Involuntary sobriety got me thinking I’m so damaged and I’ll never be able to help myself because I’m broken beyond repair and no amount of meds makes it go away the only make me tired and I’m always tired, so tired I can’t bring myself to do anything, even things that are good for me because doing them sucks and I don’t feel anything good when I do them and everything is boring so why do any of it when you can lay down and not do anything. Just as boring but less exhausting. Pain in your chest? Sleep will fix it but only when you’re asleep :) once you awake you will suffer again :) the horrors (people) persist you will never be able to escape them, even those you enjoy company with, now you hate being vulnerable and human. Being human is disgusting, isn’t it. All I do is suffer
