#shxyme

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@shxyme hates me but it's fine i'm fine

𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙲𝙰𝚁𝙴𝙳 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙿𝙴?

the air is knocked out of his lungs, stomach in knots & she may as well stick a knife in his heart & twist it with the way she glares at him. he doesn't blame her for hating him, [ 𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 ] & his world is CRASHING, TUMBLING DOWN . . . he can't seem to stop it. ice floods his veins until he's NUMB, broken blue eyes staring straight through her; it's his fault. all his fault. ope is gone & no amount of bloodshed & vengeance will bring him back & how are they supposed to LIVE without their best friend, the love of their life? HE CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE.

❛ 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧' 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬?! ❜ she DIDN'T UNDERSTAND — the way jax fought so hard to be the one to take his place, how it should've been HIM getting his skull bashed in & yet . . . when ope made up his mind there was no changing it. ❛ 𝐢 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 ————— ❜ the words get caught in his throat, fingers tangling in messy blond hair & ripping at the strands. & then the coffee table is shoved across the room, white powder spilling onto the carpet. RAGE is an emotion he knows how to feel & knows it well [ 𝚝𝚘𝚘 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚊𝚜 𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚜 𝚞𝚙 𝚒𝚗 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚢'𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚎, 𝚊𝚕𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝 ]. ❛ 𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧' 𝐜𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐚𝐢𝐧'𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰. ❜

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kerr sinclair the extremely tired but will never admit he's tired dom. who does all the cooking , all the cleaning. constantly giving his partners emotional and physical support. hasn't slept in WEEKS , works three different jobs & goes to school. deals with his feral girlfriends tantrums as she turns into a werewolf. trying to mend the emotional state of his once dead boyfriend. dealing with the emotional damage of his girlfriend who cries everytime she thinks she did something wrong. constantly in worry about his other bf he has contracts that pull him away. BUT BOLT LOOKS LIKE HE NEEDS THE VACATION.

[becomelions]

@shxyme​ asked: “ you have a morbid sense of fun.” @ crixus // MEME ( Always Accepting )

His brow rose for a small moment as she spoke. Her words didn’t surprise him, fun to him was a small selection of activities and only one didn’t involve a sword. “You will hear no word of apology from me.” Crixus replied, dark eyes never leaving her. “We do not have time for such luxuries afforded by those not being hunted like dogs by the Romans. We train to drench the soil with their blood and bring the empire to its very knees. Only then will true freedom be known. After will we know what that may be like.” 

[designseen]

@shxyme​ said: ‘I tried to pick my battles 'til the battle picked me.’

❝We rarely get a choice in our battles.❞ he says. ( What were human beings, if not war torn? ) He lets out a quiet breath, it was cold out, cold enough to see your every breath---and he looks at her. Wonders where the scars lay, because surely there was no battle won or lost without a wound. Without proof that somehow you were not bled dry by it. ❝No, we don’t pick we just---fight. And then we live with an outcome that isn’t even ours, even if we try to mold it.❞ Even then, it was never truly our own, was it?  

[chaoshailed-archive]

@shxyme + sc but someone didn’t specify so let’s have some pAIN

                    it  had  been  MONTHS  since  they’d  last  seen  each  other  / / /  since  they’d  last  spoken  to  each  other  .  months  since  she’d  packed  her  bags  and  moved  back  home  ,  left  kozik  behind  to  drown  his  sorrows  in  liquor  ——  a  habit  he’d  sworn  he  wouldn’t  fall  back  into  ,  but  then  again  ,  he  hadn’t  accounted  for  being  burned  by  a  shoddy  landmine  &  having  his  heart  SHATTERED  .   it’s  like  looking  at  a  ghost  now  :  the  shell  of  a  person  that  once  upon  a  time  he  may  have  called  the  love  of  his  life  .  maybe  that’s  why  he  can’t  meet  her  eye  as  he  stands  several  feet  away  ,  almost  terrified  to  come  too  close  .  ❛  [  .  .  .  ]  𝐢𝐬  𝐭𝐢𝐠  𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞  ?  ❜  any  bullshit  excuse  to  get  AWAY  from  her  .

[pastrepentance]

*softly, but with a lot of feeling* shxyme

send me urls pls + accepting + @shxyme​​

MY OPINION ON;

CHARACTER IN GENERAL: i love shay so fucking much like ?? hello why is she not soa canon HOW THEY PLAY THEM: PERFECTLY obviously i wouldn’t ask for any other angel to ship all my babies with  THE MUN: idk how u managed it but u somehow managed to become one of my best friends in like .2 seconds and i fucking love you okay. i appreciate u so much for literally everything idk what i would do without you 

DO I:

RP WITH THEM: i think i’ve done a grand total of two (2) drafts for you so far in our whole friendship but like.....one of these days i’ll get around to throwing things at you....just one more month... :))  WANT TO RP WITH THEM: yes pls 

WHAT IS MY;

OVERALL OPINION: i love you more than life and idk how i ever existed without you 

**Note: Mun’s answer are all to be completely honest. Don’t send url if you don’t want brutal honesty

[traumaforgot]

@shxyme​ said: “Well…maybe the universe is better off with some people just not being in it anymore.” 

He’s sitting, arms crossed, and eyes averted. He’s reluctant to meet her gaze, opting to stay quiet for a while rather than acknowledging her words. Jace isn’t sure this is a conversation he wants to have. 

❝I think maybe you’re right about that,❞ he says eventually, finally breaking the silence he’d left hanging in the air. ❝I don’t know, it’s like---it’s not FAIR, you know? The way some people can hurt everyone around them and for so long no one even notices.❞ He lets out a sigh, eyes trained on his hands, twisting around the rings on his fingers. ❝Maybe the world is better off when they’re gone but---sometimes it’s like they still don’t go away. And what they did NEVER goes away either.❞

[withalisp]

starter  call .    @shxyme .

        ❝     i’m    not    what  you    think    i  am .     ❞