i'm having benvolio feelings this fine wednesday so may i humbly request for the 10-minute fic meme: benvolio + moonlight
Benvolio rarely feels comfortable sleeping with even the smallest amount of light. Lamps, candles, phone screens or glowing indicators on various pieces of equipment are all equally irritating, so he always makes sure none of those can disturb him. It is easy to simply turn the laptop off for the night and hide the phone under a spare pillow. Drawing the thick, dark blue curtains closed is usually more than enough, too, to keep all the lights from the street out.
But tonight it’s different. Tonight his own room, he room he knows like the back of his hand and even better, feels too dark, too gloomy, the darkness like a heavy weight pressing down on his chest, seeping through his nose into his mouth, and throat, and lungs, and into that huge hollow cavity somewhere deep within - he’s not sure where exactly - the one that appeared not too long ago. How long has it been, two hours? Two days? Maybe two months? Two years? Two of… something.
Thump, thump. That must be his heart. How so? There should be no heart, there should be only a huge, hollow, horrifying emptiness where his heart had once been.
Thump, thump. One, two. No, just one. No longer the two of them. Just one of them left now. Just him. Just Benvolio now.
Tonight, Benvolio opens the thick, dark blue curtains instead of closing them.
The moon is huge tonight. Huge, like the void inside Benvolio. Huge, like Benvolio’s love for someone who is gone forever, someone who was buried two days ago.
The moonlight is bright. Too bright, even. Too bright, just like Mercutio’s cheerful smile; too overwhelming, just like Mercutio’s whole personality; and it’s probably making Benvolio’s blond hair glow like he’s a character from some ridiculous anime. That’s what Mercutio would say if he were here. Or maybe he would say some other nonsense, something absolutely illogical and funny, and it would put a smile on Benvolio’s face.
But the moonlight isn’t Mercutio. You can’t touch it, you can’t hear it, you can’t feel it. You can only see it. Mercutio is all touches, and hugs, and warmth, and loud laughter, and sparkling eyes, and searing hot kisses, and…
…and maybe Mercutio now is the moonlight. Benvolio can’t touch him anymore. Benvolio can’t hear him anymore. Benvolio can’t even see him anymore - except in the pictures on his half-charged phone.
Maybe Mercutio is just like the moonlight.
Tonight, Benvolio goes to sleep with his curtains pulled open and his laptop perched on a pillow next to him, screen brightness set to 100%. Mercutio is smiling at him from a ridiculous blurry photo they took at the prom, and maybe, just maybe, Benvolio will be able to pretend that everything is alright.
As long as the moonlight fills the room.