I did it. I scrolled back through all 200-odd posts for this particular blog. The 200-odd that have survived the multiple reinventions of this, the main blog for my tumblr account.
The nature of this platform means that without risking deletion of side blogs [message me if you want in on my zany side interests] I can’t just wipe the slate clean, I have to manually go back each time this blog evolves and decide whether past posts still match with my current message.
It can feel weird, like rewriting your own history, to decide what stays and what goes. It can feel freeing, to delete posts or reblogs that no longer fit with where you are now. It’s the refreshing veneer of social media - as long as one doesn’t think too hard about the ‘everything is on the internet forever’ - suggesting you can remake your online presence whenever you feel like it. For my way of thinking, it’s the chance to clarify current thoughts. To streamline focus and interest via supporting text and images. What doesn’t support, needs to go.
Perhaps it’s a sign of maturity that this time around, I found little need to click the garbage can button. Or a recognition of a broadened focus.
Once upon a time, I experimented with wicca, than secular/humanist naturalism, then secular zen buddhism.
As I’m still investigating the world of secular zen buddhism, so the legacy of this latest version of the blog remains. Otherwise, there are old and new posts about nature, and posts with happy animals, selfless acts, and the encouragement to be kind to oneself and others.
Across all three previous versions of the blog, and all current posts/reblogs on this blog, is a reverence for nature, a recognition of the connection and value of all living beings, and the encouragement to exercise compassion.
I’m keeping this mix of posts because I want to take these values with me on my journeys.
It feels like coming full circle. An awareness of how walking has always connected me to nature, a curiousity about how zen practice can be incorporated into walking, and a hope that connection to nature, zen and the act of walking will help me be a more compassionate person.