All the amazing things you can do out of spite
Oh...spitefulness. Such a strong emotion. It can both ruin you and lead you out of your misery. It breaks your limits as if they never existed. It frees you. It could be such a rude word for someone who's never been hurt. But they don't understand. All the pain that's been growing inside you finally being alowed to go away. Resuscitating your body from the coma it's been in since the accident. You just can't help feeling relieved after doing anything out of spite. It helps your soul grow and that's the most amazing thing about it all. It's amazing in the most terrible way possible but damn...it feels so right. You have to be selfish sometimes. You cannot always be the bigger person if that means that you're never going to be able to pull yourself back together again. It's a way to cheat life and heartbreak. There comes a day in everyone's lives when you just stop for a second and realize that you've sacrificed yourself one too many times. So if hurting someone at least as bad as they did helps you move on and cures the ache that's been keeping your heart awake for so long, then just go for it. The feeling you get afterwards, that's what pure, genuine freedom feels like. You've finally done something only for your own well being. And that is the most amazing thing you can do out of spite.
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