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[beccasissy69]

Day 1

**Edit** Goddess told me that I had to start each write up with a (relevant) photo and I think this one is obvious! I love her shoes and her boobs, so jealous!

I made it and Goddess didn’t change her mind! This month is housewife month. When Goddess first told me a few days ago I was so, so excited and then when she added...unless she changes her mind, I was a little terrified.

Out of all the inspirational people Goddess has shared, the one that stuck with me and has had the biggest impact was a hotwife (in both senses of the word), which Goddess teases me about, but just the idea of been a housewife, stuck at home all day and waiting makes me so hot that sometimes I can barely see straight. What’s weird is that I’m not sure if this originally came from me or it’s something Goddess did but ultimately it doesn’t matter.

When I came home, I saw that Goddess had messaged me and that housewife month was a go. I didn’t want to spoil anything until I was ready, so I waited until I’d finished my chores and then read through my training. Just reading it made me wet and I was so eager to begin.

First up, I was considerably more femme then I have been recently. I was in stockings, a dress and heels, alongside my boobs and wig, so I was also much more dressed up then I usually am for training.

Goddess had me watching videos of women humping things (sissies humping pillows was also acceptable) and I was to copy. It had a really dangerous side to it as I was allowed to do it uncaged. I decided I would do it that way and I can’t remember when I was last even close to being this “erect”. Part way through the first video, I already had a pretty large wet patch and I very nearly came when the women did, just from going along with and copying her.

Goddess wanted me to go a full hour but I had to pause about halfway through, I was too close and I knew that it wouldn’t take much more. I felt such a strong sense of need to be her (and when she pulled her top up to play with them, I was so jealous of her boobs).

When I’d finished my panties and dress (I used panties to keep things a little more in place) had large wet patches and as Goddess reminded me, it’s only the first day.  

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An unexpected climax

Today marks the end of lesbian/submission month. It’s been challenging and different because Goddess has become a little more overtly dominant, so quite a few days have had no stimulation (or she forgot to mention it 😂😂😂) and I’ve also been forbidden from dressing for the just over a week, which is quite a big change. Apart from my training, my workout clothes are all female and even things like my jeans are off limits, no corset, no boobs, no heels and no makeup.

Today, Goddess had me watching lesbian gangbang videos. I was to use as many dildos as I wanted to, I was to stroke myself like a man and ruin an orgasm.

I wasn’t exactly eager to do this, Goddess teased me about how wrong it sounded and she was correct. The first time I read my instructions I thought it was optional, but on my reread it clearly wasn’t so I couldn’t avoid it.

Goddess also sent me a real headf*ck of a paragraph that I read a few times and I’m still not quite sure I understand it, but it made me horny and confused and a little dizzy and by the time i was going to get started, I’d already leaked quite a lot.

I couldn’t stroke for long and I didn’t want it to end too soon, so I stroked and then when it was getting too much, just focused solely on my dildos. I used all 5 of them (I have another, but it’s too soft for f*cking myself with) and worked my way up from my thin glass one to my horse c*ck.

After nearly 45 minutes I knew I was ready and I pulled the trigger. Weirdly, I didn’t squirt very much (I assume because I was impaled on my horse c*ck and it stopped it coming out) but it was one hell of a ruined orgasm. I’ve had 4 releases this year so it felt good even though it was frustrating.

As I progressed I was acting male, as per Goddess’s instructions, and that’s just what it felt like, an act. I can do it (well kind of and not particularly convincingly), but it’s not me. 

[beccasissy69]

Friday fun

Today Goddess had me watching Gloryhole videos. They could be sissy, gay or ones where a guy is “tricked” into sucking.

I was following along on one of my dildos (with a special twist that I won’t share here 😉), I tried to find a few tick videos to begin with, but nothing appealing turned up, so I started on sissy ones and I just went absolutely crazy.

I’m not sure what triggered it, the videos were good but my response was out of proportion to them! I was all over my dildo and little drops kept dripping out of my cage onto the mat I was using to kneel on.

One video in particular really hit me, it was shot in night vision and the sissy just had c*ck after c*ck after c*ck. The thought of anonymous c*ck like that just seemed like the hottest thing ever and I realized that the choking I thought was on the video was actually coming from me!

I switched to gay videos after a while and although I preferred the extra frisson of the sissy ones, I was still really turned on by them.

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Take a seat

So there was a video much earlier in my training that really hit home. The hotwife got f*cked by a guy with a HUGE c*ck (you can probably see why I like it 😂😂😂). When he’d finished and left, her husband came in, bent her legs back over her head and slowly f*cked her while he rested almost all of his weight on her.

Something about the thought of the contact and the weight just had me drooling and it’s stayed with me ever since. Tonight’s training touched exactly the same part of me again! 

Goddess had me watching face-sitting videos, which marry weight and contact with a dominating and demeaning aspect because I’m reduced to just a piece of furniture. Knowing that I wouldn’t be able to move them (and I wouldn’t want to anyway) was extra demeaning, and such a turn on.

Some of them were openly dominant and some it was only implicit but damn!

The second part was ball licking, it’s understandable that balls can get missed seeing as how you have the main event right there but there’s no reward without them so they deserve their due!

These videos were lighter than the face-sitting, but the last one I watched had a super-dominant twist where he wouldn’t let the b*tch underneath him lift his head off the bed to lick his balls, he had to hold his tongue out and wait to see if they’d be lowered to him. The teasing was wonderful and it had a great ending!

My cage was tight for my entire session!

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Simulating

Today Goddess had me simulating a gangbang and I was allowed only minimal femininity (pretty much just my boobs). It was to happen in my bathroom and I set up my toys at a few different stations so I could move around a little and change activities.

Once I was ready, I sent Goddess some pictures and then started to find suitable videos to play as motivation and background sound. I learnt from last time and chose videos that were less orgies and more an individual getting taken apart by a large group of (large) guys. 

The first video was perfect, set in a prison and 5 guys forcing themselves on a much smaller one. I got to work (and had to make some minor alterations so I could continue as planned) and I was enjoying it (they slapped him about a little which made me quite hot under the collar) and then two of them dp’ed him. Taking it as a sign, I picked up my glass dildo and worked it in to my p*ssy around my BBC. 

It was a little tricky but once the head had made it, the rest just slid in and I spent a few minutes getting dp’ed while I was working a dildo with my mouth.

I rejigged the second station slightly and when I stuck the dildo to the wall, I had the strongest premonition that it was a real d*ck and squirting at me, I was briefly startled but then bore down on it and was in a classic all four pose filled at both ends.

Finally I went to station 3, which was me on my back with a vibrator penetrating me and a dildo gag on. I did this in my bath and stuck my dildos on the wall so I could imagine the other guys were stood over me jerking off and everyone (except me of course 🤣🤣🤣) would shoot at the same time.

Considering that gay doesn’t really “do” it for me, I sure have been leaking a lot this month and tonight was no exception! 

[beccasissy69]

This month is...

well, those of you who picked “submission” from the pool, congratulations! Goddess is going to push my feminine, submissive side and I’m (somewhat nervously) really looking forward to it. Following last month’s amazingness, she could have said I’m working on my shot put technique and I wouldn’t give it a second thought.

Goddess titillated me a little, I think this month is going to go to some slightly scary places but all I have to do is obey!

Today was all about lesbian armpit licking. Not something I’ve spent any real time with to date or ever thought was something ultra hot, but mine is not to question why.

I started to try to get “hard” inside my cage just looking at the video titles, at this point Goddess could probably tell me I’m looking at almost anything and I’d get turned on and I’m at the start of a new month full of the unknown.

The videos were hot, I always love the sheer desire in lesbian porn and I was thinking a little about submission and what it would actually be like to be a small, submissive lesbian directed to my partners armpits. The casual touching and stroking, some kisses and then the licking starts. 

It made me think of last month’s Literotica author, who wrote a lot about extreme submission. Certain steps and actions would change things in how they see you, even if it’s only subtle.

My arousal cycled quite a few times and I enjoyed the videos a lot. It was a nice, left field start to the month!

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At the pool

I’ll write up my weekend task in a day or two, I was a little under the weather and Goddess gave me something new to watch, and I was glad that I wasn’t doing anything more strenuous.

Tonight, Goddess had me run a very hot bath. When it was ready (bubbles too of course!) I was to get in and watch jacuzzi/pool BJs and sex scenes. I had a toy and was to start sucking and then move to penetration after I’d warmed up.

I got in the bath and started watching twinks sucking each other off, it was fun and pretty relaxing. The bath was really hot and it took a few minutes to adjust. I switched videos to ones with f*cking and when they started, I shifted to try and get my toy in and it just wouldn’t go.

I started squirming and shifting and trying to get it in, but every time I thought I had it lined up just right, it would slip away or bend and I started to get a little frantic to get it in and not miss too much of the action.

Finally it slid in and I relaxed and started to enjoy it. The sensation was different but the heat and the motion was great, I think using a different (thinner) toy would have been easier and turned me on more but I was pretty horny anyway!

I spent almost an hour and even though I got out of the bath and dried off, I’m still leaking pretty heavily. 🤣🤣🤣

[beccasissy69]

Turning Japanese

Today Goddess had me watching Japanese feminization videos and, to get it out of the way, they were amazing! The first one started in the middle of things and I thought the sissy was a women until he took his top off (the rest usually started showing the transformation), but to a girl, they were always stunning.

It went beyond the purely physical, they reacted as a woman to whatever happened to them.

As the videos were Japanese, the primary genitals were censored (although you could still see see what state they were in and a lot of the girls remained limp when they were f*cked which is something I love!) but this helped my attention be drawn to other parts of their body. As Goddess said, at some point it will all just become one confused, arousing mess.