jun-hee behind you and hyun-ju in front, keeping them close, like a shield.
you aren’t the only one on edge. hyun-ju’s beautiful eyes are scanning, assessing. she turns around and catches the way your fingers twitch at your sides, the way your shoulders stay stiff.
"you okay?" her voice is low, careful.
you force a small nod.
"just need to pee badly."
it’s a lie.
hyun-ju knows. she reads people too well…probably from whatever special forces training she’s had.
she doesn’t press, just gives you a look before shifting her attention elsewhere.
it’s not the bathroom that has you tense.
it’s her.
player 123.
she’s already ahead, pushing through the group like she owns the place along with her goon’s, loud and grating. she hasn’t stopped talking since mingle. hasn’t stopped running her mouth.
"you see that one triangle guard earlier?"
she crows to no one in particular, shoving her elbow into the woman next to her.
"dude was practically asleep. i bet i could’ve grabbed his gun…boom, game over."
the woman beside her gives a nervous laugh, stepping away. no one outside of her dickriding goons wants to be near her…she’s too reckless, too unpredictable.
your fingers curl into a fist at your side.
you don’t trust her. not after what happened in the six-legged penalathon.
you and player 123 had almost killed each other.
it had been an accident, but that didn’t matter. the two of you had made a mistake, a single misstep, a moment of hesitation that had nearly sent both of you crashing to your deaths. and she blamed you.
the audacity.
when jun-hee came to your group, asking to join. you gave up your spot for the woman. dae-ho protested, but you told him that the pregnant woman needs to live, so being with men will help her.
dae-ho intensely watched you as you approached 123 and her group of 4. player 123 said you could join, since she needed another woman who looked, “as fit as you.”
however, that was a mistake.. since you both nearly tripped when you were running to the finish line.
since then, she hated you..
you weren’t exactly fond of her either.
you keep jun-hee behind you as the crowd shifts into the cramped bathroom. it’s a tight space, bodies pressing in on all sides. no privacy, no safety.
you aren’t the only one feeling it…jun-hee shifts uncomfortably, pressing a protective hand over her stomach. you glance at her, lowering your voice.
"we’ll be quick. i won’t let anything happen."
she nods, trusting.
too trusting.
you can feel player 123's presence, her laughter cutting through the thick air like a blade. she’s talking again, louder now, complaining about everything.
"this is ridiculous," she groans, kicking the bottom of a stall.
"they’re treating us like animals. like we’re not even people."
you bite back the urge to snap.
because that’s the thing...she’s not wrong.
that doesn’t make you hate her any less.
hyun-ju watches you carefully from the side, tracking the way your body tenses, the way your fingers tap against your leg like you’re holding yourself back from something.
"she’s not worth it," hyun-ju mutters under her breath.
you exhale sharply, steadying yourself.
"i know."
that doesn’t stop you from keeping an eye on player 123. doesn’t stop the weight of her presence from pressing into you.
because in a place like this, grudges can get you killed.
the guards stand lazily outside of the entrance, their rifles hanging at their sides, not paying attention.
they don’t care about the many players inside one hot room.
but you do.
you keep jun-hee close, guiding her toward the stalls. she looks miserable, her hand resting over the curve of her belly, shoulders tight with exhaustion.
"y/n, i just need to sit for a second."
jun-hee pulls you towards the first stall.
she goes into one of the stalls, locking it behind her, and you let out a slow breath. your heart is still racing. not because of the guards, not because of the way the other women keep their eyes peeled for weakness…but because of player 123.
you hear her voice somewhere off to the side, barking out a laugh, too loud, too confident.
"these stalls are disgusting, i swear to god. like what do they want us to do? piss outside?"
she’s talking to no one in particular, but the woman next to her lets out a forced chuckle, clearly too nervous to ignore her.
“she is so fucking annoying!”
you think.
your jaw clenches, fingers twitching at your side.
you don’t trust her. you never have.
so when jun-hee comes out of her stall, you decide to go in after her. not because you need to pee, but because you don’t want to have to go later, when things could be worse.
“i’ll be quick," you murmur, passing by hyun-ju, who is by the sinks, watching everything like a hawk.
"stay alert," she tells you.
you nod, stepping inside the stall, locking it behind you.
you sit, but your mind is elsewhere, lost in the horrors of the game.
everything blurs together…the blood, the screams, the crack of bones snapping under pressure. you squeeze your eyes shut, pressing your palms into your thighs, trying to push the thoughts away, trying to remind yourself that you're still here. still breathing. still alive.
BANG.
your entire body jolts at the sudden impact against the stall door.
"can you hurry the fuck up?"
that voice.
your blood runs cold.
player 123.
you don’t say anything, don’t react, hoping she’ll just move on, but then
she crawls under the stall.
your breath catches in your throat, horror spiking through your veins as her hands and knees scrape against the filthy tile, her face appearing under the gap before she pulls herself inside, into your space.
"are you fucking stupid?"
you snap, scrambling to pull your joggers up as you stagger to your feet.
she just laughs.
loud, grating, obnoxious.
"oh? oh, look at that." she grins, rocking back on her heels.
"it’s the stupid bitch who almost got us killed!"
your fists clench.
"get the fuck out,"
you hiss, pushing past her to unlock the door.
she follows you.
you storm toward the sinks, your entire body thrumming with rage. she’s right on your heels, her voice sharp and mocking as she keeps egging you on.
"what’s wrong, 099? mad i called you out? mad that you’re such a weak bitch who made it this far? "
you ignore her, stepping toward the sinks where hyun-ju and jun-hee are.
she doesn’t stop.
"you think you’re some big hero? sticking with your little group like you’re different from the rest of us? newsflash, sweetheart…nobody here is safe."
your hands shake. you grip the edge of the sink, trying to steady yourself.
then she says it.
"you know... i started to notice how close you and player 388 are. are you guys together?"
123’s tone shifts, turning cruel, taunting.
you stare at her through the mirror, hoping she shuts the fuck up.
"wait, awee you guys are together! you know.. he’s such a charm. i cannot wait to steal him when you die during the next game!"
that’s it.
before you can even think, your body moves on its own.
you turn, your fist flying through the air, and the impact is satisfying to your mind and knuckles.
CRACK.
your knuckles collide with her face, sending her stumbling backward, her body hitting the ground with a hard thud.
someone gasps.
her goons rush forward, helping her up.
hyun-ju steps toward you, eyes sharp, but before she can say anything—
all hell breaks loose.
somewhere in the room, another fight erupts.
two randome women claw at each other, snarling like wild animals, hair being pulled, screams echoing off the tile.
and then, like a chain reaction, everyone starts fighting.
jun-hee stumbles back against the wall, hiding, pressing her hands over her stomach, panic flashing across her face. she knows she doesn’t stand a chance in this chaos.
hyun-ju moves quickly, diving into the mess, trying to break up fights before they get worse.
you…you don’t get the chance.
because player 123 tackles you.
you slam into the sink counter, pain exploding through your ribs.
"you wanna fucking hit me, huh?"
she seethes, grabbing onto your shirt.
"you bitch! you think you’re tough?"
you fight back, gripping her by the shoulders, trying to throw her off. but she’s strong, fueled by anger, by adrenaline.
you both go crashing to the ground.
she’s on top of you, fists flying.
one punch.
two.
three.
your face is bruised, bloodied.
your vision goes blurry, the taste of iron thick in your mouth as blood pools around your molar teeth.
you gasp, hands scrambling for anything.
you grip 123’s neck, trying to choke her, trying to stop her punches, but she just snarls, yanking at your hair, slamming your head back against the tile.
someone—se-mi—tries to pull her off.
but it’s not working.
you’re losing.
then
something presses against your thigh.
your metal fork.
the one from earlier’s meal. the one you saved, just in case something like this happened
your fingers close around it inside of your pocket.
without thinking..without hesitating..
you move your right hand quickly and plunge it into her neck.
she freezes.
123’s brown eyes go wide.
her hands, her fists, stop.
she limps, her body crumbling.
however, that was not enough.
something inside you snaps.
you stab.
again.
again.
again.
again.
again.
over and over and over until..
"STOP!"
arms pull you back… hyun-ju.
your breath is ragged, your chest heaving.
player 123 is dead.
her body is still.
her blood is everywhere.
you don’t realize what you’ve done…not really…until hyun-ju drags you into the hallway, pushing you against the wall beside a guard.
you’re hyperventilating. those pink lungs of yours cannot seem to catch a breath.
hyun-ju doesn’t yell at you. doesn’t scold you for murder since that would be hypocritical of her. she just takes the bloody fork from your hands, wipes at the blood on your face…though your 099 shirt is already soaked in red.
"breathe," she orders.
you can’t.
"what did i do?"
jun-hee stands nearby, eyes wide, face pale.
she looks at you, then at the bodies inside.
"nothing. since nothing will be mentioned to the others,"
she says quietly.
you nod.
silent.
back to the dorms.. you can barely walk.
your legs feel like they don’t belong to you, and the weight of what you just did claws at your chest, sinking deep into your ribs, making it hard to breathe.
hyun-ju keeps her arm wrapped tightly around you, holding you up, making sure you don’t collapse under your own exhaustion. your shirt is soaked in blood..
some yours, most of it hers.
player 123 is dead.
you did that.
you killed her.
yet, in this moment, all you can focus on is putting one foot in front of the other as you and the remaining women shuffle back into the dorms.
the second the doors open, the tension inside the dorm shifts.
the men had heard everything.
the screams.
the fighting.
the pounding of bodies slamming against the walls, the stalls, the sinks.
the killings.
it was a nightmare.
and dae-ho almost ran after you.
he had almost lost his mind when the first screams from multiple women echoed through the halls, his entire body lurching forward, ready to run, to fight, to protect you, before jung bae grabbed him.
"don’t." jung bae had hissed, forcing him to stay put.
"we don’t know what’s happening yet."
"it’s a fucking massacre, that’s what," young-il had muttered under his breath, his face pale as they all listened.
dae-ho couldn’t stay calm.
he was barely breathing, his hands clenching and unclenching, his mind running a thousand miles a minute.
you had told him you’d be okay.
you had promised.
but then why did the screaming keep going?
why did it sound like hell itself had broken loose in there?
at one point, it sounded like you were screaming.
it was, it was when you were repeatedly stabbing 123 over and over again.
back in the dorms, dae-ho kept trying to reason with himself.
you don’t start fights.
you aren’t reckless.
then he remembered the way you and 123 had argued after your group barely survived the six-legged penalathon…by four fucking seconds.
he remembered 123 cursing you out, yelling about how you should’ve died instead of her almost falling.
he remembered the way you just flicked her off, walking away.
she was a loose cannon.
123 was like thanos and namgyu smashed into one woman.
what if—
the doors open.
the women return.
and it’s worse than he imagined.
the ones who come back look horrible.
some are bloody. some have fresh bruises. some have torn shirts, missing shoes, swollen faces.
but not as many women return as there were when they left.
dae-ho’s stomach drops.
he scans the group frantically.
the marine’s heart hammers.
his eyes land on hyun-ju and jun-hee first…both fine, exhausted but fine.
then he sees you and his blood runs cold.
his baby. his love.
you look destroyed. your face is bloodied. your right eye is swollen. there’s a deep cut above your eyebrow, blood trailing down your cheek, dripping onto your already soaked shirt.
your lips are busted.
your knuckles are bruised and your hands are shaking.
"what the fuck happened?"
dae-ho’s voice is sharp, broken.
hyun-ju doesn’t answer right away.
instead, she tightens her grip on you, like she’s trying to shield you from his panic.
it’s too late.
he pushes forward, prying you out of hyun-ju’s arms, cradling you in his own.
his hands hover over your face, your wounds, your bruises, like he doesn’t know where to touch, where to fix, where to start.
"baby, oh my god, what did they do to you?" his voice breaks.
he lifts you into his arms, carrying you straight to his bed, settling you down gently, as if you might shatter if he moves too fast.
you don’t say anything.
you can’t.
because if you open your mouth, if you speak,you might just say what you did.
so instead, you stare at the ceiling, your breath shallow, your fingers gripping the sheets beneath you.
hyun-ju and jun-hee exchange a look.
they don’t tell him.
they don’t say what really happened.
that is your place, not theirs.
they don’t tell him that you killed player 123 in a fit of survival and rage, stabbing her over and over again until her body was lifeless.
instead, hyun-ju lies.
"a fight broke out. everyone was attacking each other."
dae-ho’s jaw tightens, his eyes flicking over every bruise, every wound, every drop of blood.
"and she was attacked?"
jun-hee nods.
"we barely made it out."
dae-ho exhales sharply, his hands trembling as he tears a piece of his 388 shirt, dipping it into some cup of water (belonging to gi-hun) before gently pressing it against your wounds.
"fuck, i should’ve been there," he mutters.
"i should’ve protected you."
you swallow.
dae-ho’s words make your chest ache in a way you can’t explain.
he doesn’t know.
he doesn’t know what you did.
he doesn’t know that you aren’t just hurt.
you are a killer now.
across the room, young-il/001/the frontman undercover watches you carefully as he sits beside a worried gi-hun and jung-bae.
his eyes linger.
he knows.
he doesn’t say anything, doesn’t make a scene, but you catch the way he scans the room, the way he takes note of who came back..and who didn’t.
123 isn’t here
he knows.
you don’t look at dae-ho.
you can’t
because then you’d have to acknowledge it. and right now, you just want to pretend.
pretend you didn’t just take a life.
pretend you’re still you.
the speaker comes on and the room freezes as everyone listens. suddenly, the names of the eliminated players in the women’s bathroom echo through the dorms.
"player 037. eliminated."
"player 272. eliminated."
"player 081. eliminated."
"player 410. eliminated."
"player 008. eliminated."
"player 072. eliminated."
and then..
"player 123. eliminated."
the second her number is called, the room shifts in your perspective.
your stomach twists.
dae-ho’s eyes snap to you.
then to hyun-ju.
hyun-ju turns away.
you tense.
but he doesn’t know.
not yet. not yet.
because lights out is coming.
during lights out, you wake up to dae-ho who is looking up at the ceiling. the ceiling where the gold pig sits with all of the money. the money from the dead players.
“baby, is everything alright?”
you ask lightly, putting your hand on his upper thigh as he looks over at you.
the man smiles lightly, brushing a piece of hair off of your forehead as you close your eyes.. taking in his touch.
“i should be asking you that.”
dae-ho responds.
of course you are still thinking about the murder you committed. however, you know that there will not be any legal consequences. the guards and this whole game is illegal itself!
however, you wonder how dae-ho will look at you.
he used to talk to you about a murder that he committed while he was in the marines. the one thing that started his PTSD while serving. however, he was forced to do that.
you were not forced.
well, that is debatable.
since you were acting in self-defense.
you brought your sore lips over dae-ho’s and started kissing him soflty, moving his hands to your ass while you sat your clothed core on top of his bulge.
“y/n.”
he groans through your lips.
“hm.”
you smirk.
“is this alright? i don’t want you to feel uncom–”
“we need a distraction, dae-ho.”
two minutes later, your lips around around his fat tip. the marine’s head laid back against the hard wall, his pants pulled down to his ankles as you took his whole length inside of your throat.
you were distracting yourself. your focus is fully on your lover’s scent, his big dick in your throat, your hands massaging his balls, and the way your lashes batted up at his eyes while you sucked his dick.
this is the only way you can distract yourself from earlier. the murder. the murder you commited.
dae-ho wrapped your hair in a ponytail with his hands while you continued to do your work. you concentrated your tongue on a particular vein on his shaft while arching your back in the process.
"fuck, you're sucking me off so perfectly."
your boyfriend of five years reaches over to massage your clothed ass, groaning softly as you deepthroated his cock.
obviously, sucking his cock during lights out, where a player can easily see you, was not ideal for most people. however, you refused to pull dae-ho into a bathroom and do it. not where you killed 123.
dae-ho’s cock twitched inside of your throat and you hummed, feeling his white load spill inside of your mouth and throat.
the man puts a pillow over his head, so the pillow can block out his loud pornographic moan he spoke out.
you were always so good at sucking his dick, oh how much he missed it while the games were happening.
you helped your boyfriend pull his boxers and pants back on. the man flipped you over and kissed all over your neck, but you cringed.
not because of dae-ho, not at all. you were so desperate for his tongue on your clit but somehow.. you started smelling the metallic blood from earlier.
123’s blood.
tears fill your eyes almost immediately.
when dae-ho realized that you were crying out of fear instead of pleasure, he stopped instantly. he pulled you into his arms as you stained his shirt with your tears.
you started to hyperventilate again.
dae-ho keeps you in his arms, but pulls your head off of his chest in order to help yourself breathe.
“baby, please breathe.”
dae-ho panics, nearly having tears in his eyes too.
“dae-ho, i-i-ca-can’t. i’m ah-a monster.”
you coughed out.
dae-ho frowns.
“no you’re not!”
he mumbles confidently, truthfully.
“you’re my angel.”
you cry more, shaking your head with a frown.
“angels don't kill people, dae-ho.”
you sob, wiping your nose with your blood stained jacket.
“what?”
dae-ho’s eyes widened.
“sh-sh-she was so close to killing me i-in there!”
you start shaking, dae-ho holds your hands as you try to recall the memory.
your lips turn pale. dae-ho holds the back of your head with his large hands as more tears fall down your face.
“dae-ho, i killed 123!!! the fork i-i ha-had when we ate the bibimbap to-together! she almost beat me to death so i stabbed her.”
your hands started shaking to the point where dae-ho had to hold them.
not only was the memory so traumatic, but you were started to think that dae-ho would leave you.
scared that he would not want someone who is a murderer.
dae-ho’s eyes are widened, he cannot say anything.
“puh-pl-please say something! i swear it was in self-defense!! she did this to me-”
you pointed at the bruises and cuts on your face.
“i-i couldn’t breathe before i felt the fork in my pocket. i had to, i am so sorry! please forgive me for being a monster!”
you forced your hands out of dae-ho’s and covered your face, ashamed of yourself.
dae-ho is everything good in this world. even here, in this twisted, merciless game, he treats you like you’re made of glass…like you’re still the same person he fell in love with before all of this.
you’re scared.. now you believe that he knows that the girl he’s holding, the girl he’s protecting so fiercely, is not the girl he fell in love with.
you’re a monster. a murderer.
the blood on your hands isn’t just yours…it’s 123s.
dae-ho holds you again.. and doesn’t let go of you. not even for a second.
the marine’s arms stay firmly around you, grounding you as your entire body shakes, as your chest heaves, struggling to pull in air. your lungs burn, your throat closes, and your vision blurs with the overwhelming flood of emotions crashing down on you all at once.
you can’t stop crying.
you can’t stop the guilt, the fear, the shame from clawing at your insides, making you feel like you’re being ripped apart from the inside out.
"i'm a monster,"
you choke out between uneven breaths.
"i don’t deserve you, dae-ho. i don’t.."
"stop."
dae-ho’s voice is gentle, but firm. the man’s hands cup your face, thumbs wiping away the hot tears streaming down your cheeks, even though they just keep coming.
"baby, listen to me. i understand."
dae-ho’s voice is steady, warm, full of something so deep and unwavering.. it only makes you cry harder.
"i know. it was self-defense."
you shake your head, gripping onto his wrists like he’s the only thing keeping you from falling apart completely in this hellhole.
"but i still did it," you whisper, voice breaking.
"i still killed her."
dae-ho doesn’t flinch.
his grip doesn’t loosen.
his expression doesn’t change.
"and it would have been you killed if you hadn’t."
his words hit hard, slicing through the noise in your head.
you inhale sharply, shuddering.
"this game… it’s bringing out the worst in all of us." his voice softens, his forehead pressing against yours.
"this isn’t your fault, baby. you were protecting yourself."
you sob, shaking your head violently.
"no–"
"yes." he pulls back just enough to look at you, really look at you, his dark eyes full of nothing but love.
"you’re not a monster. you’re still my girl… my angel."
dae-ho’svoice breaks on those last words, but he keeps going.
he wants to cry with you.
"when we get out of here, i’ll get us help." he promises.
"therapy, whatever you need, i’ll be right there with you. we’ll get through this. together."
your face crumples, your hands tightening in the fabric of his 388 shirt.
"how can you still love me after this?"
dae-ho lets out a soft, shaky breath, like he can’t believe you’d even ask that.
"how can i not? you’re the love of my life. bad or good."
your chest shakes as another sob wracks through you, but this time, it’s different.
it’s not just grief, it’s relief.
because he’s not leaving.
he’s not disgusted.
he’s not giving up on you.
"i’m not mad, baby. i’m not mad at you." his lips press against your temple, lingering.
"and we’re okay. i’m still with you. i’m still going to protect you."
"we’re okay?" you whisper, almost afraid to believe it.
he nods, pulling you closer, holding you like he never wants to let go.
"we’re okay."
masterlist
Closer 😩
~pairing: se-mi / player 380 x fem!reader
~ fluff, drunk se-mi, confessions
Se-mi still hadn’t called you back. You sighed, tucking your phone away. Unwilling to chase her, you hadn’t gone further than a missed call and a few texts. But you couldn’t get her out of your mind, couldn’t stop thinking about the things you’d overheard her saying to Min-su
°°••....••°°
The night before, you’d gone to hang out at Nam-gyu’s with a couple of friends. Se-mi had been acting weird for the past few days, distant. She hadn’t been spending any time with you, or looking you in the eye. She was your best friend, and you had hardly spoken to her properly in a week. You decided not to confront her and cause a scene in front of everyone, and instead did your best to distract yourself. You chatted with Thanos, because at the very least conversations with him were pretty entertaining. You drank and laughed, letting all thoughts of your best friend seep out of your mind.
But of course, it didn’t last long. You were helping Nam-gyu refill everyone’s drinks when he asked you, “Where did Se-mi go? Could you find her and ask her if she wants a refill? Yeah and that Min-su too”. You really didn’t want to, but if you refused, you knew he would start asking questions that you did not have the energy to answer.
You begrudgingly headed up the stairs to find them, eventually seeing them having a tense conversation in the darkened hallway. You could’nt hear the words she was saying, but it didn't seem like they were fighting. You stayed out of sight, creeping a bit closernto hear what they were saying, figuring that the conversation must be about you.
“I just, ugh I don't know what to do? I mean, she’s my best friend, you know, and these stupid feelings just make things too complicated. If she knew how I felt I’m sure she would hate me. She would never talk to me again. I can't risk that. You know I’m not a coward. Telling her… would just make things worse. But I just can’t bear to be around her knowing that she won’t ever feel the same. I mean, have you seen the way she looks at that co-worker friend of hers. That stupid guy, I just hate him”, she was speaking faster than you could keep up with. What was she talking about? She liked you? You could hardly believe it, someone like her having feelings for you and being so overwhelmed by those feelings that she hadn’t even realized yours. The only reason you had brought a friend from work for a gathering was to make her jealous, but it seemed to have worked too well. She thought you actually liked him?
You couldn’t keep listening to this. “Se-mi?”, you couldn’t keep the surprise out of your voice. She spun around when she heard you, her expression painted with horror. “Did you hear all that?”, her jaw clenched, her piercing gaze shattering any will you had to confront her. In this situation, how were you supposed to tell her that you too had feelings for her? Before any words could come out of your mouth, Min-su interjected, “What’s up? Are the others calling us?” You sputtered out a yes, and Min-su hurriedly pulled Se-mi with him down the stairs, unwilling to be in the middle of whatever was brewing between you too. You stood there stunned for a few minutes before heading downstairs youself.
Se-mi was pulling on her jacket. “I’m leaving. I’ll see you guys later”, she didn’t meet your gaze as she slammed the door shut behind her. Ever clueless, Thanos asked you, “What happened?”
“Um, nothing. I dunno”. You were grateful that Min-su didn’t say anything either.
You couldn’t bear to be there a second longer and decided to just head home. When you reached your apartment, you immediately called Se-mi, but she hadn’t picked up. She’d even ignored your texts. There was nothing you could do but wait for her to reach out.
°°••....••°°
Your phone ringing shook you out of your thoughts. She finally called you back! And you could tell her everything and… nope it was just Thanos. Rolling your eyes, you picked up, your tone uninterested when you answered. But upon hearing the worry in his voice you were instantly on high alert. “Listen, you have to get here right now. I don’t know what you did to my girl Se-mi, but she’s turnt. I legit have never seen her like this”, he was, for some reason, almost rapping this information to you, and your brain was struggling to keep up with how fast he was talking. “What? Where are you?”, you questioned.
“Oh, we’re at my place”.
“Ok, I’ll be there in a bit”.
You were getting more worried every minute that passed by as you drove to Thanos’ apartment. Se-mi never got drunk. She didn’t like being vulnerable around others, in public. And especially not if it was with Thanos and Nam-gyu, because even though they were your close friends, you would definitely say they weren’t the most responsible guys. You pulled up to the building, nearly jumping out of your car.
°°••....••°°
She-mi rubbed her temples with a groan. It was such a stupid fucking idea to come here, knowing that the only advice Thanos would give in this situation was to get shit-faced. And of course, being a heartbroken idiot, she listened.
God, you’d overheard everything, all the feelings she had tried too hard to hide from you. In the end, all she could do was run away, and now your friendship was ruined.
The doorbell rang, practically drilling a hole in her head. Nam-gyu nibbled over to the door, pulling it open to reveal you standing there. “Se-mi, c’mon I’m taking you back home, you’re staying with me”. Even in her inebriated state, she knew there was no fighting it, and she wasn’t in any position to anyway. She obliged, letting you loop your arm around hers and pull her up. Saying a quick goodbye to the others, you led her to your car, setting her in the passenger seat and buckled her seatbelts before she had a chance to fall over. As you drove home, you kept checking to make sure she was alright as she began to doze off.
°°••....••°°
You held Se-mi up as you entered your apartment. She was held so close to you that you could smell the alcohol, as well as her own scent lingering underneath. Setting her down on the sofa, you filled a glass of water, bringing it to her. “Finish all of it okay?”, your voice was gentle. She emptied the glass and set it down, turning to face you. She looked up at you with wide, vulnerable eyes, her expression making your insides melt.
“Why are you taking care of me?”.
Your eyebrows furrowed, “You're my best fr- you're the most important person to me. Of course I'll take care of you”.
“Even after what you heard? Do I not… make you feel weird?”, she looked away, unable to meet your eyes. With a gentle hand on her chin, you pulled her gaze up to yours.
“I don’t feel weird because… I feel the same way Se-mi. I always have”. You didn’t even realize what was happening when, the next moment, her lips were on yours, soft and sweet. Instinctively, your hands reached up to grip her hair, hers cupping your jaw. Heat flared through your entire body as her tongue pushed into your mouth, the kisses becoming deep and hungry. You pulled away from her, both of you breathless.
Unable to read the expression on your face, she began to stutter out an apology. “I’m sorry… that was sudden and I didn't even ask or anyth-” “It’s okay Se-mi, I..uh…I wanted to kiss you too. But you’re drunk and I don't want to take advantage of you or something so…” “Hmm”, was all she replied, her eyelids dropping, and you could sense the exhaustion setting over her. You chuckled, “Let’s get you to bed alright?”. You helped her to your room, getting her settled with whatever she needed. As you were turning around, Se-mi grabbed onto your hand, grumbling sleepily, “Where are you going?”
“Oh I was gonna go sleep on the sofa…”
“Just c’mere”, she pulled you onto the bed. With a small laugh you settled in next to her, rubbing little circle on her arm. Wrapping her arms around you, snuggling her face into your hair. She let out a content smile, immediately falling asleep.
She looked so peaceful in her sleep, calm and relaxed, and you couldn't believe she was here with you, bundled up in your arms. Slowly, you too followed into the realm of sleep, chest rising and falling along with hers.
p.s. pls send requests for other squid game characters (especially headcanons), or even for any of the other fandoms I write for. <3
pt. 2…smut…? ;)