#sparky thoughts

[sparky2020sworld]

Hongjoong- so I’m wearing a skirt for the fanmeet?

Yn - yes here’s what you are wearing *holds up skirt*

*Hongjoong comes back wearing said skirt*

Yn - do you feel Bonita?

Hongjoong - I feel Bonita

[sparkyb-1atch]

I want to be the only girl that makes you cum hard through a screen

[sparkedblaze]

“those kids shouldnt say that shit it doesn’t make sense and it’s cringe”

AND????

TRENDS ARE DRIVEN BY TEENAGERS RN

LET TEENAGERS BE CRINGE

let teenagers say skibidi and gyatt and whatever the fuck else they wanna make up and cling to

teenagers deserve a space to still live their childhood before they have to become an adult.

teenagers deserve to still be kids.

[sparkedblaze]

sometimes i wonder if anyone here read my cringe pjo fanfic in like 2013

but i’m honestly too scared to know

[sparkedblaze]

not starbucks shrinking our dress code so like 90% of what everyone wore cant be worn anymore

but thank gods we can choose between 10 of the ugliest shirts ive ever seen for them to send two of them to us for free!

[sparkedblaze]

What if Jack Kelly was aromantic?

He can't be, right? "Obviously! He's with Katherine, and he has so much chemistry with Davey, so obviously he has to feel romantic attraction!" I hear you saiying

Hear me out

Jack Kelly is still a child. He's seventeen. Nearly an adult, but not quite.

He's still trying to figure out who he is as a person.

He desperately wants to love and be loved. He wants to be normal so desperately that he would force himself to be in a relationship he doesn't want, just to fit in.

Could that be why he's trying to desperately to leave? Why he wants to get out of New York so badly?

He's afraid that his friends, who are the most accepting people (gay, trans, etc.) won't accept him. He's supposed to be the leader, an example for them.

He feels like he'll disappoint them if he tells them he doesn't experience those feelings.

Maybe he just hasn't met the right person? Maybe moving away from New York will give him the chance to meet the 'right' person, and then he can know that he's normal and lovable and worth it.

He stays in New York because he cares so deeply for his friends--his family.

He's still in denial for a while. He dates Katherine, maybe he dates Davey, maybe a few others. But, none of them really fulfill anything for him. He enjoys the hand holding, hugs, cuddling, and the gentle kisses. But, he does most of that with everyone he cares about. Jack Kelly is a very tactile person. He holds hands and carries and cuddles and kisses heads just because that's who he is.

The realization drops a huge weight off his shoulders. He realizes that he isn't broken. He's whole, as a person, as himself.

Occasionally, the fact hits him that he'll die alone. He won't get married and have kids like younger Jack dreamed. He won't get to experience that love that society is centered around.

But, then his friends do something stupid and silly, and he realizes that he's not alone. He's got his whole family there with him.

And, he'll eventually realize that that's enough.

[sparkedblaze]

sparky’s unpopular opinion that has been on the mind for many a night (explanation under the break so i don’t have a long post taking up your feed):

all the young dudes has done immense damage to the marauders fandom

don’t get me wrong. the fic is good. you can tell that the person who wrote it put their heart and soul into a fic about something that they loved. you can see every little fun detail they put into it.

the story isn’t exactly my thing. but when you’re creating with that much emotion and passion and love? it’s hard to not fall in love with it.

i get that

but when i get hate dms on instagram telling me that my portrayal of pandora lovegood is wrong because i made her maiden name something that isn’t rosier, or how i write peter (as a person with both good and bad and not just a written off follower of james and sirius, which is apparently insane to people), it kind of puts the fic in a dark light.

i’ve read a decent chunk of it, but i couldn’t make it through because of how the author writes some of the characters. most notably peter, as he’s written out of most scenes via detention or girlfriends, even though the thing that made his betrayal so heartbreaking was the fact that he had been close to james and lily.

what made the betrayal so harsh and unbelievable was him being good friends with them. the world believed that sirius black, james’ best friend, betrayed him. because they’d both been friends with him.

and to be told that my interpretations of any said characters were wrong because of a fanfiction?? it’s just wild, and makes me incredibly upset.

harry potter is a massive fandom, and the marauders fandom is a sizeable subset of that fandom! so to say that one person’s interpretations are just Right because you like their fic is wild.

[sparkedblaze]

Hi I’m coming to you from hiding out at work to bring you the wildest most fucking out there hc I’ve ever considered:

Francis “so that’s what they call a family” Sullivan is the brother of Michael “there’s no way I am putting those kids back in danger” Sullivan

Livesies is just a nightmare Francis has of Michael going through the strike instead of himself, with the same adopted pseudonym. It’s been years since the strike, he actually made it to Santa Fe and that’s why all the people are different because he doesn’t *quite* remember everyone. Each reiteration of Livesies is another nightmare. Same names. New faces.

He dreams of Michael being bigger and better and everything he wasn’t. Of Michael staying. It’s why Denton isn’t there, Katherine is instead.

*

Santa Fe Prologue is Francis wishing he’d been better to Crutchie. Wishing he’d gotten to know the boy and actually be friends with him instead of just seeing him as That Annoying Little Brother.

Santa Fe itself turns from longing for an escape to longing for *family*

Seize the Day goes from boys excited to stand up for themselves to almost a bitter ballad about being courageous (*cough instead of, say, running to Santa Fe cough*)

Bottom Line gives an insight to what Pulitzer’s thinking is. But not like an adult would think of it. “Proud of themselves and so grateful to me, they’ll be begging to pay even more.” Pulitzer was greedy, but he wasn’t stupid. He would’ve known that the boys weren’t gonna be *happy* to pay more.

Medda goes from this kind of jaunty, aunt-like figure to what Francis wants-what he *needs*-a mom.

Then he meets Katherine. Not Denton, not Sarah, Katherine. Maybe he couldn’t face either of them. Maybe he wanted something new. But, Katherine sometimes loving him out of nowhere would probably be explained by Francis not knowing what love looks like, especially from a girl.

King of New York doesn’t include him, probably because Francis, again, *couldn’t face them*, especially celebrating a win like that.

LETTER FROM THE REFUGE. It’s not in the first few nightmares. He hasn’t had time to fully wallow in his regret. But, once he realizes, the guilt starts eating at him. He’s now including Crutchie in a bigger part in his nightmares. He’s dreaming about how Crutchie was probably scared to death in the time without him in the Refuge.

But he also couldn’t send Michael there.

Watch What Happens Reprise is Francis *longing* for someone to *want him* to come home.

Katherine being Pulitzer’s daughter-without telling him- is Francis feeling betrayed in his own way. Not by anyone in particular, but just in general. By people he was supposed to be able to trust.

Brooklyn’s Here is Francis being pissed that Brooklyn took *so fucking long* to join the strike.

Once and For All. Francis vaguely remember that happening. He kind of remembers what happened. But, all he knows is Michael will Do Better Than Him. He has to Do Better. He has to *Be* Better.

He has to stay.

Other things that kind of prove the point:

•Livesies Jack isn’t called Cowboy. Francis-even in his worst nightmares-couldn’t stand seeing Michael bear the weight of his legacy.

•Livesies Jack is an artist. Maybe showing Francis has had time to slow down, and actually *enjoy* the little things in like. Like the sunset. The moon. Horses. Swimming. Little things.

•92sies Jack lacks a passion-particularly for the newsies- that Livesies Jack *thrives* on. Livesies Jack is doing everything to keep those kids safe, and 92sies Jack is doing everything for more selfish reasons (money, leaving)

•Santa Fe, to Livesies Jack, is more of a dream. A fictional place he can paint to escape to. 92sies Jack has a Very Good Idea of what Santa Fe is like.