Heās trying to win you back after cheating on you.
After cheating, Shuto first tries to act like nothing really happened, like everythingās fine, but not because he doesnāt care or because heās dumb enough not to understand what he did. He just genuinely doesnāt know how to properly admit heās wrong. For several days he walks around angry and irritated, trains until exhaustion (like itās some great way to distract himself and burn off energy), and gets pissed that you stopped texting him first (or stopped texting at all, or only reply dryly lol). And then it really hits him.
The moment he realizes you could actually leave him forever and not just ābe upset for a whileā (āget mad and calm down laterā like some like to say, yeah), he starts showing up around you way too often. Random encounters? No. He purposely finds out through mutual friends where youāll be. He just stands nearby like itās accidental and waits for at least some kind of reaction to the presence of his āgreat persona.ā
Shuto doesnāt know how to apologize beautifully. There wonāt be some long speech about feelings and regret. More like a simple, dry: āI screwed up. I know.ā
And thatās it. Itās not even a direct confession that he cheated, just that he āmessed up.ā But you can hear in his voice how hard it was for him to even say that much.
It irritates him horribly when you start treating him calmly and indifferently. He can handle anger and yelling, thatās one thing, but your indifference genuinely drives him insane and hurts more than anything else.
If he notices someone else starting to flirt with you, his possessiveness switches on instantly like he still has any right to claim you and the worst part is that he knows he doesnāt have the right to be jealous anymore, which only makes him even angrier.
He starts doing things he almost never did before: texting first, asking if youāve eaten, whether you got home safely, how youāre feeling. Suddenly it matters to him now. It comes off awkward sometimes, occasionally dry, but he keeps doing it consistently.
During practice he becomes more aggressive than usual. Everyone notices Sendou plays like heās on edge. Because at the same time his head is full of: āIām an idiotā and āWhy canāt you just forgive me and forget all this?ā
He absolutely would not be able to handle hearing: āI donāt trust you anymore.ā
That would hurt even worse than: āI donāt love you anymore.ā (But youāll say it.)
Shuto tries to prove his love through actions or at least tries to. Because for some reason only now does he start remembering all the little things about you he used to ignore. Only now does he actually start listening to you and only now does he desperately rely on the idea that āactions speak louder than words.ā
And they do. They just mostly speak about his desperation.
But the main problem is that heās terrified that if you two get back together, one day youāll use his cheating against him during an argument. Because he knows he deserves it and because of that, thereās this constant tension inside him.
If you do give him a second chance (donāt do it), he becomes unexpectedly careful about your boundaries, to the point where it almost hurts. Like heās constantly checking: āAre you still comfortable with meā¦?ā
And yes, after this Shuto becomes much more jealous. Not in a controlling or restrictive way, but in silent observation. He knows way too well how easy it is to lose someone because of your own stupidity.
Sometimes in the middle of the night, heāll suddenly pull you closer than usual and quietly mumble into your hair: āIāll never againā¦ā but he canāt force himself to finish the sentence.
Maybe because heās lying.
Or maybe because even remembering it still fills him with shame.
