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A board from my grapheme color synesthesia to @stray-anpanman

[stray-anpanman]

“You ever have one of those days?”

genre: fluff, humor, teeny tiny bit of angst

length: 2.5k

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Procrastination at it’s finest! For @stay-grandma because we both just had one of those days today. 

Those kinds of days are the worst. The ones where you want nothing more than to climb underneath a pile of blankets and stay there until someone has to come and rather forcefully drag you out. Waking up with a weird sense of dread in his body, Hyunjin pulled the covers up over his head and groaned when he heard his alarm shouting at him. He pondered on why he had ever recorded his own voice to wake him up in the mornings; the high pitched screams breaking through his calm mentality.

“Hwang Hyunjin, wake up! Hwang Hyunjin, wake up!” It rang and rang and rang until he felt the covers being ripped off of him and the icy atmosphere of the room nipped at his exposed skin. Curling in on himself, Hyunjin cracked one eye open, glaring at one of his rather unimpressed members before making grabby hands to retrieve the blankets still being held onto by the other.

“Hyung, why do you set an alarm if you never get up when it goes off? Do you realise that it wakes the rest of us up and then we, in turn, wake you?” Jeongin stepped back as Hyunjin leaped forward to take his blankets but managed to tangle one foot in the other and came crashing to the ground, a rather sharp pain flooding his back as he fell on top of the book he had been reading before he had gone to bed last night. Harmless Person to You, a great read but not so great for falling on top of. Uncomfortable, wouldn’t recommend to a friend.

“C’mon hyung, you gotta go and get dressed. The performance is in two hours. The managers won’t be happy if you’re holding everyone up.” Jeongin flashed his braces with his smile, throwing the elder’s blankets onto the bed above him so he couldn’t drag them back on top of himself. Watching Jeongin skip away from his murderous thoughts, Hyunjin reluctantly began to stand, knowing that the youngest boy was right; nobody would be pleased with him if he made everybody late.

That feeling of dread within his body? He thought it was just that, a feeling but when he stepped on the plug of Seungmin’s charger as he went to get changed, he thought that perhaps his body had been warning him not to get out of bed. Shouting profanities at the top of his lungs while he clutched at his injured foot, the rapper heard a warning being shouted at him to watch his mouth, most likely from Chan or Woojin. When they were yelling at him, he did find it hard to distinguish who it was; their fatherly tones mixing their voices together too well.

Did it help that when he finally did manage to dress himself and get downstairs, after a slight scolding from their manager, that their car wasn’t even there waiting for them? No, no it didn’t. Standing in the bitter cold for more than ten minutes, Hyunjin already didn’t like how this particular day was treating him. When their car did manage to finally arrive, he hopped in to sit beside Changbin, the usually bright rapper scowling at Jisung in front of him.

“Jisung, it’s not that god damn hard. When I buy something, that generally means I want to eat it! So why the hell would you take the last of my cereal? Did you not see me getting angry about the fact that I didn’t get to eat any of it because it was all stuffed in your dumbass squirrel cheeks?!”

“Jeez, calm down hyung. I don’t know if your short ass can cope with holding that much anger inside of your body.”

“What?!”

“Oh my god, will the two of you just shut up?! Stop fighting over god damn food and get a hold of yourselves! Focus on what you’re supposed to be focusing on and get a grip!”

Hyunjin plugged his airpods in, blasting some random song to drown out Chan yelling at the younger boys for their immature behaviour. Pulling the woolen scarf around his face, Hyunjin tried to warm himself up, the heater in the car conveniently being on the fritz. He really didn’t enjoy how this day was turning out so far.

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When they finally did manage to get to the studio, after being stuck in ridiculous traffic because of an accident, they were quickly ushered off to hair and make-up; their managers being chided by the members of staff for arriving late. After the terrible start to the day, Hyunjin really wasn’t up for being pulled and dragged at by the stylists. They always made them look incredible, there was no question about that but Hyunjin just really wasn’t in the mood for this today. It took him nearly ten minutes to try and get the coloured contacts in, poking himself in the eye more than a couple of times.

Waiting backstage with the rest of his members, a weird, uncomfortable tension crowded around them, all being silent as the hustle and bustle around them broke the quietness. Reaching up to the sky, Hyunjin let the bones in his back crack to relieve some of the unwelcome pressure within his body until he heard a rather loud rip. Gathering Felix’s attention, Hyunjin’s eyes pleaded with him to tell him that he had imagined the noise and had not made extra work for the stylists; something that they really did not have time for. Felix gestured to underneath his arm when the seams had split from being dragged so hard when Hyunjin stretched. Cursing himself, he sprinted back to the dressing rooms where a huge fuss was made about the fact that they only had five minutes before they were due to go on stage. Quickly being patched up by one of the irritated stylists, Hyunjin made it back just in time to follow his members on stage, though he didn’t miss the little glares being thrown at him for nearly making them late again. Hyunjin didn’t appreciate that. He hadn’t ripped his shirt on purpose, stuff like that just happens, especially on days like today when the world was out to get him.

“1, 2, Step Out. Hello, we are Stray Kids.” The crowd’s elation made Hyunjin feel more relaxed. He loved performing, the one time he felt completely in control of his environment. He knew what to do and he knew how to do it well, he was part of Stray Kids after all. Taking his position, Hyunijn felt all of his nerves dissipate as the music began to play in his in-ear. This was where he belonged, on stage, in front of screaming fans, doing what he loved to do most in the world with the people that he loved most in the world.

No matter what kind of day he was having, nothing could bring him down when he was performing. Except when his turn came to rap and he stumbled over a couple of words, going unnoticed by the fans but certainly not by his members. Playing it off as cool as possible, Hyunjin winked at the crowd, garnering squeals and his name being shouted amongst the fanchants. It wasn’t that big of a deal, he thought, nobody even noticed. When his foot slipped from under him during the final stages of the song, he thought that there must be some evil deity out to get him today. Hwang Hyunjin does not mess up when he dances, he told himself, not when he’s practiced so god damn hard for this comeback. Small murmurs from the crowd in front told him that his fumble during the rap had gone unnoticed but not in his dance and that hit him hard. The song finally came to an end, the longest four minutes of Hyunjin’s short life, and the dancer was furious with himself.

Riding back to the dorms in silence, Hyunjin counted the raindrops falling down the window, getting to forty six before he lost count and had to start over. This day had been bad, one of his worst in a long time but what could he do about it? He just wanted to crawl back to bed, he should never have left it this morning in the first place. Hopping out of the car first, his foot was immediately engulfed by a puddle of water, up to his ankle becoming drenched. He wondered what kind of malicious crimes he had committed in his past life to experience this type of unbelievable bad luck before heading straight into the dorm, Chan immediately pulling him back by his collar.

“Hyunjin, what happened to you today? You were all over the place.”

“Yeah, I know.”

“If you know, then why didn’t you do something about it?”

“Well, damn hyung, I’m sorry I can’t be as perfect as you are, ok? Not all of us have an inherent ability to be so freaking impeccable all the time!”

The air around him stilled, the shocked stares from his members boring into his face as he waited for some sort of reply from the elder. He didn’t ever speak to Chan like that, he never had reason to, that wasn’t who he was but today had been so god damn awful that it caused him to break.

“Ok, Hyunjin, I think you need to go and cool your head. We’ll end the conversation here before one of us says something we might regret.” Chan dropped his bags at the door, flowing silently to his room as the other members dispersed in their respective directions.

Hyunjin was already scolding himself for his harsh words towards his leader but took his advice to calm down and think about what he had said. He was thankful that his room remained empty, his roommates obviously scattering somewhere else so that they didn’t have to be around Hyunjin in his foul mood. Flopping down onto the bed, the boy hung his head in his hands as he thought about how awful it was to take his bad mood out on Chan and the other members. Being so lost in his thoughts, he never heard his bedroom door open until he felt the mattress dip beside him while a warm hand encompassed his.

“Hyunjinnie, everything all right?”

He remembered the last time Seungmin had come to him when he was alone in his room. He couldn’t recall exactly what the cause was but he had been crying. Seungmin had come to him in his time of need and sat with him, clinging to his hand like a lifeline as Hyunjin let the tears fall.

“Seungminnie, you ever have one of those days?”

“One of those days where nothing turns out right? Where you feel like crawling into bed and staying there for a month?”

“Yeah, one of those days.”

A gentle pat on his hand let him know that Seungmin knew exactly what he was talking about and had more than likely experienced them himself. “I know about them all too well.”

“I shouldn’t have snapped at Channie hyung like that.”

“No, you shouldn’t have but I think we were all out of sorts today. Did you hear my voice crack during the recording? It was so obvious too.” Hyunjin hadn’t but that was probably because he had been so immersed in his own problems that he didn’t have time for anyone else’s and that was kind of unfair too.

“Come on, you should go and find Channie hyung. I’m sure he’s not mad but you should probably still apologise to him.” He knew that Seungmin was right, like he usually was but Hyunjin didn’t want to face their leader just yet. He was being a bit of a coward but he was afraid of how their conversation would go. Unwillingly being pulled to his feet by the younger boy, Hyunjin was dragged to the living room, where he was met with a sight that he really didn’t expect.

Fluffy cushions lined the floor as Jisung and Changbin plopped down on top of them, smashing together to keep the bare warmth they had created going. Minho and Woojin emerged from the kitchen with bowls of popcorn, the eldest boy smacking Minho’s hand away when he attempted to start eating without the others. Felix, Jeongin and Chan squished together on the couch, trying to make room for the other members even though it was only a three person seat.

“What’s going on?”

“What does it look like? Movie night. No schedules tomorrow so we were thinking about making this an all-nighter. If you think you can handle that, hyung.” Jeongin wiggled his eyebrows towards Hyunjin as he patted the worn seat on the couch beside him, motioning for the older boy to sit. Up for the challenge, Hyunjin let go of Seungmin’s hand and positioned himself in the much too tight space beside Chan and pulled his legs up to rest his chin upon.

“What are we watching? Horror or comedy?” Woojin waved the remote around in front of them, all trying to grab it before Felix grasped it in his hands like it was the most precious thing in the world.

“I can tell you right now that this house is a horror free zone! I’m not doing that again after what happened the last time! I swear I can still hear the screams.”

“Yeah but Felix, that was you screaming.”

“I know that and that’s why it’s not going to happen again!”

Flicking through the available movies, the boys tried to decide on what the best new release to watch would be.

“Channie hyung?” Hyunjin’s whispers were barely audible over the shouts and complaints coming from the other’s who were far too invested in the television to take notice of the two boys on the couch.

“Hmm?”

“I’m sorry that I yelled at you. I was having a bad day and I took my frustration out on you and that’s not fair, so, I’m sorry.”

Chan’s lips curled upwards, his characteristic dimples making an appearance as he smiled. “I know you were having an off day, Hyunjinnie, I could sense it but you need to come and talk to me about it if you are, ok? I don’t want all your frustration building up until you come to breaking point. Talk to me or any of the others and we’ll do our best to help.”

Hyunjin nodded, a slight grin gracing his lips when he realised that Chan wasn’t too pissed at him. “Yeah, hyung, I’ll tell you the next time but man, the universe seemed to be out to get me today!”

“We all have days like that, Hyunjinnie. You just gotta fight back and give the universe as much trouble as it’s giving you.”

Finally deciding on the movie, the boys eventually quieted down, huddling into each other so that they could share in the measly amount of popcorn that the older boys had prepared. Hyunjin deflated as Chan’s arm was placed around his shoulder, the fondness for his members being conveyed through the warmth he exuded. It had been one hell of a lousy day but Hyunjin thought that when you found the right people to spend it with, the right people to talk about it with, the universe could only do so much before you managed to find your strength and give it back as good as it was giving you. For Hyunjin, it had just been one of those days.

[honeypressed]

It's ok not to be ok. Don't ever forget that. All of those things you're thinking about yourself right now? They're not true. You hear me? You need to step away and realise that. Just breathe. It seems like such a silly thing to say but it's something that helps. Just remember that there are people here that are rooting for you, that care about you and that will do absolutely anything for you if you need help. It happens to all of us but you've come so far. Take everything step by step. ❤

*crying* thank youu uwu im a lot better rn!!! i’ll take it at my pace and i’ll do what’s best for me!!! this means so much to me really uwu <3

[stray-anpanman]

I was tagged by the lovely @squirrel-eliza thank you so much! 

Rules: bold the statements that are true and tag 15 blogs!!

Appearance

I’m over 5'5 / I wear glasses/contacts / I have blonde hair / I wear sweatshirts a lot / I prefer lose clothing to tight clothing / I have one or more piercings /I have at least one tattoo / I have blue eyes / I have dyed or highlighted my hair / I have gotten plastic surgery / I have or had braces / I sunburn easily / I have freckles / I paint my nails / I typically wear makeup / I don’t often smile / I am pleased with how I look / I prefer Nike to Adidas / I wear baseball hats backwards

Hobbies and talents

I play a sport / I can play an instrument / I am artistic / I know more than one language / I have won a trophy in some sort of competition / I can cook or bake without a recipe / I know how to swim / I enjoy writing / I can do origami / I prefer movies to TV shows / I can execute a perfect somersault / I enjoy singing / I could survive in the wild on my own / I have read a new book series this year / I enjoy spending time with friends / I travel during school or work breaks / I can do a handstand

Experiences

I have had my first kiss / I have gotten drunk / I have told a crush I like them/ I have traveled outside of the country / I have flown on an airplane / I have stayed awake for more than 48 hours / I have had a near-death experience / I have caught something on fire / I have performed in a talent show / I have shot a gun / I have been on TV / I have gone scuba diving / I have broken a bone / I have slow-danced / I have gone on a shopping spree

Relationships

I am in a relationship / I have been single for over a year / I have a crush / I have a best friend I have known for over ten years / my parents are together / I have dated my best friend / I am adopted / my crush has confessed to me / I have had a long-distance relationship / I am an only child / I give advice to my friends / I have made an online friend / I met up with someone I have met online

Aesthetics

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell / I have watched the sun rise / I enjoy rainy days / I have slept under the stars / I meditate outside / the sound of chirping calms me / I enjoy the smell of the beach / I know what snow tastes like / I listen to music to fall asleep / I enjoy thunderstorms / I enjoy cloud watching / I have attended a bonfire / I pay close attention to colors / I find mystery in the ocean / I enjoy hiking on nature paths / Autumn is my favorite season

Miscellaneous

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle / I am the mum friend / I live by a certain quote / I like the smell of Sharpies / I am involved in extracurricular activities/ I enjoy Mexican food / I can drive stick-shift / I have memorised an entire song in a day / I believe in true love / I dream up scenarios to fall asleep / I sing in the shower / I wish I lived in a video game / I have a canopy above my bed / I am multi-racial / I am a redhead / I own at least three dogs / I am LGBTQ+

I’m tagging these cuties @stay-grandma @channieroo @stay-serenity @sp3arb @dayrachas @honeyboylixxie you know if any of you want to! Don’t feel like you have to and if I’m tagging any of you in too many things, please let me know! Thank you for the tag! 

[stray-anpanman]

Rules: 10 pictures that describe your personality from your camera roll (don’t go finding new ones)

I was tagged by @stray-kids-dork thank you! I’ve never done this before, it seems like fun!

I tag @stay-grandma @stay-serenity @channieroo @sp3arb @dayrachas if any of you want to do it! Maybe some of you already have, I have a memory like a goldfish. No pressure! Thank you for the tag dear! 🤗

[honeypressed]

I feel like it's been 10'000 years since I sent you something! I'm sorry, I suck. How have you been, my dear? I hope you're doing well and that you're having a good day! 💗💕💓💞💖💗💕💞

MOM I MISSED YOU T.T ive been busy with uni application hdngsdg and my results for my first year of college comes out on the 15th so we’re going stressed hours then but other than that im doing great!!!! how are you!!!!! i miss you lots and HERE’S A HUG FOR YOU UWU

[honeypressed]

Happiest of birthdays to one of the loveliest souls on the planet. 17 already but still a baby in my eyes! I hope you have a fantastic day, my dear because you deserve absolutely nothing less! I'm not going to go down the sentimental route, it's not late enough for that but I love you lots, you magnificent cutie and again, happy birthday! 💖🧡💗💛💞💕💚💖💙💗💜💞💗🤗

sajadsfn i’ll always be a baby in your eyes wont ^.^ thank you so much!!! YOU CAN ALWAYS GO DOWN THE SENTIMENTAL ROUTE IM HERE FOR A GOOD CRY I LOVE YOU LOTS TOO UWUWUW THANK YOU AHHHHHHHH

[honeypressed]

I feel like I haven't spoken with you in so long? Just wanted to pop in and see how you were doing. Hope everything is going well for you! (Also, Double Mint Mocha was so adorably cute. I squealed too many times!) 🤗💚💚💚

hi!!!!!!! im doing my finals next week so thats why ive been on an off T.T and i hope youre having a good day!!!!!! UWU thank you so much!!! i had fun writing it i love you!!!!!!!