❝ Mercy is rarely a complete mistake. ❞/ameridan
disco elysium // accepting // @skyheld
“But you admit it is a mistake.”
It was not a question; not in tone, intonation or in the light eyes that stare into the Inquisitor of old.
It would be a mistake that would cost them dearly, not that Solas had given them an opening to strike - even if they had wished to. It would be a critical flaw that would only lead to their undoing: this belief that he could be stopped if they could only reach him. It reached in between his ribs and cut him up like knives: how many times would they be willing to accept the reality before their eyes. How many times until disappointment stopped being the particles that blinded them and finally settled. How many times until they understood they only put themselves in danger and made his work harder, harder on the heart and harder on the world they stood and claimed to love.
There was no other path but through; and if not him, then who?
“If you can convince Varric and the Inquisitor to stop this endeavour… You should.” truthfully, it should be his main goal, if he was truly traveling with either of them. Perhaps both. There is a shadow of a bitterness for a warm past that wraps around his shoulders like a swift hug, releasing him just as quickly.
The Dread Wolf looks upon Ameridan, his armour barely a smudge in this dream but so different still from the clothes that Solas had once worn. The lightness, the enjoyment that he had allowed himself to linger in, it was an indulgence that they now all paid for dearly. That the real price would still come to pass “The mercy they offer will not be offered in return.”
It was cruel, but this was the only gift that he could offer them: a period of peace while he prepared, making adjustments, focused on reduce the damage to this world and the fade as the Veil came down. An offer for them to stop and a promise that to continue chasing him would not change the outcome, it could only worsen it.
The path he walked was filled with misery and death, and if Solas could shield them before the time came, that was what he would wish for them.
If there was anyone that could change their minds, Solas trusted, that it would be Ameridan. One of the few that allowed him still to walk into his dreams.
They both sat before a soft roaring fire, there are voices in the distance. The edges of the dream are too unfocused for Solas to make sense of them though he could make sense of the shapes that looked like Aravels. Nothing looked familiar though the weather around them fell warm despite the depth of the darkness just beyond the small circle of light.
Solas raises from where he sat. His eyes lingering in the neatly folded linens half embroidered atop the nearest stump. His face cast in the darkness from the fire, the brightness from his armour washing out everything else - how did it come to be that even in dreams he felt himself worn too thin, fraying at the edges. Listening the crackling of the fire in a split pause that feels like an eternity, he can almost hear the tension at his neck as he returns to look to Ameridan, both hands coming to rest behind his back. His lips settle in a distant as he walks into the undefined darkness, leaving the other by the fire.
“It would be kinder in the long run.”