#still venting

[goblins-and-gloves]

I somehow manage to both believe in the inherent goodness and kindness of people and at the same time not to trust them to be competent and use their brain at all

[pearatwar]

what will it be of me if i am alone? could it ever be worth it if i remain cold in the winter, if i have no one to play with in the summer? if i lay on my bed, on the ground?

i always wanted to disappear as a ghost, to go unseen - now, a faceless spectre, suffering of a demise of my own making. trapped in hell, and i'm the divine architect.

[this-midnight-prayer]

I'm so mad for Ella tbh. She was arguably the most well-known of the younger cast, and this feels like a total bait-and-switch on their part. Which is lame as hell, because otherwise, the plot twists have been totally obvious imo. What a letdown of a finale. How is any part of that exciting for a season 2? Ugh.

I think a lot of us are all a little confused and angry atm. I know I am. I don't really know what to make of it all just yet. I'm still trying to understand how that's potentially Jackie's ending - being left out in the cold? After all that buildup? Mmmmm

[hymn-of-renenutet]

Still feeling upset about the whole Lovestruck business Voltage Amemix pulled.

I had been really looking forward to purchasing some of the character’s routes like AFK Season 4 or Season 2 & 3 in GIL, and of course Castaway where I had only recently purchased Season 1. Had to wait on that because I had set myself a limit on how much I can spend on Voltage apps in general (I try not to think about the amount of money I have thrown at Voltage Inc in the last two years) and now it seems like it was I good thing I had come to that decision when I did.

Anyway, if nothing changes then I’m out. I will miss the Amemix titles, but I dislike games with ticket systems as I am one of those people who like to replay any part of the story they paid for whenever I want instead of paying for virtual items every time I do that. I would rather spend my money on those Voltage apps where I can still do the former.

I am still wondering why they did it though. Was the revenue really so small that they needed to change the way they offer their product by applying an obvious cash grab scheme?

[mindxfreak]

LOL as if I’m not already sad, i went to go talk to my dad about something and he half answered me and then just ignored me and I really just broke down over it.

I’m either getting yelled and blamed for something, told I’m wasting my life away in bed (as if i chose to have a fucking debilitating chronic illness that I’ve had my whole life but has gotten worse over the years and then have chronic pain from a roll over car accident that I was a passenger in that really fucked my neck and back up at 23 and i had spinal surgery at 29 because of it) or ignored by my dad.

if it wasn’t for my nephew and my animals, i really don’t think id still be alive because what’s the point.

[unemployedandproud]

Someone get me out of this body

Please release my soul

[ringadongadillo]

i wish i could tell you everything without sounding like a bad girlfriend or a picky person or feeling like i never have enough or doubting i can ever commit or feeling like shit or thinking im wasting your time or fearing we're gonna fight or being sure you're gonna call me names or maybe its just knowing how everyone would react if it happened or i dont know maybe i wish it would just happen or maybe its just how i am these days or maybe i just am like this but cant accept it or maybe i dont want to face the fact that i cant be alone or i dont know i just wished you were more like me and maybe that IS selfish or maybe i just am selfish or im just scared or or or or

[ringadongadillo]

you know

maybe it's not okay to say this

but i still think of where i would be now if it was different. between us