I can’t stop thinking about Jensen and Misha cooking together in the kitchen, they are in each other’s personal space, their eyes travel to each other’s lips and then lean in slow and their lips meet. Jared finds them 10 minutes later still just slowly making out against the counter. Whispering “finally” to the universe, he turns around hoping to sneak out without disturbing them.
Liiiiiisten.... if you don’t stop thinking about it, feel free to add more. Just sayin..
reaction post typed while watching JIBcon videos (part 2 of ?)
Cockles panel
in which Jared is abusive to Misha :C :C :C (and Jensen is maaaaybe angry about Destiel not being canon??? whoa)
previous post HERE
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03:51
how long’s it been, 3 days? 4? idk but HI LET’S WATCH MORE
i was 11 minutes in, after 2 hours. oh boy
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just rewatching the bit where the fan asks if they can sip the apple juice and i just realised jensen said “no!!” at the same time misha nodded and said “yep”
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aaaaand jensen watches misha drink before he licks his lips and drinks too *u*
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03:56pm
misha: “supernatural the series will be ending, it’s been announced, but we will be doing a puppet show in jensen’s backyard... for another ten seasons”
i would pay money
misha’s joking but i would pay money
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and jensen’s mouthing “oh my gaaahd” at misha bc he did not expect 500 people to cheer that
jensen: “THAT’S BRILLIANT”
yes
yes it is
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“no seriously i think we’re gonna do that”
i would legit love that pls do
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the apple juice is getting to him already
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04:00
fan: “what one thing you won’t miss after it’s done? and don’t say each other, that’s not true”
shoutout to that fan right there looking out for all of us
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04:0
misha: “i’m not gonna miss jared and jensen hurting me”
jensen goes all quiet, misha touches his leg
AND THEN MISHA APOLOGISES FOR FONDLING HIM
this is so fucking complex but also probably so simple
on the one hand that touch was automatic, assuring jensen, but also misha’s aware of how that exact kind of touch is not especially consensual in the context of what he’s talking about
they kind of seem to have two separate relationships, the personal/private/convention-performance one... and the on-set one. off set, misha’s in charge and jensen is his princess, but then on-set, misha is a sexually abused puppy
and honestly i don’t know how i feel about this, so i try and figure out how misha feels about it. like... it’s pretty obvious he doesn’t enjoy being hurt, but rarely actually gets upset about it (i.e.: the airplane), and still maintains an apparently consensual, respectful and emotionally intimate relationship with jensen and jared outside of set??? it’s confusing to me and what i’m seeing here isn’t really helping me understand yet
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04:12
oop the video finished, time to move to the next one
i’m still torn on this issue
like it’s...... funny, i guess? jared army crawling onto set to hurt misha? BUT ALSO IT’S NOT, and it shouldn’t be, it’s only funny because they apparently find it funny
or at least jensen does, but jensen loves misha the most, so like..........
misha’s now talking about mark (sheppard?) and how mark wants other cast people to make “an environment where people are happy to go to work” the way the spn cast does
back to the thigh pinching though. so misha can quote that with total conviction... so i guess despite the pain he does enjoy it?? maybe he’s just a masochist and likes being hurt, idk...... and yet he says he won’t miss it once it’s over
who knows if i will ever understand this
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04:1?
extended eye contact with misha as jensen says “i would’ve loved to have slept in”
UH HUH
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04:?5
OH GOD IT’S HAPPENING IT’S HAPPENING THEY’RE LYING ON TOP OF EACH OTHER
in which jensen is being misha and misha is being jared
“yeah you sexy bitch you like this”
????????????????????????????????????????
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and then misha pulls jensen up by the hand~
that did not last nearly long enough
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ARE YOU KIDDING ME THEY DIDN’T EVEN GET TO RECOVER OR FINISH THE SENTENCE BEFORE EVERYONE ELSE COMES ON STAGE
UGH
EVERY FUCKING TIME
WHEN DO WE NOT GET COCKBLOCKED
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OH it’s not even everyone else it’s just jared
does he have internal alarms that go off when jensen and misha are being publicly intimate and he has to show up with a cowbell and a taser
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04:30
jensen is definitely tipsy now
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04:41
jared: “i was like ‘shut up bitch’ and you were like ‘yeah, hit me’
jensen facepalms and misha mouths “no i didn’t”
?????
jared is such a wildcard in this dynamic
on the one hand they’re advertising themselves as the model set relationship, and there’s obviously love between them, but on the other hand they’re all being abused by jared
i
i’m so perplexed
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04:35
https://youtu.be/dd8O2-_Akk0
misha to jensen: “do you... you wanna tell your... your dream?”
jensen shakes head “nope”
jared: “whoa!! this just got really romantic” (backs up)
(thank you jared for trying to keep out of this, i guess)
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04:44
i just took a lil break and i’m back now
i thought a bit about what i’ve watched so far today and compared it to the first part of the panel that i watched last time, and i’m trying to figure out if the energy is different because i’m in a different mood or whether it actually changed around the same point i paused last time, around the 11 minute mark. the first part of this was flirty and silly and fun, and then that vibe kind of plummeted... i guess it was because they started talking immediately about the abuse on set
but yeah, no, just typing that made me realise i’m right, the energy did change. misha mellowed out and jensen followed suit. despite getting tipsy and being more open to shaking his ass, he and misha remained subdued
like.. jensen clearly finds the abuse hilarious but i don’t think misha does. he loves jared and jensen both but i think there is legit pain there. people can be both abusive and loving, you know? jared’s awful but also nice, and i guess i enjoy his obvious outward support for jensen and misha’s romantic relationship, but i’ve always found it harder to appreciate him, compared to the effortless love i have for misha.
misha always, ALWAYS demonstrates that it’s absolutely possible to be dominant without hurting or demeaning people, and jared is just... not like that.
and yeah this upsets me enough that i’m now blurry-eyed with tears while typing this
it’s been kind of hard to enjoy this part of the video and i needed a moment away to figure out why
my favourite jibcon will always be the one where jensen leaned in to kiss misha. he was upset and misha went to comfort him, and supported him the whole time. i was thinking the other day how that energy was fresh. like they’d only just begun a sexual/romantic relationship in real life, or were about to and were eager for it. and this time it’s clearly been years and they’re more comfortable with their attraction.
but like.
yeah i’m disappointed that jared is on stage now. i can’t help it, i always am. his presence just seems especially upsetting after everything misha’s told us
i’m in no way saying they’re not friends, because they are, and i can’t doubt that they’ll be friends for the rest of their lives, happily and comfortably, but at the same time i will never be able to deny that jared is abusive. he violates consent in every possible way and just because it’s funny doesn’t mean it’s okay. these three spin the stories to make us laugh, but truly, under all of it, i find it upsetting.
someone’s always gonna say “but misha’s fine, he can take it”
but abused people can be fine, because they tend to be the strongest people, yet that doesn’t make the abuse okay. he’s not agreeing to it, he’s showing up for work each day because he has an obligation to and a family to feed. and he does love working there, and the people he works with, DESPITE the abuse.
i just. i don’t want people watching this to ever think that it’s okay for friends to hurt you. it’s possible to be bullied by friends. in fact that seems most likely in my own past. you may still be their friend, and your love for them may be warranted, and understandable, because they are lovable, but that doesn’t make their actions okay
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anyway
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05:05pm
misha: “are you wearing a t-shirt that says destiel is real?”
jensen’s hand ZOOMs to him i.e. “stop talking”
also he tied the pocket scarf around his neck and it looks good
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I LOVE THAT EVERYONE CHEERS
omg remember when people would boo
THIS IS BETTER
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is jensen like........ pumping for more cheers or being sarcastic? can’t tell, it’s kind of both
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and then jensen just goes “DESTIEL IS REAL”
his tone is like.........forceful joking? but also he just SAID it ???
jensen: “is it? is it??”
crowd: “yes no yesss noo”
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https://youtu.be/dd8O2-_Akk0?t=12m59s
jensen: “where? where is it real?”
misha: (pulls jensen down) “don’t get in a fight with people, honey”
HONEY. HE DID JUST SAY HONEY RIGHT?? HE SAID HONEY.
me: wrote a fic called He Called Me Honey
OMG.
misha is the best and will always be the best and his support is the best and i love him more than words can say
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05:13
k but
i think people’s claims that the destiel thing annoys jensen do have truth to them. his middle finger is on the mic, he’s PISSED.
but ........
honestly i don’t think it’s for the obvious reason. right now, *tilts head*.... looking at this, i think he’s actually more annoyed that destiel is not canonically canon. from what he sees, people are seeing something that’s “not there”, because despite him acting, he can’t hide his attraction to misha. and it’s still the old stuff from season 4 and 5 that put down the basis for all this, when he didn’t realise his pupils were dilating in the first few weeks with misha. and the storyline pushed them together.
theory: jensen’s annoyed about the destiel thing because it’s not as canon as he wants it to be.
maybe.
just........ the way he reacts to destiel stuff out of panels seems way more supportive. he’s just currently feeling attacked by the disparity of opinion in the room, everyone yelling about their take on it, whereas his question was legitimate: “where are you guys seeing the romance?” because (despite his best efforts?) dean still hasn’t kissed cas on screen.
deleted scenes = deleted destiel. i’m still 80% convinced when cas came back from the empty, there was a shot where dean kissed him. and it wasn’t used. (i have no proof. this is a theory. just with the setup to the scene, and the way jensen flirts with misha on set, i refuse to believe there wasn’t a kiss shot at some point. even if jensen was messing around for giggles. he knows what’s up, deep down.)
anyway, my point is, i don’t think jensen understands the romantic subtext. i think he understands physical touching, spoken words, kisses. and he hasn’t seen that in the show. i think he absolutely acts dean as being best friends with cas, but the subtextual romance comes from the writers, editors, and people picking up on jensen’s unconscious attraction.
but jensen has not seen what he would interpret as Romance in the show. and i think he’s miffed that other people see it, because in his interpretation that means it’s actor bleed. i think he just doesn’t get it. not saying he hasn’t studied subtext and stuff, as a director, but i think for him personally, romance is romance when it’s seen (hence him touching cas a lot more when he directs). and any bold choices he’s made as dean interacting with cas have been hidden away by the producers.
again, this is all theory, my take on it. the other theory is that he doesn’t support destiel and doesn’t like talking about it at all. but THAT IS NOT TRUE and if anything, *THIS* and *THIS* prove that
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05:50pm
k well those links just took me 20 minutes to find, and i still can’t find the version with the actual fanart. it was sunshine yellow, dean and cas were naked in towels, drinking coffee, and dean has a boner under his towel, and jensen drew a speech bubble saying “who the fuck are you?”
but yeah i think i gotta stop for today. I WILL BE BACK. maybe tomorrow, maybe in a few days. still got 4 minutes of this panel and then jensen & misha’s solo panels to watch. and i wanna get all my reaction posts up before the ‘good omens’ series drops at the end of may!! because maybe i’mma post reactions to those on tumblr too c:
a few of the best parts about jared joining the cockles panel in jib10 are his facial expressions that ranged from “haha, let me meddle with this mess” to “haha wtf is going on”
