I think I've been depressed, lately.
Monotonously - I get lost
And when I find my way back
I can't discern how much time has passed.
My head won't clear itself enough
I need rest, I need time, I need space for myself.
I'm burnt out, unimpressed, cynical, I need help.
The smell in the air brings back memories but not – of an event,
or a trauma, just a feeling and the feeling isn't pleasant
The days all blur together like a color palette- mixing
Into ugly shades of brown and grey
With tangible, identifiable colors.
but as soon as I reach out for one it seems to get brushed away
Into the muddy mess on a paintbrush with no canvas
My life is headed nowhere as society collapses
I try to keep a smile on my face and pretend
For the future generation
That I have hope but I'm so afraid
Because guns matter more than children.
I never imagined that I might worry,
and consider keeping my children
home from school so they’re not the next
Because a young adult who has less control over his actions
Has access to a weapon that will kill a hundred in seconds.
And I'm Afraid because two men kissing each other
is viewed as more dangerous
Than the white men in uniform
Who can kill you legally,
As long as the color of your skin
is within a certain range
but, it's not a racial thing anyway,
If he wasn't ready to die he shouldn't have committed a crime.
But while we're on that topic,
what about the missing women?
Millions of indigenous women
but the media's gone silent
because no one really cares unless
you're Gabby Petito and have a billion
Instagram followers clinging
Because women are a commodity
and it's worse if you're not white,
and that's another thing,
about those people who claim to be PRO LIFE
The rich white elite will ALWAYS
discreet medical procedures,
And the rest will do what they've done since the dawn of time,
In back alley slaughterhouses - not
but of the desperate people looking for a last resort.
So in banning abortion you're just condemning
But that doesn't matter because 58% of people
below the poverty line don't fit your blond-haired blue-eyed ideal,
the way the unborn fetuses do because they're
and it's never been about
I would pray for our future but God is dead,
Humanity killed her with corporate greed and instead
We just trudge through a society bent
on controlling and killing the masses
And steel ourselves for another day in hell.