you know im starting to notice my main thing about the n7 + coolkidd familial relationship in forsaken is that i feel they're so...detached from each other even if it's explicitely stated they're family??
like sure i wont put it past n7 to be accidently a neglectful dad to kidd considering his upbringing and the abruptness of kidd's arrival but what i'm getting so far from the past and present stuff is that him being a dislikedhacker and caring for coolkidd are like, 2 separate things? that don't seem to corelate??? idk i feel like i cant put it into words but it's almost like coolkidd its more of an after thought in this relationship rather than an important piece of n7's behaviour and/or status, when it's clearly implied coolkidd caused a lotta trouble even at a young age and that n7 still worked hard to care for him.
i'm not saying he didn't love coolkidd but it's like, having coolkidd call him dad (father, mind you) and have an special animation/song in LMS it's not enough?? it feels more like a creation of n7 that went rouge and n7 doesn't feel comfortable with It considering him it's dad?? am i insane for feeling this??? or for this observation???
i can totally see n7 feels bad for losing kidd, and after seeing what kidd became, but it's also shown he was a hacker before having kidd, and kidd was found at his doorstep as a baby, and that the kidd had a whole gang of people doing the dirty work for him?? like theres so much going on!! and i still feel this disconnect from the family concept.
Yes you can feel unsure about being a good parent or have dissasociation with parenthood when it was such a sudden shift from your usual lifestyle, yes you can wish to go back to those times too, and i really wouldnt put it past n7's mental state to do so, but i hate to say that for me Coolkidd feels like a burden to N7. I feel this detachement coming from both sides because we don't really see the effects of their separation on both with detail, and we also don't see more on how their regular life used to be aside from the destruction and the despair and eventual loss. :/
idk. I've been thinking about em alot recently and rewrote a bunch of my lore for them, ask me about it if u want or tell me if u agree or disagree, i dont think i explained myself properly but i tried my best lol

















