Lost in thought at 2 am on all the choices I've made that have brought me here and how simple it has been to change myself, the way I view myself, and my life, simply by facing my fears and going for things. I never thought I'd be in a gym, nor did I ever think I'd be gaining muscle this year, nor did I think I'd ever (though I'd hoped) be contracted for 6 books right now. Life is incredible and I refuse to live it being held back by my own thoughts or other people's desires. It's TOO beautiful to do so anymore. I see the progress I'm making and I LOVE it. I love it more than staying in bed and brooding about how things don't change. They do, you just have to change it yourself. I realize I get depressed when I get close to the wrong people for myself. Be it acquaintances, friends, or others. It's not worth the headache to keep those relationships alive. I'm so much more than what someone thinks about me. And I won't forget it. #progress #slidebacksunday #selfie #selflove #people #personal #books #fitness #wrestling #goodnight #gothgirl #gothgoth