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Okay so, tw for murder/death/intrusive thoughts mentions, but I could use some advice...

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l had a dream last night that I killed someone. It was someone I know, one of my best friends' ex. It's really freaking me the fuck out, and idk what to do about it. I think what worries me the most is that I spent most of the dream not feeling guilty, but trying to get away with it. Which just makes me feel guilty irl.

I don't want to freak any of my friends out with this but I feel like a terrible person, and I've been trying to be more open, but how the fuck am I supposed to talk about that? What if I keep dreaming like this? Even though we literally never talk I feel obligated to apologize to the person I dream murdered. How the hell do I start that conversation? "Hey, I'm aware I haven't contacted you individually for months, but I had a dream where I killed you brutally, sorry about that."

And it's not that I watch too many movies or whatever. I've been watching scary movies for forever and not once have I had a violent dream. What the fuck could be so wrong with me? I don't fucking get it. Violent-ish intrusive thoughts are one thing, and they're almost always directed at myself. When they're not I'm immediately horrified, and when I woke up this morning I was still somewhat disturbed, but I couldn't remember it all. The dream has come back to me more throughout the day and I feel. Bad. Gross.

Idk just other synonyms for a disgusting monster. Idk what to do. If it were literally anyone else I'd talk to the friend who's ex it was, but he keeps entering spaces she's in and she wants to move on, so I'm not bringing him up to her unless I can't avoid it. I just want to know what to do.

#squiddissues #help #intrusive thoughts #does it even count if it’s a dream?#idk i feel like a terrible excuse for a human and am sickened by myself so #vent #rbs are okay I guess?#pls just help

Does anyone ever do things without knowing why?? I was crying (unimportant now i was just in the feels) and then I was walking downstairs and then I was going outside and then I walked through my yard and into the street and I was just fuckin standing in the middle of the street. I heard a car door slam and was like ‘what the fuck am I doing’ and I came back inside. My feet are still wet from the grass what the fuck

#inky speaks #i doubt this is like. A Thing but whatever #squiddissues

it’s been a rough day and I forgot to eat so all I’ve had all day is a cup of coffee and a bottle of water, and now that I’m like. Aware of my basic needs all I’m willing to eat is pasta and my dad had to turn off the water so where does that leave us

#i'm. considering collecting rainwater #i might use bottled if I can find it but if it's not pasta it's not going in my mouth #inky speaks #food mention #we HAVE pasta just no water and thats not usually the problem i encounter #squiddissues

So like why is putting your tongue in someone's mouth considered attractive it literally just sounds gross. If someone tried to put their tongue in my mouth Idc if I like them I'm going to bite it off

#like. is it just me that thinks thats super gross #it sounds like it would be horrible #inky speaks #squiddissues

my uncle has appeared at my house with no warning for four days in a row now and I realise that I will never fucking have children my head hurts

#like bro #i had plans today #and had to abandon them #inky speaks #squiddissues #my family

Immovable object (my current desire to eat only one specific thing with no exceptions that I don’t have) vs unstoppable force (very hongry)

#food mention #inky speaks #squiddissues

Can whoever decided fireworks were a fourth of July thing turn on their location? I just wanna talk

#my parent made me come outside and i want to VOMIT #very fucking loud #detracting from the beauty of the MOON #no but seriously my music is on full blast and i still feel like im dying #inky speaks #squiddissues

Does anyone else like not want to fall asleep? Like I’m super tired and it’s late but I just really don’t want to go to sleep and idek why.

#inky speaks #is usually how i end up staying up so late/going to school without sleep #squiddissues #sleep stuff