#staying

[makingsenseofwhathappened]

hi. just a reminder, you’re allowed to quit things that are actively ruining you. martyrdom is not required. and survival most definitely always counts as a reason.

love, someone who survived

[feral-ballad]

Tawanda Mulalu, from Please Make Me Pretty, I Don't Want to Die: Poems; “Aria”

[lovepassionheart]

[cosmonautroger]

STAYING

[in-my-feels-probably]

hi everyone! i have another poll for my next SMAU…

thank you so much for supporting my work and my page, i very much appreciate it. i’ve loved seeing everyone’s comments and feedback on my recent projects. i very much giggle and kick my feet watching everyone react.

i’ve considered lots of options for who i want to write for next, and i’ve struggled a bit narrowing it down. i know i did a poll and trinity was pretty high up on the list. i promise i will get to her eventually, i just don’t feel the i can do her justice yet. same with a few of the other options and suggestions. i write based on what im inspired by and what i feel i can do well, and i don’t want to write and post something im not proud of just because i think it would be popular.

so, rather than do that, ive thought up these three ideas that did well on the poll and they got me thinking and excited about them the most!

for my next SMAU, i’ve narrowed it down to the following:

Staying - Dennis Whitaker x Reader

“Maybe I would be okay if I let this go forever. Sent it into space and watch the planets turn. Maybe I will, someday, let this go forever. Hold me until I find the nerve.”

Dennis Whitaker has always been good at becoming whatever everyone else needed him to be. The dutiful son and brother, the dependable resident, the devoted friend. He’s spent so much of his life following the paths laid out for him that he’s never stopped to ask what he wants for himself. When you, a recently transferred nurse from the night shift, start taking an interest in the answers to those questions, Dennis finds himself unraveling in ways he never has before. He’s not quite sure how to feel about that yet.

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Bloom - Mohabbot x Reader

“In the morning when I wake, and the sun is coming through. You fill my lungs with sweetness, and you fill my head with you. Shall I write it in a letter? Shall I try to get it down? You fill my head with pieces of a song that I can’t get out. Can I be close to you?”

Jack Abbot and Samira Mohan have always understood each other in the quiet spaces between chaos. You’re an Emergency Psychiatrist whose career has been built on surviving the chaos. When a familiar face in the hospital begins to speak new interest in their budding relationship, the aftermath is uncertain. It’s messy, but it’s theirs.

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Ivy - Rabbot x Reader

“My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand. Taking mine, but it’s been promised to another. I can’t stop you putting roots in my dreamland. My house of stone, your ivy grows, and now I’m covered in you.”

Michael Robinavitch and Jack Abbot have always been something impossible to define. You’re a nurse who has become one of the only comforts and constants in their lives, watching them orbit around something neither of them has ever been brave enough to name. When those boundaries begin to blur, the three of you have to decide what happens when the thing you’ve been avoiding is maybe also the thing you need most.

which would you want to see?

Staying - Dennis Whitaker

Bloom - Mohabbot

Ivy - Rabbot

just for me to see the answers, please don’t click this one!

Voting ended onJul 12

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vote! please let me know what you’re most interested in seeing so i can take that into consideration when deciding. i honestly love all of these ideas, and im excited to start getting into one of these soon :)

[pratchettquotes]

"It's not staying in the same place that's the problem," said Nanny, "it's not letting your mind wander."

Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad

[redamancy6]

If it was good, it woud have stayed.