#stray 2019

[catboy-jaebeom]

this shapeshifting vessel is a lie

it's been a year already since my last pinned, and I got shadowbanned exactly around that time back then because of course I did, so here's a new one 🩷

I'm Autumn, but you can call me Faon as well. my pronouns are they/ them. ticked all the boxes on the queer registration form, and I'm currently in a queerplatonic poly relationship. I was born in '95. central european & white. future linguistics student. proud plant parent. kpop fan. I really adore vampires and I write original and fan fiction, as well as poetry. I speak english and german, and I'm studying french, japanese, korean and finnish. lover of bats, snakes, horsies, deer and cats, as well as sharks. I sometimes make cat ear edits and vampire edits of idols and actors ( see: my icon ) so if you want me to make one for you, you can DM me.

my interests and hyperfixations change over time — yes, it was a phase, mum! name a constant state of being, mum! — and I change my username every two years, round about. currently I'm really into the quantum leap spin-off, live action one piece show, and I'm watching a couple of kdramas and such at the side. I play baldur's gate 3, vampyr and control, but also 2064: read only memories.

I was very active in the shadowhunters and the dragon age as well as the james bond / 00q fandoms, and I will reblog every single gif of spirit - stallion of the cimarron, it's my childhood movie. also, Jin Oshiro from STRAY (2019) deserved better, thank you. you may know me as leafmiilk, taehdenveri, fliederfuchs or thetevinterelf.

this blog of mine was created in 2012, I was on here already when you could still count on the superwholock people to throw gifs at posts although I was never one of them, which, trust me, was a hilarious feeling in hindsight asjfjahajft. I have one sideblog worthy of note @splittergheist which is my writing blog, and I have a secret sideblog for my omegaverse / miscecanis stuff ( much more the lifestyle, world building and concept than the smut and stuff, I'll be honest, but no hate at all!! ) that I might give out if someone asks nicely and privately.

that said, I tag my posts extensively, and if you ask politely, I will try and tag specific things for you too! please be nice in my inbox or I'll simply delete your ask and block you. 🦈 oftentimes I will message you privately when you've sent me an ask that doesn't seem to be an ask game or such! and while I do post stuff for tag games I'm not a fan of tagging others unless we're, like, really close, sorry ><

relevant kpop stuff can be found under the tag. I also put some "reviews" written by mutuals about my blog there, thank you everyone, you're lovely 💚🌼

and thank you everyone else for reading this, may your days be bright I think we all could need that at the moment. I would super love new people to talk to ( please have your age / some approximate of it in your bio; I'm totally fine with talking to minors but I would like to know I am before I do, thank u ) so message me or reply to this!

kpop stuff

ult group: GOT7

other groups I like: NCT 127, WayV, Red Velvet, ITZY, Seventeen, SHINee, ONEUS; ...

soloists I like: XIA / Kim Junsu, Taemin

biases: Lim Jaebeom & Choi Youngjae; Nakamoto Yuta; Xiaojun; Kang Seulgi; Hwang Yeji; Joshua Hong & Lee Seokmin; Choi Minho & Taemin; Kim Leedo & Lee Seoho; Park Seonghwa & Jeong Yunho; Kanemoto Yoshi; ...

wreckers: Mark Tuan & Kim Yugyeom; Ten Lee; Kim Mingyu & Lee Woozi; Kang Yeosang & Song Mingi; ...

for as long as xitter still lives, you can find my kpop account under: jaebueomgi

blog reviews

@meant-to-be-a-hero wrote on 22nd November:

Shall I compare Autumn's blog to a summer's day? I shall not, because I am not a hack. Equal parts language jokes, kpop boys (and girls, but I don't look at those) and #bitter millennial blogging, there's something for everyone here at Autumn's blog. They are also one of the few people who still write funky things in the tags, a true dying breed on Tumblr. I feel like I'm reviewing a restaurant or something. Either way, click follow, thank me later, because you will. It's a good blog, Bront.

— ★★★★★(★★) [ 7 out of 5 ]

@klutenpetter wrote on 22nd November:

It seems I have misplaced the URL of the blog in question that I was supposed to review.

— ★★★★★ [ 5 out of 5 ]

[catgirl-yeji]

catboy!Jin for everyone's viewing pleasure 🩷

@theweirdsenpai @vesper-vibes @queenmismatched

[splittergheist]

継承 or The Tale Of The Ugly Duckling (825 words) by Splittergheist Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: STRAY - Fandom, STRAY 2019 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Jin Oshiro Additional Tags: Mentioned Abuse, Parental Abuse, Mentioned Assault, Ugly Duckling, I will carry this fandom alone if I must, Slam Poetry, i broke my own heart writing this, Hurt No Comfort

Summary: A small slam-poetry-esque thing I wrote about Jin Oshiro, because he deserves the world and his mother is a horrible human being.

[catboy-jaebeom]

So I just watched Stray and Jin's story hit home so hard I got whiplash. I am 25 and because of mental and physical health issues, I can't afford to move out, cause I have medical bills to pay. And living for 25 years with people who were supposed to protect and love me, only to be denigrated and psychologically abused by them... I empathized with Jin so much. He did nothing wrong, and he was NOT a monster. But having been abused and abandoned by his mother, ofc he ended up believing her venomous words. He didn't deserve to go down like that. In fact, he deserved to be loved and accepted for who he is, a beautiful boy who was still obviously trying to do right by his sister. He deserved to get the help he desperately needed, and he deserved to be treated with respect and kindness. I cried so hard watching that movie. It's horrible to be abused by one's very parents. And it does lead to self-loathing and trust issues. At least it did in my case.

hey anon!

first off, I'm so sad you are suffering like this >< whoever you are, I wish you to be able to get out of that situation as soon as is possible. perhaps try and reach out to friends or professionals if that is available to you. you deserve love, safety and patience, please don't ever forget that!

I feel you though. I won't go into detail, but I too have suffered from abuse a couple of times in my life, including from my parents, and when I watched STRAY and got to the end I felt absolutely heartbroken and betrayed. Jin deserved better, just as you say - and so do we. I got attached to him, and I saw myself in him even if my situations were never that severe. to see him get killed and betrayed by the sister he simply wanted to connect with ??

like, I get that murder isn't the answer, I get that you're still responsible for the damage you do because of your mental issues, but I understood why he did it. I understood why he snapped. honestly, Nori being like you need to turn yourself in just made me so mad. of course, in a way, she's right, but also ?? what would being locked up in jail improve ? especially in the US in this case ? he'd likely have to serve for life after those two murders, right ? either way, what he needed would've been to get the help to work through all the trauma he's suffered. or, you know, for the sister to like. actually try and calm him down instead of getting him locked up.

of course, he's a fictional character - and his abilities aren't mundane, so help and such would've been difficult to give to him - and as such it's important to try and see what kind of story STRAY wanted to tell and what part Jin played in that.

but that kind of trope is so old and still so painful to watch. the mentally ill, often horribly abused character dying or getting killed to conclude the movie? instead of writing a story about change and life - which would've worked so well here ?? - and being your own person who's making their own decisions ?? the potential and the base was all there, but that wasn't what the director decided to tell and it saddens me to the absolute core.

especially because Nori herself had been sheltered all her life. she could've been the light in that darkness Jin was stumbling through ever since his keishou had awoken. they could've healed together. could've searched for their roots together.

Joe Sill himself said on the premiere that Jin's magic comes from a place of hate and abuse, while Nori's stems from a place of love and support, and I'm just saying that he could've explored that too ? maybe Jin could've been 'saved' ? maybe all he'd have needed would've been patience and love and effort ?? he didn't seem at all unwilling to talk to her and to build a life with her? he even came back to ask his mother - the mother who'd abused and abandoned him 20 years ago - to accept him again, to ask her for forgiveness; he was ready to leave this all behind and start anew - which is such an accurate portrayal of that sort of abuse, too - so there's nothing to say he wouldn't have been willing to change, and with that his magic (if that's canonically possible, of course, but that's never said so, you know).

basically, the bottomline is that a lot of the time the film spent cutting away from scenes that would've been nice and maybe even important to see, could've been used to explore that whole concept, to have them interact a lot more, and to find a better ending than basically telling every parental abuse survivor that their anger isn't valid and that they should rather be quiet than voice that grief.

I liked the concept, I loved the casting and the acting, and the cinematography in general - the movie is so beautiful to watch, ugh - but my gods. we all deserve better than that.

[catboy-jaebeom]

継承 [けいしょう — kei-shou] ; noun

(1) inheritance

Mother would never lie! I really wish that were true.

‘Trauma stirs the 継承’. So, trauma is, what mother gave to me.

[catboy-jaebeom]

taehdenveri giffs stuff:

Jin Oshiro + his powers (STRAY 2019)

Bonus: