A Rockstar's Journey through Love, Addiction, and Second Chances
Older!Rockstar!Eddie Munson x Older!Ex-Wife!Reader
Summary: Eddie left his wife for being rockstar and he having great time for being star but how far can he go? He getting out of control for lots of drinking, drugs, fucking many women. Gareth decided to call you to ask for your help Eddie to get clean. It’s been 19 years since the last time he saw you. { +7.9k }
Warning: (19+) angst angst angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, backstories E&R was 18,19/20,21 yrs old, present 39-40 yrs old, use y/n, pet names; sweetie, baby, one sunshine, she/her pronouns used for reader, eddie use drugs, drinking, eating disorders, angry, yelling, eddie get help, anxiety, mental illness, eddie doesn’t know they have a kid (22 yrs old), exes to lovers, safeword, mention reader parents death, violence?, hit on reader (he didn’t mean to), gareth & jeff are very sweet, years 2005-2008, happy ending, (lmkiimta)
Notes: FINALLY! Fucking finally. This been in save draft for over a year!! This needs to get out of my life before I go insane.
2nd Notes: I want to say thank you to @paybacksawitch who helped me for a song writing, I really appreciate you helped me so much! 🖤 Picture of Eddie belong to @eddiemunsons-missingnipple. Divider made by amazing person @strangergraphics X
It has been 19 years since the last time you saw your ex-husband, Eddie Munson.
19 years ago, he left you for being a rockstar. Eddie did ask you to go with him but you refuse to stay in Hawkins with the family. So he was pissed and took off without saying goodbye, then weeks later he sent you the mail, a divorce papers. You only married him for two years, you both were 18-19 years old
Stupid young ages to get married. How stupid were you thinking?
You were bawling and heartbreaking for many months, years. Still not over him, you still love Eddie and yet you still hate him for leaving you.
After divorce, you've been watching his live music on tv or listening to his music on radio, it’s IMPOSSIBLE to not listen to his voice or seeing pictures all over the place.
Your love life will never end.
You and Eddie were in love since high school, stupidly in love. At 16 years old, you found the Hellfire Club flyers on the locker, you have read DND but never played before, hopefully you can join them.
First time to meet Eddie in the drama room, never thought he was fast falling in love with you but friends at start, he was so scared to have a relationship with you. The curly-haired doesn’t want you to have a freak in your life but you don’t giving shit
He loves that you are into metal music and fantasy books, the best part is your favourite Lord of the Rings. He swore his heart would batter its way right out of his chest.
At 18 years old, you graduate and he didn’t. But it didn’t stop him from wanting to ask you out for the first time before you went to college. He told you that he loved you, boy he scared shit out of him, didn't think you would say back but you did.
After prom night, you both wanted to lose virginity and both took it. It was a beautiful night but very unexpected that he asked you to marry him. Took you a long time to answer it and you said yes.
Married at 18 and he was 19.
You both madly love each other, you are always there for him and he is always there for you. After you lost your mother, you broke down real hard, you love her so much, she was your best friend and you do tell her everything. Good thing that Eddie was there to comfort you, you can feel his warm body and love. He shows you that he really loves you so much.
You can’t wait to have a long future with him to have the kids with him and grow old but the dream didn’t come true. Except one
Eddie loved you too much, leaving you was very hard for him. He knew it was awful to leave you without saying goodbye and lost his love in his life. He only thinks about his future to be a rockstar and be with you but you’re not here with him.
He started having drinking problems and drug’s problems. Using coke, special K and meth, snort them up and drinks so many beers, vodka, whiskey to make his pain go away and fuck with many different women but it wasn’t enough for him. He still can feel you and can’t stop thinking about you
After many years, at 40 years old, it’s getting worse and worse. Surprisingly his music still hits and his fans never noticed that Eddie was on drugs, they think it was just an act but he never fooled his bands.
Gareth can’t take it anymore to watch his friend getting out of control so he decides to call you to get Eddie help.
You did disagree at first, you knew it would be too much pain to see him again.
“Please, Y/N. He need helps, he just fuck out of controlling and it look like he ready to kill himself. Look darling, I tried to get him helped but he just keeps running away from me. And” He paused as heavily sigh. “I know he’ll listen to you”
You sigh as close your eyes. You just really can’t believe it. You know Gareth was right. Eddie listens to you but how far can he go? He probably using them again after you leave but you had to try
“Okay Gareth. But I don’t have money for the plane.”
“Don’t worry about that. I already brought you a ticket and you are leaving tomorrow night”
You rolling your eyes, you are sure that Gareth knew you never say no to Eddie, he knows you too much since you joined Hellfire Club. Told Gareth that you will see him in few days, went upstairs then got ready to pack up.
You are nervous, you never been on the plane before, not even gone on the honeymoon. First day of the honeymoon was at the lovers lake with a picnic, it was very romantic, you love that day so much. You and Eddie don't have much money for trips but he made the promise when he gets rich money and takes you to Paris, your dream trip.
While you’re on the plane and sitting down in the first class. You’ve already been thinking since last night, what is to say to him? You haven’t seen him for 19 years. Not even a called to see how you doing or when he stopped at Uncle Wayne to visit but didn’t visit you
Hey Eds, how are you doing?
Oh god. Now you think everything is too much, you want to ask the captain to make u-turn the plane and go home. But it’s all too late
Hands rubbing your eyes. You really have no idea how to help Eddie. Gareth told you that he has never stopped taking heroin and drinks too. You have to try to help him, it was not your first time to help someone, but it was too late because your dad died of an overdose.
Think it’s your fault for not helping him enough but with Eddie, you have to try really hard. You can’t lose him too.
Land at the airport and get your luggage, stepping out of the place and looking around. Caught eyes on the man with a paper in his hand, it’s your name. You knew Gareth sent you a limo.
After greeting the driver, riding on the road, you look out of the window to look at the view. Jesus this place is so beautiful as ever.
Stop at the hotel where Gareth and Eddie are staying. Thank god for not the same floor.
As enter the room and- Jesus Christ, the room is beautiful! It’s freaking huge then your home, it has almost everything as a bedroom, the king bed with thick flower blanket and a perfect view of Paris tower.
Your dream is finally here. Paris. You smile with happy tears.
Suddenly, you heard someone knock at your door as you jumped, never thinking you were going to meet someone. You’re on the move to reach the door and open and see a man is standing there with the biggest grinning on his face. Scanning his face, almost nothing changed except he grew a little beard, same length of hair but different colour tones, light brown.
You gasp as grinning, “Gareth!” As jump into his hug
He chuckles as wrap arms around your waist “Y/N! Miss you so much!”
“I hope you didn’t forget your favourite?” A voice suddenly came from beside Gareth
You both let go from hugging and find another man smiling at you. He have little poof short hair with gray highlights on one side and he have a little wrinkles under his eyes and cheeks too from the smiling
“Jeff!” You jump into his hug. Gosh you miss them so much, they are your best friends ever since you joined Hellfire Club
Letting go from his hug, scanning around them to looking for other friends but he’s not here.
“Where’s Frank?” You asked
Their faces drop from their smiles. Gareth speaks first before Jeff does. “He’s-um, Frank is with him”
You know what he’s talking about, he is with Eddie. You nod your head slowly. You let them in so they can talk to you about what happened and how to help Eddie.
While listening to them how he started to use drugs, it was only three months after he left you. He has the same problem with drinks too, sure you saw that coming. Being a rockstar can have problems with many things.
Gareth did try to help metalhead but he just kept running away from him, not wanting to get help, all Eddie just wanted to feel painless and go wild. You have heard that story before from magazines or on the news, it makes your heart ache, he did look so bad and very unrecognized.
You have to help him before he kills himself. You can’t lose him and his love if he still has that in his heart. You must help him. You need him back in your life
Sigh, “you are not going to like this but I need your huge favour” your eyes bouncing on Jeff and Gareth, you can tell their faces, they don’t like it.
Next day, you are standing in front of Eddie in his bed. Sleeping. Little snoring
Shaking your head as you can't believe this at all. You want to smack him so hard but you know it is his choice since you’re not married to him. Can’t help it but you can feel hot boiled down with jealousy.
After walking out of their his room to look around the hotel room, bigger than your room. Jesus Christ. You never thought that he is richer. Kinda a beautiful room but covers trash, beer cans everywhere, dirty clothes on the floor and couches. Sadly, you caught your eyes on the little white powder and pills on the coffee table
You must clean this up and throw it down the toilet before he awakens. As you move your hand under the table and other hand swipe cocaine/pills off the table, land on your hand and walk fast to the bathroom. Drop them in the toilet and flush it to watch them go down and disappear.
Heavy exhale out from your lungs as close your eyes. First step for Eddie, not to let him touch any of the drugs.
Take the black garbage bag from under the kitchen sink and pick up all beer cans, vodka glass bottles, tequila and whiskey to throw into the bags. Second steps, no more alcohol
Grab another bag to pick up all trash- thank god Eddie has kitchen gloves. They’re full of grossest, moist foods, chips bags, vomit and think it’s belong to someone. Continue picking up more trash, ugh! Condoms. You already throw up but swollen back down.
Unexpectedly after picking up a torn shirt and you found a picture of Eddie and you. Your eyes full of surprise, staring at the picture, it’s from 1985 at the lovers lake, had a bonfire with friends and family. Why does he still have this picture?
It was amazing memories, he showed you how much he loves you so much , never hands off of you, kisses you and keeps telling you in your ears I love you every single minute.
One day we were so happy but then the next day, everything changed. His music was a real hit off and they got a call from Hollywood that they wanted Corroded Coffin to play for their fans.
You and Eddie were standing in front of his bus to wait for take off.
“Come with me, please?” His eyes full of sad puppy eyes
“I can’t. I’m not leaving Hawkins, my life is here”
His shoulders slumped and nostrils flared, clenching his jaw. “Fine. Stay here all you want, but I’m not coming back here. My life was fucking hell because everyone see me as satanic and still call me a fucking freak but my fans don’t.”
“What about me?! I don’t see you either and I love you my whole life! I’m your wife, please stay here and be with me” quivering your lips, eyes filled with tears
“If you love me, come with me. If you don’t… then we’re done” metalhead warned. His heart really can’t take it anymore, it’s all mix different feeling, love and hurt
You frowning, breathing fitfully and eyes full of tears, didn’t speak loudly but quietly. “How could you say that?”
Shrugging his shoulders like don’t care, furrowed his brows. He’s waiting for you to answer anything and really fuck hope you are coming to be with him. He love you too much
You didn’t say anything but standing there while heartbreaking
Eddie shaking his head as huffs, “okay then. I guess we are done” he took off to the bus and went inside, didn’t even look back.
Your eyes went wide as tears fell down, hands fists tighter to make your palm feel pain. Watching the bus taking off, you fell kneeling down on the ground and bawling.
You shook your head out of the memory. You really hate that day but this picture you were holding, it was your favourite day. Put picture back where it belong to
Back to cleaning again, washing the dishes, it seems like he never washed them. What a stupid spoiler boy.
Finally, you are done and everything looks amazing, squeaky clean. Now you want to make a coffee for yourself, it’s been three hours since you arrived in Eddie's room.
You hear the door open and slowly footsteps, think it’s a slut girl who he was fuck with.
Your eyes caught on the young blonde lady. Jesus, she looks barely 20 and she gives you the weird look like what are you doing here and who are you. So you ignore it and enjoy drinking coffee while she walks away and goes through the door. Third step, no more sleeping with women (you wish)
Jesus Christ, Edward. You think as drop your mug real hard to make everyone hear it. Thankfully it didn’t break the mug
And finally, you hear the door crack open.
So you took a deep breath with your eyes. This is it. 19 years since the last time you saw him and now he’s coming downstairs. You have no idea if he is or not happy to see you.
Hearing his groans like he was in a painful hangover, stepping down the stairs and his fingers scratching his scale, his eyes still haven’t opened yet.
Fucking hell. Eddie looked really hell then last time you saw him, his hair grew longer almost reaching to his bellybutton, got little silver fox hair and he grew the beard with little white.
He wears black sweatpants and no top, he has more tattoos and you can see his ribs, he’s really skinny almost he never ate to make your heartaches.
“Morning or should I say Afternoon?”
A voice got him as a big jump and wasn’t sure that he is very familiar with that voice. His fingers rubbing his eyes to make it clear, his eyes went wide as surprised to see you. Standing in the kitchen room with him
“Y/N?” Eddie breathed, thought he just saw a ghost
“The one and only” you slurp the coffee, this coffee is really good
“What are you doing here and what the fuck is happened this place?! Did the maids show up?” His brown eyes scanning his place, it’s too damn clean but smells really good, no rotten smells.
“I cleaned. It was gross and disgusting, I swear I thought there was a dead body here. You are too fucking lazy to clean up. You’re an adult, not a fucking child” you snapped
“Jesus fuck. I never seen you were so harsher” he pour a coffee for himself and on the way to the secret nightstand to get his rum
You scoff, still continue, “oh and that woman,” as you point at the front door. “She looks like a goddamn child. Are you fucking kidding me?”
He turned around and pointed at you “she’s 23, okay? I checked her ID. Why do you care? You jealous?” The long-haired grinning
You huffed as rolling eyes. You never thought that you felt so angry at him and hate him
You watch Eddie look something from under the nightstand, you know what he’s looking for. You gotta act like a normal as keep drinking the coffee and not to look at him
He opens it and it’s empty. He knew he had 6 bottles under it. He doesn't remember very much but always had a back up drink as he moved to the tv stand and opened the little door. It’s empty. He can feel his heart is racing and starting panic
Metalhead shot his head up and stared at you in shock, thinking he didn’t hear correctly, did you say throw them out?
“Wh-why did you do that?!” He boomed, on moving to the fridge to see if there were any beers and it was none. Slap the door hard as you jump “Why the fuck you do that?! Huh?!”
You still didn’t see his eyes but you knew his eyes are full of black and flames. “You had enough to drink. Look Edward-“
“Don’t you dare to call me that.” He warned you, his voice was so toxic. His dad only called him Edward when he was a bad man, Allen hurt him since he was a boy when his mom left them alone.
Turn your head to look at him not to show your fear but angrily, “I can call you whatever I want. We are not married, Edward. Did you forget that? You’re the one who sent me the divorce papers”
He didn’t say anything but his face can tell, he is guilty, he did really loved you but right now just can’t stand you. Decide that he had enough as he gone to the table to find his drug but it’s not there, he’s start panicking and wondering if you did do something with them
“Where the fuck are they?” Eddie snarled, back to you again, his eyes are full of fire
“Where’s what?” You challenged
“Y/N, this is not a fucking game. Tell me. Where. The fuck. Are they?” You can feel his hot breath from his nose on your chin
You have never seen him like this. His eyes are full of hateful, almost evil and the voice doesn’t sound like it belongs to him, almost possessed by the monster guy named Vecna from D&D. This is not Eddie you know, he’s different. This shit stuff did this to him.
You didn’t say back but when your eyes bounced somewhere, back at his dark brown eyes again.
He caught you, you were looking at something, turned his head back, scanning anywhere and his eyes on the bathroom. He never felt so angry and terrified, he can’t lose them because he needs them to make him feel good and painless.
“What the fuck have you done?! Do you have any idea how much they cost?!” Eddie walks fast to the bathroom and looks at the toilet, they’re gone.
You knew he’s going to be mad, just like your late father after you tried to help him. You know what is going to happen next. You watch him as he put jacket on and grabs the wallet and about to take the knob.
Metalhead pulls and twists again, if not pulling all locks are unlocked. He doesn’t understand what this is.
“I’m sorry, Eds. But the door is locked from outside” didn’t meet his eyes, only sip the coffee. You can hear his heavy footsteps, here we go.
“Are you fucking insane?! Why would you do that?!” As throw the wallet at the wall, stand close to you
“YOU NEED HELP EDWARD! You are not being yourself! You’re not the guy I remember when I married him!” Your lips pressed together, eyes full of angry
He shrugs like it's nothing. “So?! It's been 19 years, sweetie, of course I have changed, being a rockstar did change me, fans change me and women change me too. And you’re right, I’m not the same guy who you used to be married to.”
Your eyes are full of hurt confusion. “Don’t you call me fucking sweetie, I’m not yours. And you are fucking wrong. Drugs have changed you. You are a drug addict, Edward.”
“Don’t you call me that. I’m warning you” he snarled through his teeth.
“I don’t giving a shit! Again, we are not fucking married! Everyone is missing you and they can’t stand to keep seeing you like this! You remember your favourite boy, Dustin?! You remember he graduated as a NASA engineer two years ago and you weren't there after you promised him! You broke his fucking heart, Edward!”
“I’M NOT FUCKING FINISH! You remember Will Byers married to a wonderful husband, Mike? Four years ago, Will asked you to be his best man and you accepted it but guess what, Edward? You wasn’t fucking there on their wedding day!!”
You never thought you felt sooo angry at him, you never been that angry before, not even in your life.
He felt his blood hot boil, clenching his fists, nostrils flared and he didn't want to believe any words out of your mouth but he knew it all true, just hate to hear it.
“Let’s me tell you about Uncle Wayne-“
“Yes! You listen to me! He has a lung cancer and still in fucking hospital for over a year, I always been there for him” as you jab a finger yourself. “And you were never there, Edward! I tried to called you but you never pick up your fucking phone because you were too busy to using drugs, drinking and fucking with many women! You-need-a-fucking-help, Edward!” You jab a finger his chest with each words
Unexpectedly he hit your face with a fist, really hard and you fell down, body hit on the floor. You never felt the pain on your cheek.
You turn to stare at him in shock, gasp and eyes going wide, glossy eyes. Hand palm on your cheek, it felt hot and stings. You never thought of this but feel so terrifying of him
Eddie’s eyes went softly, jaw going slack and his hand was shaking. He hurt you. The world has gone quiet, he really didn’t mean to hurt you but he really did.
His heart broke into million pieces and hoping this was all dreaming, hope you’re not here, still live in Hawkins but he’s still standing there in front of you. You’re still on the floor with a hand on your cheek. Eddie try to leaning to you but you crawling backward to the against the wall and you yell with the safeword
Suddenly the two security men ran into his room and grabbed Eddie both arms and pushed him down to the ground. He was so confusing, scared and yelling what’s going on and get the fuck off of me.
Gareth just about to grab you to pull out but you already start to run out of the room, you can hear metalhead from yelling
“I’m sorry, y/n!! I’m so sorry!!” Eddie sounds horrified, struggling to pull his arms away from the men but they’re too strong to hold him down. He just want go after you to tell you how much he is sorry and still love you but it was all to late for him, his eyes already full of tears and fall down his cheeks.
You want to believe his words but he was snapped and hit your face, he never do that to you, you do remember his promised you
After the prom night, you and Eddie laying on his bed after just having the amazing sex, he took your virginity and you took his virginity too. It was beautiful, awkward at first but it was definitely perfect.
“God I love you” his head buried in your neck, you can feel his hot breath on the bare skin of your neck. He was out of breath, same as you.
You smile, “I love you too, Eddie.”
Your smile faded and heart racing like insane, did you hear him correctly? Push yourself up on your elbow and he lifts himself up to look at you. You try to read him to see if he was joking or anything but serious.
“Y/N, I am madly in love with you, ever since the first time you joined the hellfire, I was so excited to meet you and fuck I was scared to ask you out but I’m fucking happy that I did ask you for the prom before too late. I do want to be with you for the rest of my life to grow old and have children, the mini munsons. I promise you that I’ll show you how much I love you and I promise you I would never hurt you ever and I promise you, you will have the best sex in your life” he smiled when your tears fell down, giggling “Will you marry me, Y/N L/N?”
You never thought that you could be a wife at 18 years old, but this is Eddie, your love for life and you really love him so much. Can’t stop imagining our little munsons running around in the backyard while Eddie chases them, maybe three kids. You do want to be with him
He laughs, grabs your cheeks and pulls onto his lips. You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him in for a hungry kiss, his tongue sliding across your bottom lip begging for entrance. Your tongues danced together as Eddie lowered himself onto you, his weight pressing you into his bed below, and you didn't mind one bit.
You can’t wait to spend with him forever.
Bawling out of your eyes, don’t know how many you ran past the doors but didn’t go far as you stop and fall against the wall, slide down. Knees up to your face, you don’t giving fuck if someone saw you, you’re in too much pain
Hearing the running footsteps and grabbing your shoulders, their arms wrap around you and between their legs. You didn’t look up, just hugged yourself tightly
"Hey, hey, shhhh. Shhhh. You're okay. You’re safe here with me” Jeff cooing you and rocket you
You have no idea what the fuck is happening here. You arrived in Paris, met Gareth and Jeff for the first time 8 years and you just got hit by your ex-husband. Everything is too much going on in your head, you can’t have that again not even since eddie left you and your anxiety, mental illness, your brain was never shut up and now, they all are coming back to you again.
“See what you did? You pissed him off again”
“Ohh he must love that! To hurt you again”
“He will never love you again”
It's been 5 days since the awful day. You haven’t moved from the bed, just laying there and staring at the Paris tower. You've been crying for three days and your throat is really sore from choking. Jeff, Gareth and Frank has come see you and tried to talk to you but you never say anything
They try to give you food or drink but you won’t touch them. You haven’t been showering or brushing your teeth, it was too painful to brush it, you can feel them a little bumpy on your teeth. Gross.
Early in the afternoon, the door was open and someone walked into your room. Gareth sat down in front of you, he scanned your face, your bruise is little going down the fade, just about yellow with tiny purple. Your eyes are empty, soulless.
You didn’t meet his eyes, only stared at the tower.
He sighs, “I’m sorry this happened to you. I knew it was a bad idea.” You don’t speak or move. He continued, “you should eat, I hate to see you like this, I can’t lose you like we may lose Eddie. Um, I have talked to Eddie, he hasn't been sleeping and has been throwing up a lot right now.”
Your eyes bounced on Gareth. Eddie has been throwing up? That must be a sign to stop taking the drug.
“He hasn’t stopped talking about you and really wants to talk to you, he’s really sorry.” Gareth paused as fingers through his hair to pull back. “Uh, he told me that he decided that he needs to get some help. Ever since the happened that day and he’s totally understand if you don’t want to see him”
Are you ready to see him again? But you can feel in your heart, it still hurts, ripping into a thousand pieces, just like when he left you and your cheek still hurts, still can feel he hit you thousand times, how are you trust Eddie again? But… you must need to help him and see him again because you still love him.
Gareth can see in your eyes, thinks he can see little love in there, got him a small smirk. He leaned closer to you, “hey, can I take you to bath? I know they’ll helps, plus you’re really damn stink” he laugh as scrunching his face up
Can’t control your lips but you grow a smile, you do know that you stink, it's been awhile since you showered, bath does sound nice. But. You can’t move your muscles, still weak. You give him a nod. That is the first time you give him a sign since that day
He was happy to see you smile and move again. Damn, Gareth really thought he lost you.
He’s gone to the bathroom to fill it up, check the temperature to feel right and add coffee bean vanilla bubble bath soap. Back to you again and put his arm under your knees and other arms on your back to pick you up. Let you sit down on the toilet seat. Bathtub is nice, it has rose gold legs, the same as the pipe over the white tub. It smells nice too. You really need a bath.
You are thankfully that Gareth has been there for you, same as Jeff. They are really the greatest friends you had.
Tomorrow. You are going to see him.
Walking back and forth in front of Eddie's door with two security men standing there. You are freaking nervous, are you even ready for this? After what happened. You know this is a bad idea but you really need to help him and maybe it is time to tell him the big secret, the secret may change his life, will it?
“No. But it’s not a choice. I do want to help him”
Slowly nods, “remember, just say the safeword again or knock the door whenever you are ready to get out” Jeff is so caring about you. He has been there for you since your both parents passed and took care of you when Eddie wasn’t there.
You gulps, “okay, I’m ready”
One guy unlocked the door and peek in to see if Eddie was away from the door. The man let you in and you walked into his room, there was no sign of him but you could hear him vomiting.
On the way upstairs, you didn’t move fast enough because you were afraid of him. Enter the bedroom, it’s so dark here, the curtains are closed and you can smell really strong riskier from the vomit. Gareth did mention that metalhead has been throwing up for 6 days, which is not good.
You found Eddie, his head in the toilet and the hair wasn’t pull back, you can see all fucking bones. Seeing him like this makes your heart ache. You did remember the wedding vow, in sickness and in health until death you do part, is it still count if you both are not together? You do want to take care of him
You can see him sweating from his bare back, he must be feeling so hot and cold back and forth. Leaning down to grab his hair to pull back, holding up like a pony tail. Hand rubbing around his back, you can feel all bones, make you want to cry
Eddie can’t tell who is behind him but can feel your hand is smaller than Jeff or Gareth. He thinks it’s you. Want to look at your beautiful eyes but he continues vomiting to make his stomach hurt and really bad headaches from squeezing his head.
It’s so hard to watch him like this. You can’t help it but tears fall out of your eyes, you were supposed to control your emotions but watching him like this. You want to take all bad stuff away from him and take the devil out of his body, save his soul.
Finally, it’s slowing down.. lift his head up, hand on his forehead and his body shaking which means he’s cold now. You grab the wet face cloth and wipe his mouth. The sad brown eyes finally meet yours, you’re still here.
Scanning your face, you have changed a little for many years, winkles around your lips from smiling and under the eyes too. Got little silver hair, seems like you're never dying hair, still you. Caught in his eyes, the bruises made his heart shatter. He really wished he could take all back and he should have stayed in Hawkins with you, everything would never have happened.
You told him to get up and go to lying on bed, metalhead stands up straight but too weak to move. Pull his arm over your shoulder to help him move and he sat down and slowly lay down. You pull the blanket over him and about walk out but you stop when he speak
You close your eyes as sigh.
“I really didn’t mean to, I wish I take it back and you were fucking right. Drugs did this to me. I do need help. Please help.” He’s shivering as pull blanket up to his chin
Meet his eyes, “I am helping you. That's why I’m here.”
“Just... be honest with me, do you hate me?”
You short laugh, “it’s impossible not to hate you. I mean I-I-“ you paused as you thought about telling him the big secret that you never told him before. You did try but metalhead chose to leave, plus he seems busy and happy, so why waste his rockstar life.
You pull the chair to move closer to Eddie's bed, sit down and lean closer to him, your fingers through his bangs to push back. “I have to tell you something and it can be a huge shocks”
The look on his face is puzzled.
You inhale and exhale as, “you have a daughter and she looks like you” you grab a phone to open the picture and show him of you and your daughter.
He sat up slowly because he’s very struggling with his weak muscles. He gently takes your phone and looks at it. She does look like him and you both look so happy.
Without a father. Without Eddie.
“I was going to tell you that day but you chose to leave. Her name is Ethel, she loves to listen to any metal, punk music and she does fix cars, grandpa Wayne taught her that she was in love. She’s in college right now” you paused to smile, that is the first time you smiled since you arrived in Paris. Eddie sure loves to see you smile again, it’s really great to see that again for 19 years.
You continue “Ethel knows about you and decided she doesn’t want to bother you. I mean she knows you never answer the phone with busy life, she wants to meet you whenever you’re ready.”
Eddie has no idea how he’s feeling right now, all kinds of emotions, heartbreak, happiness, sadness, love and guilt. He should’ve never left you and he should have been her father and be a good husband with you but all 19 years of waste of stupid being rockstar. He really can’t remember why he wants to be a rockstar in the first place but wants to be with you to have a family.
Close the phone and give back to you. You took it.
"I don't want us to be apart anymore. Ever. I am fucking sorry, I am the worst person. You made my eyes open a big time and you were right for everything. I broke everyone's hearts, yours too and Ethel.”
Lift his head up to meet your eyes, turn his body and knees to almost touch yours, he can be scared to touch you after everything. He knows that you are afraid of him but Eddie really wants to try to lift his hand up to your cheek, slowly. You didn’t move or flinch but hold still. His hand on your cheek where he hurt you.
The cheek still has a little stings but you can feel his warm hand, lean it to it. Tears fell down his hand. You haven’t felt this so long not for 19 years ago and you almost said I love you but only in head. Thank god for that, you weren't sure if you were ready to say it out loud.
“I don't know what the future holds. All I know is that I hope you're in it.” Eddie tries to smile but is weak. He’s still in pain. “I love you, baby. I still love you so much for many years, I really can’t stop thinking about you. Fuck I tried to call you, talk to you but I was chicken out or I can’t remember well but still I was shit. I love you so much and you don’t have to say back if you’re not ready for that, I promise you- I swear this time I promise you, I will never leave your side ever again.”
Your eyes become glassy, smiling and hands on his neck to pull his forehead against yours. “You’re idiot”
Eddie smiled. “I am your idiot. Can I kiss you?”
You scrunch your face up. “Uh, not after you just vomited. Maybe after you feel better?”
“Wow! What an incredible life with all the crazy emotions. You do look so good, healthy and you are three years clean, is that right?”
“Yup, my fiance helped me so much. She saved my life”
Eddie asked you to married him, not too long ago about 5 months ago and you said yes, you can’t wait to marry him again. Eddie still hasn’t met his daughter, he wasn’t ready yet not till he got super clean. You were ready for him to meet her after 2 years clean but he still wants to wait.
After so many years, the first year was super hard for you and him, since his long-term addiction he had both kidney failure, weight loss and memory loss but he never forgot you. Gareth was the one who gave Eddie a kidney, he got a match as him. Eddie was super thankfully his best friend to save him, he doesn’t deserve that after treating him like a shit. Gareth knew he really didn’t mean to, he still loved Eddie like a brother.
Eddie has changed himself, no more long hair, really short up to his neck, still curly and shaggy hair. Fresh clothes and grown the little fat tummy, no more showing the bones. Eating food is his favourite thing, but yours is better.
Right now Eddie is sitting in front of Ellen on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. You are backstage in Eddie's private room and watch him on the tv. He looks so good. You really can’t stop smiling to make your cheeks hurt, you haven’t felt the strong love in so long, not even since your daughter was born
“Your fiance must be so proud of you. I’m sure your band is proud of you too. Do you know what you're doing next? Planning to write the new songs?”
“Actually, I am officially retired.”
Ellen shot her eyebrows up in shocks. “Oh wow! I wasn’t expecting that but I can be understanding after you’re done through all 19 years. You must be so relieved and finally enjoy relaxing and be with your beautiful fiance”
Eddie smiles at her words. “Yeah, I have been looking forward to it. But I have a surprised. I wrote a new song and I can do it right now?”
You were in shock, he wrote a new song? Since when did he do this? You were with him the whole time but- of course. He was gone every Monday and Wednesday morning to be with his band. How are you not to see that coming but you can’t wait to hear his new song.
“Yes! Please! Excuse me, Eddie. Hey Daniel can you please get him a guitar?”
Eddie stood up and took a guitar from him and sat down with a microphone in front of him. He can be nervous because he hasn’t done that for three years, the first time without drugs and drinks. This time is very different without them and he can’t wait to show you and the fans too.
“Hi guys, I want to say thanks for coming. Uh, I wrote this song for my fiance after she saved me for many years. So this is for you my sweet sunshine.” He wink at the camera.
You can feel your cheeks are hot. Damn you Eddie. You smirk at the tv.
A casual club meeting turned into a meet cute,
The moment I laid eyes on you I knew,
Butterflies in my belly and a breathless hello,
I found my love and my lady it's you.
You would've been my prom queen,
Couldn't keep my hands and my eyes off of you.
Slow hands, gentle love and next thing I knew,
Marriage, the big white gown,
And tears in my eyes as I said I do,
My love, my wife, my forever.
Where did it all go wrong?
Take me back to the fun times we had,
Dnd nights and laughter and whispered I love yous,
Damn. You jerk. Wipe your tears off your face, you thought you ran out of tears. He made your heart bigger and bigger, ready to bust out of your chest. You love him too much and you can’t wait for him to come home, back in Hawkins and meet our daughter.
4 weeks later. You’re both sitting in the car in front of collage. Eddie is ready to meet Ethel but he’s so freaking nervous, it's been 22 years. He hasn’t felt nervous since first time on the stage. Does he think that she’ll change her mind about seeing him?
He learned that she wants to be a mechanic to build the big trucks, like Backhoe, Bulldozers, Cranes, any Construction Vehicles. That's why she’s here to learn how to use them and build them. He is so proud of her.
“Eddie? I know you’re nervous but I’ve told you that she is ready to see you. She may not know about you but she does love you.” You tuck his hair behind his ear, thumb rubbing on his cheek.
Bouncing his knee, fist on his lips. “I know you’ve told me before but what if she changes her mind when she sees me?”
Shaking your head, “absolutely not. Every time I tell her the stories about us and she just wants to meet you for a long time. Look Eddie, I love you with all my heart. You can do it, you told yourself that you are ready.” You kiss his lips softly
He pulled back, “I love you too, sweetie. Okay let’s do it”
You open the door and get out of the car, Eddie follows you. Your arm wraps around his arm, both walk around the college, sure it's a big place and it is impossible to find her but not too long as he found her. He meets your face to see if it is her. You nod.
He can’t see her face but her hair matches his, long, brown and curly. She’s with her group, possible friends.
He noticed one of her friends tapping her shoulder and pointing at him.
Ethel turned around and found you, she hasn’t seen you for so long, not since you left for Paris. Her eyes bounce on metalhead. Her face was full of surprise and wasn’t expecting to see him. Hands cover her mouth, he can hear her loud gasps.
You let go of his arm, he walked toward her slowly because he had no idea what he was doing, walk to her or run to her? Just continue the slow walk and can feel his heart racing so fast.
She walked toward him too but not the same as his speed but fast. When Eddie gets closer and closer, he can see his own daughter, she does have the same face as his but she got your nose. The cute nose.
They finally meet face to face, she smiles at him, he smiles back. He doesn’t know what to say or a hand shake, no, that stupid. Why would a father do a hand shake with a daughter, but he still doesn’t know what he is doing. But he know what he want to say to his daughter
She didn’t let him finish as her arms wrapped around his neck as a hug. He was in shocks, confusion but didn’t waste a minute as he hugged her back.
“I miss you, I’m glad you’re here. I love you, dad”
His eyes full of tears, he never thought to hear that from her and his heart full of flutter.
“Oh sweetheart, I love you too”
Both pull apart, his hands on both sides of her head to look at her. He can’t believe he's been missing all year and just two minutes ago, she’s right here. Eyes look down at her chest, furrow to his brows in confused and surprised
She looked down, back up at him again. “Your guitar pick, yes. It’s yours. Yo-you want them back?” Ethel sighed
“No no,” shaking his head as his short curly hair bounced, grinning. “It’s yours, Ethel. God look at you, my baby girl” he can’t believe this and hoping this is not a dream. He loves her so much already.
She’s a little grin, dimples creasing into her cheeks, just like her father. She started to cry already, same as Eddie. His thumb wipe her tears off her cheek.
While you’re staring at them hugging each other, tightly. Make your heart full of love and smile reach to your ears, your dream finally came true because after 22 years there was only one missing piece: Eddie. Ethel’s in his arms, father finally has his daughter that he has been waiting for 3 years.
You know they were missing out a lot but you knew everything was going to be okay. Family never separate again.
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This is what Eddie look likes with short hair and after three years of clean.
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