Memory.
I’ve never had the best memory. When i was taking drivers Ed in my high school. A class mate asked me her name every day for a month. I remembered it by the last day (class was a month long)
Come to find out i have something called trauma block. It started when i was a boy and my mother sent me away….
Those years ago when I had a slight memory fart where i did not remember a lot of new faces…. Well i went though some intense trauma’s that will be shared
My memory has since recovered but not fully because those memories were not revisited, between the 3 years of no consecutive nights of sleep copious amounts of coca cola and alcohol and having a memory assistant (best friend) that would always remember for mw who was who. I think the traumas shocked me into forgetting certain periods of time.
Does not mean that if you try to spark my memory i wont remember your. Fact i wish we would have done that. But yes it is awkward seeing someone or feeling that someone you know is close and looking over and not knowing if its someone i know. So you wait for them to at least look over and say something to verify but they pretend they don’t see ya because they think you are avoiding them…. Tragically they assume i’m a dick and i assume it is not the person i thought. Cause i had shared the memory thing but not as in a you don’t matter but as in a if you see me and i don’t recognize you then just fucking jog my memory. I would of if i needed to help a friend….
Ill cover why idid not rely on my empathic intuition in another section. With out explaining a lot i was emotionally abused and gaslit into not trusting my intuition by an Ex.
