summary: After working along with the team in Squid Game Season 2 and getting to know Seung-hyun, you were selected to work on him again for his new music video, Studio54, as well as Ji-nah. You’ve been friends with her since ages - you both attended the same high school, until she joined the band, After School. Seung-hyun was the easiest and sweetest man to get along with on set. Having the opportunity to work with two of your good friends in one video was like a dream come true - until it wasn't.
pairing: Choi Seung-hyun/T.O.P x Fem!Reader
contains: swearing, angst to comfort, alcohol NSFW MDNI 18+ explicit sex scenes, p in v, oral (m and f receiving), light (??) bondage, somewhat dark, idk i let you decide the last two
a/n: NSFW MDNI 18+ apologies for not posting lately, life's been, well... life. but now between Desperado, dark romance books, being underslept and Studio54, this fic was born ✨️TADAAH!✨️ and I wanted to share it. hope you all like it! original work - theft won't be tolerated. NANA will be referred to by her real name, Ji-nah throughout the fic.
w/c: 2.9k
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One evening, Seung-hyun drops by for a movie night.
“Seung-hyun! Put Flopsy down and come to the kitchen!” -you peek in your living room and scold him. He was petting your 5 lbs furbaby, a bunny - a grey lionhead - on the couch. Sometimes you felt like the third wheel in your own home, because your bunny stole everyone’s heart in an instant. You were convinced you had friends visiting because of Flopsy and not the other way around. But seeing Seung-hyun with a pet only deepened your affection for him - and seeing your rabbit, a prey animal, trust him so much to give him kisses, was pure sweetness.
“I can’t get enough of this little guy!” -he scratches your bunny’s forehead, making him close his eyes. “I think he’s asleep.” -he whispers. “I can’t move now, Moon Girl.”
He nicknamed you Moon Girl. It didn’t take long for you two to hit it off, while filming for Squid Game. Once he found out you were obsessed with space stuff, the nickname was inevitable. You didn’t go on any dates, but the chemistry was undoubtedly there. The two of you could talk all day long. Art? Chairs? Even discussing well or badly turned out dates. Never a dull moment. Anything could have happened, right? You even went to galleries and wineries just the two of you. But he never asked you out and you were too chicken to do so - and now you were stuck in the friend zone for over 2 years.
“He always sleeps.” -you pick him off Seung-hyun and put your rabbit in his pen. He gets comfortable and continues to lounge. “See?”
“Okay.” -he nods and follows you to the kitchen.
You made dinner for the movie. The two of you grab a plateful each, open a bottle of wine and sit on your couch. The conversation is flowing, as always, you’re laughing together, but Seung-hyun is more relaxed. He’s more touchy - nothing inappropriate but more affectionate than usual. While eating and chatting, you hear your doorbell. You weren’t expecting anyone, but opened the door.
“Ji-nah!” -you hug her in the door before letting her in.
“Am I late?” -she asks.
“No, we just started the movie. I thought you couldn't make it.”
“Yeah, that’s what it looked like in the afternoon but you know this industry cannot be trusted.” -she sighs. “Anyway, how’s my little man doing?” -she was referring to Flopsy.
“He’s living his best life, slouching.”
“Are you two talking about me or the rabbit?!” -Seung-hyun inserts himself in the conversation. He was getting tipsy and carefree.
“Since when are you my little man, Seung-hyun?!” -Ji-nah laughs.
Weird. -you frown. As much as you loved tipsy Seung-hyun, you didn’t sign up for him hitting on your best friend under your roof.
“I’ll get you a plate. You just sit down.” -you nod at your friend as she makes her way to sit next to Seung-hyun. They chat and laugh - and it makes you uneasy!
Ji-nah wouldn’t be the first girl Seung-hyun would flirt with in front of you. In fact, you set him up with some of your friends. He was a nice man and he deserved the world. But tonight felt completely different. You wanted to be the world. His world. And it was killing you that Ji-nah was winning him over so effortlessly.
When you walk back in, you clearly disrupted something. You can see their awkward smiles and blushed cheeks. They are hiding it but you know: they either kissed or they were about to! It aches your heart. You do your best not to bite your lower lip, trying to keep cool.
“Food’s here, Ji-nah.” -you say with a dry throat.
“Thanks.” -she takes the plate from you.
“You want a glass, too?”
“No, it’s fine.”
You sit back to your original spot, on the other side of Seung-hyun.
The energy shifts completely. You are no longer part of the conversation - hell you’re not even part of the room anymore! You are officially a third wheel, as Ji-nah and Seung-hyun start talking about Studio54.
Seung-hyun is the first to say goodbye - he gives you and Ji-nah a kiss on the cheek and pets Flopsy before leaving.
“He’s something.” -Ji-nah chuckles as she helps you with the dishes.
“Huh?” -you grimace.
“Seung-hyun! How did you not ask him out before?”
“Ji-nah, c’mon!” -you scoff. “I’m just not interested in him like that.” -you shrug, trying to convince yourself more than her. This was your chance to speak up and you blew it!
“Alright, I guess if that’s ok with you. I’ll ask him out then.”
“Puh-lease! Why would it not be okay with me? Duh!” -you shrug, as your voice goes an octave higher. Her words taste like venom. You want to kick and scream as the realization hits you. She’ll go for him. And working with them suddenly feels like a chore.
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Within days you’re shooting the music video for Studio54. The visuals are insane - every bit of frame is up for interpretation, full of symbolism. Seung-hyun is great - his raps, his looks, his whole aura. He’s bold and he owns it. You weren’t involved in shooting Desperado, but the results had you bite your lips and wished you were that chair! Ji-nah is also flawless - her long legs are captured from every angle.
The wigs are fun. The duct tape scene is insanely spicy - how you wished you were the one in that chair getting blindfolded like that. The eyeballs are totally freaky. Nothing less you’d expect from this talented team and of course, Seung-hyun himself.
Your friends are professionals, not a slight trace of awkwardness - you wonder if they have slept together. Compared to how they acted on your couch, that is the only logical explanation you can come up with. On the other hand, you’re visibly burning with jealousy from the inside. There’s not much physicality in the video, but your mind is playing tricks on you… and then the promo shots are being taken! That’s too much for your heart. You want to be Ji-nah so badly. You want to be looked at with his hungry eyes, to be touched by his soft, slender fingers. But you aren’t.
You mess up the film, you walk into the camera and spill coffee on one of the assistants. It’s so embarrassing, you bow out without saying goodbye to either Seung-hyun or Ji-nah.
You know you need to speak to him… and you need to do it soon.
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The next day, with screeching tyres, your car comes to a halt at Seung-hyun’s.
Without delay, you bang on his door - loud and clear. You came with a purpose. He opens it quickly. He’s dressed comfortably - grey sweatpants and a matching hoodie.
“Hey, Moon Girl!” -he smiles. “Come in!” -he steps aside and lets you in. “Is everything ok?” -he can see immediately something is bothering you. You haven’t slept much last night. Your heart is thumping in your chest so loud you can barely hear him or your own thoughts. “(Y/n)?” -he asks again and softly places a hand on your arm.
“Don’t see Ji-nah any more!” -you shout, tears forming in the corners of your eyes.
“What?”
“I know you two are dating. It’s clear as day!” -you blab without rhyme or rhythm. But you’re consumed, you need to get it off your chest. “And I don’t want you to!”
“Wait. Again… what are you talking about?!” -Seung-hyun is completely lost, his eyes as wide as saucers. He has no idea what you’re on about.
“Don’t give me that crap!” -you snap. “You two made out on my couch, then she asked you out and now you’re dating her!”
Seung-hyun lets out a deep, rich laughter. It takes you by surprise. Why is he laughing?
“What?” -you sniff.
“Why don’t you want me to see your friend? What’s wrong with her?!”
“Nothing is wrong with her, ok?! Shit…” -you curse under your breath, wiping your nose. There was one promise you made yourself: you won’t cry about Seung-hyun in front of Seung-hyun. Well, that was not the case. “She’s perfect… God, it’s killing me that she’s perfect with her thin, long legs! And I’m not!” -your hand finds the door handle behind you. You’re ready to leave, but Seung-hyun slams the door, trapping you against it with his body. “Let me go, dammit.” -you hiss, not even looking at him.
“I’m not letting you drive in this state.” -he cups your chin. “Look at me, Moon Girl.” -he whispers.
“Don’t call me that.” -you sigh, all flustered, with teary eyes, but you do as you’re told. Your eyes meet his and your heart is now beating so hard against your chest you think it will rip out of your body.
“Do you like me?” -he asks in a hush, husky tone. Your knees tremble at his deep baritone and you look away.
“It doesn’t matter, Seung-hyun...” -you mutter.
“Yes or no?!” -he demands, growing inpatient.
“Yes! Ok?” -you shout. It can’t get any worse now, he’s already seen you cry and he knows. Might as well just be upfront with him. “But you’re dating my friend now, so it doesn’t matter anymore.”
The next moment doesn’t register immediately. The world stops spinning as his hands grab your wrist, pinning them above your head against the door. Your eyes flutter shut as his lips hungrily crash into yours with unmatched urgency and need. Immediately, you kiss back, wondering whether this is wishful thinking or reality. His lips leave yours, aiming for your neck. The kisses are bruising and seductive - he finds your sweet spot in no time and you can feel both yours and his arousal growing. It’s real and raw.
“Se-... Seung-hyun…stop…” -you muster the words breathlessly. You can’t think straight. He looks at you. He lets your wrist go and places his hands on your hips, keeping you grounded. Your hands quickly sneak around his neck. “Wha-what are we doing? What about Ji-nah?”
“What about her?”
“You two are…”
“Nothing happened between us, I swear.” -Seung-hyun admits. “She never asked me out or anything.”
“But on my couch…”
“I was in such high spirits, I would have hit on Flopsy at that point!”
You chuckle at his remark but remind him, arms folded in front of you.
“Everything but me, huh?”
“(Y/n)...” -he sighs and places a hand on your face. His dark, boba-like eyes are full of a decade of pain. “You have no idea how scared I was to ask you out.” -you get lost in his gaze. “If I blew this… us… if you said no… what’s then? I lose a great friend?”
You’re dazed - so you let your actions speak for themselves. You jump on Seung-hyun, kissing his lips, throwing your arms around his neck, and locking your legs around his torso. He loses balance but only for a split second. He kisses you back with the same urgency, holding you tightly and walks with you to his bedroom.
“We have so much catching up to do!” -you break the kiss, when your back hits his bed.
Seung-hyun smiles at your statement - he agrees. He kneels over you and throws his hoodie and shirt on the floor. You sit up to admire his body - you let your hands explore his slim build. His heart beats like a drum under your palm. His abs contract as your fingers continue to gently trail down, all the way to the edge of his sweatpants - which has turned into a tent by now! You bite your lower lip as you hook a finger in. Your head is buzzing with anticipation. He stops you by pulling your shirt over your head. It’s his turn to admire you. You wish you picked a lace bra, something sexy, but no, you were in a simple, white T-shirt bra. It doesn’t really bother Seung-hyun, as he proceeds to discard that piece over his shoulder as well. His mouth meets your collarbone, his teeth tenderly caressing your hot skin as your moan escapes. You feel your pussy throb and you squeeze your thighs together. Seung-hyun notices. With a low chuckle, he unbuttons your jeans and slips his hand in, past your panties.
“God!” -you throw your head back, feeling his fingers on your pulsing clit. Your hip bucks involuntarily in his touch. He envelopes his tongue over a nipple, sucking on it, while his hand continues to rub your clit - his middle fingers teasing your soaked entrance. You don’t need a hot minute to come undone with a loud and satisfied moan. You pull him in for a searing kiss, raking his messy locks and topple him. He gets comfortable on his bed as he looks at you, ripping the remainder of his clothes off. His cock, thick and hard, makes your mouth water. You lick his shaft from the very base to the tip - agonizingly slow.
“Shit, don’t tease me like that!” -he pants, grabbing a fistful of your hair. “Can you take it?” -he asks. You nod at him in agreement - his tip covered by your lips. He shoves his cock down your throat, forcing you to gag. But oh! it feels so good! You can taste his precum on the back of your throat. You whimper, feeling the tears forming in your eyes - you love it. His rough demeanor sends tingles down your spine. “Come here!” -he pulls you up into a bruising kiss. You can hardly breathe, but kiss back full of passion. He pushes you on your back and reaches for his night stand. A duct tape, similar from from the shooting, appears from a draw.
“Hands together.” -he orders. You do as you’re told, cheeks turning the darkest shade of red. “Don’t act all innocent now. I’ve seen your Kindle library.” -he tears the tape with his teeth. So hot! He tapes your hands together and to the bedframe. “I saw the way you were chewing your lips during that scene.” -your eyes grow wide. He was watching me? “Let me make those fantasies come true, (y/n).” -he leans closer, his husky words slither in your ear. “Let me break you.” -before you could answer, he puts another piece of tape over your mouth. You can’t do anything but enjoy with burning desire what’s about to come. He throws your jeans and panties on top of the ever-growing pile.
Seung-hyun lowers himself to eat you out. His mouth laps on your pussy like a hungry dog, starving to make you orgasm. Your toes curl as his tongue flicks your clit. Seeing your eyes shut, he sucks on the sensitive bud, sending another wave of shock through your body. Your muffled cries are music to his ears. In your bound state all you can do is keep his head between your thighs until your climax. You hear - and feel - his content hum over your clit. He understands you without words. He rams in two digits without warning in your sopping wet core - earning another muffled moan from you. He’s in knuckle deep, angling his fingertips to get you closer to the edge, pumping you at a steady pace. Your hands turn into a fist, your nails leaving crescent moon marks in your palm, as you feel the coil snap in you. Seung-hyun lets you ride out the last of your waves against his face.
As your thighs lessen their grip, he hovers over you. He takes off the duct tape with one move. Before you could be vocal about how much that hurt, he kisses you, molding into your mouth. You can taste your slick on his tongue.
“You’re insane.” -you smile at him with half-lidded eyes.
“And you like me.” -he adds. You really do. He rests your legs on his shoulders and lines himself at your entrance - at last! You whimper as he feeds his size to your pussy, bottoming out. “You’re so tight…” -he pants, feeling his entire being catching on fire at the sensation. If possible, he’s grown even harder and longer inside you. Your breaths are shallow as you adjust to his size. When he catches your face softening, he moves. He’s rocking his hips into yours, as much as you can take it. Your hunger grows with his every move - each feels deeper than the one before. Skin slapping against skin echoes off the walls. Seung-hyun closes the gap between you and kisses you again. With your feet still resting on his shoulder, this new found angle spurs you on.
“Oh, fuck… harder!” -you beg. “Har-... Fuck me harder!”
“As you wish.” -he grabs your hip and pounds into your wet cunt without any mercy. He’s chasing his own high as well as yours. “Who’s fucking you right?” -he rasps.
“Ah… you!”
“Say my name! Say it!”
“Seung-hyun! Shit, I’m coming!”
Your face contorts. In the sweet harmony of pleasure and pain, another euphoric orgasm rips through your lungs. Every fibre in your body tightens, your inner walls convulse around his cock. Seung-hyun doesn’t need another minute. His thrusts become sloppier, as he groans and croaks erupting his cum in you.
Your cheeks and shoulders peppered with soft kisses as Seung-hyun slowly climbs off you. You lock eyes taking in each other’s sweaty, disheveled looks. You’re completely spent.
“Can’t wait to make up for the wasted months.” -he says, getting comfortable under the covers, making sure you’re covered up nicely, too.
“Yeah? Can you start by cutting me loose?”
“Sorry!” -he chuckles and frees you of the duct tape. You snuggle up to his chest, as he kisses the top of your head. “You wanna take a nap like this, Moon Girl?”
“Sure.” -you smile, shuffling even closer to him. “Seung-hyun?”
“Hm?”
“Always call me Moon Girl.”
“As long as you’re mine, you’re always gonna be Moon Girl, (y/n). My Moon Girl.”
Disclaimer: None of us truly know Seunghyun’s vision or meaning behind Studio54 until it comes straight from his mouth. So please, take this all with a grain of salt, these are just my thoughts (and they could be trash lol) after viewing the MV more than I would like to admit.
In the beginning of the video, I believe Nana and TOP to be the same person-but different versions in time.
Nana represents TOP of the past…carefree, living their best life…
Until she is offered a new way of life-a new way of seeing (hence the eyes in the glass). The masked figure then takes her sight essentially representing “You will see what I tell you to see, you will do what I tell you to do…” etc.
In the meantime, TOP in his nice suit seems to be sitting in his booth, waiting, and watching his old life play out through her. Watching her become “new and improved/I do what I’m told” idol (signaling the new hair and the outfit-featuring the eye).
The part where they both look at each other and Nana begins to rap they are again the same person, in the same moment in time, but TOP seems to have doubt creeping in, perhaps recognizing the intense pressure or how things aren’t turning out how he initially thought they would. (I think back to how he started acting and getting the impression that YG wasn’t a fan of his choice. I think back to how he never got a chance to release a solo album when everyone else did and I recall an interview where TOP mentions being told his music wouldn’t be perceived well bc of xyz…)
At this point, Nana is at the mercy and control of the masked man and therefore kills that doubt by shooting that version of TOP, burying it.
Nana then goes on to continue living the idol life despite the pressures, doing her best. The masked man enjoying his puppet until he decides he’s done with her and then eliminates her too. I correlate this section to him leaving for the military and then the “scandal” which led to him essentially being abandoned in a time he needed people most.
When her body falls, it is no longer her but TOP that rises from the ashes (like a phoenix) with a new “eye” and outlook on life.
Then we transition to the ADHD portion of the video where I think this is New TOP showing old TOP (Nana) how life can be when you ditch the masked man, which in my opinion, is YG and the Idol world in general. After this portion of the video they become more intertwined which leads to them back at the beginning, eating the eyes in the glass instead of using them to see, thus ending the control they were once under.
TOP then takes charge, giving the Masked man a taste of his own medicine (as seen in that incredibly sexy Reservoir Dogs inspired clip) and preventing him from “seeing” or “hearing.” It’s only then that TOP and Nana finally move as one (if you recall the beginning of ADHD they were dancing very much out of sync before new TOP “showed her the way”), giving off a positive, optimistic vibe for the future.
Then, at the end we see the version of TOP that was shot (very Bae Bae-esque might I add) looking back at the masked man who is peering in a (small filthy???) show window watching everything he once controlled now fall just out of reach. This version of TOP is the one that made it through the ups and downs and came out on the other side with the understanding there is no turning back. He is the master of his own destiny and therefore he must end the connection to the Masked man (YG/BB/Idol world) for good.
All in all, I believe this MV to be about the journey Seunghyun has been on the last 10 years. He walked away from it all (and had a lot taken from him too) to heal, grow, and take care of himself as a human being FIRST. Not as an Idol, or BigBang Member, or Actor. Only then could he return to his fans, whole.
Truthfully, I don’t have a lot of hope that Seunghyun will ever return to BigBang. In my honest opinion, he doesn’t need to. He is going to be just fine on his own and his mental health and happiness is worth more to me as a fan than hearing him drop a few bars in Bang Bang Bang or Haru Haru. BUT I don’t think a ‘featuring’ moment (ex: BigBang featuring TOP or G Dragon featuring TOP) is out of the question. That could come in time…
Regardless, I am just happy the king has returned. Being able to hear his voice for 40 minutes straight on an album has been the light so many of us have needed in this dark dingy world we live in. I am excited to see what else he has in store for us 💜
Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments/message me. I have really enjoyed hearing other’s opinions and breakdowns of this masterpiece.
Photo/GIF Credits: @wcnderlnds, @master-tonberry, @jiyongifs, here, and here, Studio54 MV
