I am aromantic?
Hoping to reach aro people on all corners of the internet for this one. My friends are nice but they don't quite understand. I also consider myself very asexual, but I've known that for a while.
I don't feel romantic love I think. I've had a couple of situationships, I think the longest one lasted 3 months. All throughout high school I never was involved in relationships. When I graduated I moved and dipped my toe into the dating pool but it hasn't had what I'm looking for. Kissing does nothing for me. I've had "crushes", but the kind where you don't actually want anything to do with the person.
It's important to note that I have a very active social life. I have a large group of close friends and acquaintances, and I volunteer for a lot of community orgs. When I'm not at work I'm looking for events to go to in my area. When I'm not doing that I'm out fishing or hiking. I lift weights multiple times a week and eat mostly clean. I live by myself.
Despite all this I still feel like there's something missing. I keep myself busy because if I slow down I get this hollow feeling. I will get home from hanging out with friends, and instead of feeling happy and satisfied, I just feel more empty. It comes and goes of course, but I'm wondering if other aromantics also feel this empty feeling?
It's not like I don't care at all about romance. I've always wanted that deeper connection with someone, but I've never felt that kind of thing for anyone. I've always wanted to fall in love but I don't know if it's possible, hence the whole aromantic thing.
If anyone has a similar experience, please let me know. <3
