#switching schools

[lettherebechaos]

screaming crying throwing up I played for the high school graduation and I just realized that that was the last time I’ll ever play for that band :(

[godofavengers]

You know theres a part of me that gets pissed at myself for trying so hard. But there's also a part of me that calls my "BEST" friend on MY birthday, and makes stupid jokes about her "forgetting about me."

[lottiesfilms]

and i don’t want to get this one place, this one uni stuck in my head as my final destination. it’s the journey, right not the destination? 

and if i fail, the journey would have been a waste of time and if i succeed the journey would have been a voyage worth taking. i need to remember that there are multiple destinations, and anyone of them could be right for me. let’s say-realistically-that i won’t end up where i want to be and i get somewhere else, like here or interstate. it could still be a perfect fit, and, in hindsight, it could have been the right decision all along. 

but i should try. at least try. i’ll hate myself for not trying. 

[lottiesfilms]

i’m scared to switch. i don’t know why-it’s a perfect opportunity and the time is right and the subjects are great and the school is cute but there’s something stopping me.. this wall, where i physically cannot face the thought of leaving the school i’m at now. as much as i want out, to leave, i am too scared to start somewhere new. to start all over again in a new environment where i know no one and people are open to make all kinds of new judgements and things about me. maybe it’s that. maybe it’s the thought of leaving the comfort of my school now: i know the faces and the place.

and it’s the other thing--i’m scared to work, i don’t know if i’m ready to work hard and do my best and i’m scared that i’ll fail. that i’ll regret. GOD i’m so scared and i know i should do it and it’s the right thing and the perfect opportunity but i’m scared i won’t achieve my dreams and they’ll just be dreams. and i’ll be stuck at an irrelevant university in a course i hate. i’m afraid to take the leap. i’m not at leap-taking time of person. but just this once, i need to do it. 

for me. 

because dreams don’t work unless you do. 

[sunntownn]

i moved at the end of may and im switching to a new school and new district this year,, just got through orientation and this is the most confusing school i have ever attended,, its literally a maze,, i felt lost during the tour,, the itself is an american propoganda prison 💀💀,, there are george washing portraits painted on the walls and framed in every hallway,, the school colors are red white and blue,, there are ballons everywhere,, the mascot is a partiot,, and they have a painting if the republican elephant on the wall 💀,,not to mention the strict dress code for girls,, im not allowed to wear low cut collered t shirts 💀,, or shorts that show thighs

i start in two days send help💀🙏

[sunntownn]

i moved at the end of may and im switching to a new school and new district this year,, just got through orientation and this is the most confusing school i have ever attended,, its literally a maze,, i felt lost during the tour,, the itself is an american propoganda prison 💀💀,, there are george washing portraits painted on the walls and framed in every hallway,, the school colors are red white and blue,, there are ballons everywhere,, the mascot is a partiot,, and they have a painting if the republican elephant on the wall 💀,,not to mention the strict dress code for girls,, im not allowed to wear low cut collered t shirts 💀,, or shorts that show thighs

i start in two days send help💀🙏

[dorkylittleweirdo]

yo so if anyone ever wants to know what public, charter, and private schools are like, hmu bc i’ve been to all three in my time in high school and i have hella stories lmao

[sirenynx]

yes

I might switch schools boiii yaaaass