#september thoughts

[tanyaluca]

September Sycamore Leaf...

[ow-anteater]

They really nerfed me good when they made sure the humidity is juuust right for my curls to look great in the same month my skin starts going literally grey

[a-confusedwriter]

I should have told you what you meant to me because I never thought we would run out of time; I never imagined our story would have a sudden halt. I should have told you that you were a routine I would never be bored of. The idea of seeing you every day put my heart at ease and kept the raging storm inside me calm.  You kept me grounded during the days I felt hopelessly floating around in this cruel, cruel world. You made me feel emotions I thought I would never feel and gave me hope for a better future I always fail to acknowledge. You molded me to be better than I used to, dragged me out of the pit of sadness I wallowed in and walked beside me in the lonely path that is my life. I should have told you even if there were times when you irritated and got me upset, I always find myself running back to you.  I should have told you I loved your laugh and your weird quirks. I should have told you that you were my home. I should have told you that certain songs will always remind me of you and it's not "you ruined my song" type of scenario but rather "I listen to it because I missed you."  Back then, you once asked me if I was glad that I saw you again after a long period of time but I never got to answer. So I'm going to answer it now: I would rewind time just to meet you earlier in this lifetime so I can spend more time with you. You are my person and I think that will never change.

lm // dear name, this is for you.

[cloudheadsoftheart]

Obsession

I keep you in my mind. In a strange place, I guess. Waiting for it to go way. I know it will. You took advantage of how sad I was and used it to make me feel bad about having feelings and being me.

Sun is shining now thank you.

[khumeia]

hmmmmm. very impressed with you & your willingness to move through harrowing & painful experiences, btw. yes, very impressed, indeed

[khumeia]

i refuse. i refuse to let shitty people steal my hope; my joy; my love; my peace; my gratitude; my awe; my imagination; my kindness; my empathy; my passion; my humanity; my desire; my energy; my power; my knowledge; my wisdom; my serenity; my romanticism; my idealism; my identity; my past; my present; my future; my story; my memories; my dreams; my faith; my trust; my light; my darkness; my desperation for a better world—

[khumeia]

my goodness is not a weakness, & it is okay if i don't know or understand everything yet

[a-confusedwriter]

1. I hope whenever you wake up in the morning, you will only feel the sunlight radiating on your skin and not the ache from your past. 2. Remember that when you feel unloved, someone out there is saddened because they cannot give the whole world to you. You are someone's reason for living. 3. Go to a nice and cozy cafe with your friends and just talk about anything in general. Realize how lucky you are to have a group of people who were with you during your darkest moments and your shiniest ones. 4. It's okay to be sad. Listen to sad songs, binge on junk foods, and most importantly, cry. You're going to be okay.  5. Know that tomorrow is another day where you can improve yourself. 6. Sleep in during the weekends and do not feel bad about it. You deserve rest from this tiring, tiring world.  7.  Do not be ashamed of going to places alone. Go on a picnic by yourself, eat out by yourself and even watch a movie by yourself.  8. Appreciate the little moments in life and do not take anything for granted. Tell your parents and friends that you love them with all of your heart. 9. Forgive people. Life is too short to be holding in grievances and resentments.  10. Learn how to love yourself a bit more.

lm // note to self