#self dissection

[magicajaphet]

a taste of some commentary i'd add onto my speculation if i could without sounding like that one deltarune theorist who can ramble for hours with no stop

the included posts can be found in before and after ribbits abstraction

maybe i'll do stuff like this more if it's interesting to ppl to see how my weird ass character fixated brain thinks

it also probably doesn't help my ass that i like to regularly roleplay with other ppl's characters to show off the angst that my characters feel in the most realistic way possible 😭

[festering-remains]

Carnage - "Self Dissection" from Dark Recollections (1990)

[obligatory-name-change]

Me, tired:

My brain: hey what if you dissected yourself while on painkillers so you wouldn't feel any pain but you'd be fully awake and touching your organs

Me:

Me: what the fuck

[wormy-fren]

1st Archive post.

YouTuber: Messed up stories, she prefers to be called Xena.

Video: Dangerous Date: Yandere Medusa takes you out

Link for those who are interested in listening to the video.

The actual fren review:

Time to see if they're fren material

Edit: Yeah, they're probably a bit too pushy in making us live in with her immediately. At the same time, her goblins are probably cute. Also she does seem to care about us a lot. Which is just really sweet of her. Overall, probably not a good fren, but very endearing nonetheless.

Reflection: This is... Or rather was the start of my habit of doing this. I have no idea why it happened. It just did. These get longer... Never shorter. I'd definitely write at least another two paragraphs for this video if I were to re-review it. And honestly I'm tempted to review it again because I have a very large suspicion that I would go ballistic on writing about the cute lil gorgon... Hell the reflection is bigger than the actual fren review now because I just waffle on because for my way of speaking and reporting I simply love to dissect something. Splaying its innards for all to see and understand with language that quite literally puts an image into someone's head because when I type I always think of it as me speaking to someone. Anyways. I'll stop talking here. This was the first time I did the fren review thing.... And honestly I've grown to love it.

Thank you Xena, you somehow inspired me to do this, and for that I'll always be grateful.

2nd Archive post

YouTuber: Messed up Stories, prefers to be referred as Xena

Video: GF Yandere games

The link for those who are interested in listening

The actual fren review:

Time to see if they're fren material

Edit: so yeah, they seem like a very controlling partner. Although I dont think that they have done anything as drastic as the medusa. But at the same time when theres a court case and they're mocking us, it's sorta a sign that theyre probably not a good person. And yeah that ultimately bleeds into their personality. But at the same time, they are casual they are likely trying to lighten the mood as they try to think about the situation and generally hold themselves accountable for what they should do. So yeah, probably not a good fren ar the best of times. So sadly theyre a bad fren.

Review reflection: Yeahhh... They get bigger.... There's definitely a lot of untouched ground. At least for me, so yeah. If you ever see this video being linked again, just know. My future self became very hyper and decided to go and write a second fren review for this video because his mind works in ways I will never understand. I feel like there's a lot of untouched ground here if there is. I'll make a do-over because I'm odd like that. Anyways... Thank you Xena. From what I remember this was a nice listen.

With that I'll stop here. Lotta words, don't want to put more words out than the Bible in one post (yet this is a threat to my past self that's right I'm talking to you past me)

If I remember. Expect another two tomorrow-ish probably, probably not sourced from Xena's channel so they'll be a bit later down the timeline of posting (Don't worry for your sanities I'll not bother tracking which ones came first) but uh yeah, this was like.... Really fun. I don't know why.

[i-dont-even-sleep-at-night]

Dissection of the Whole

The self is likened to shattered pieces of a mosaic that can be dispersed. Each external entity encountered (alliteration always drives the

[dayentika]

why can’t i stop beating myself for mistakes i did? possibility 1: they’re big time mistakes and still continue screwing up my life until now, though no amount of regret could possibly change the past possibility 2: secretly i’m desperate to hear “you’ve done your best” from someone else, which unheard of at least to me