#talky post

[just1cy]

Is 2001 your birth year, or the year you started drawing

If it's the year you started drawing then I'd love to see your work from back then

Haha! No 2001 was the year I was born! I’ve been taking art more seriously since 2017! If you want an idea of what *that* looks like… well here’s a funny side by side!

(Sorry Amy!)

[cedarhound]

my beautiful creatures who are all very intelligent

[beasttrash]

wrt to that last reblog you can also just. print it out on ur own and stick it to ur wall. they aren't my characters. do what you want. its free baby!!

[purplebass]

Herongraystairs and the tragic nature of life

Is it crazy that I can't sleep because I'm thinking about a book that gives me a lot of feelings? A lot of feelings like emotional feelings. And I know what it is... No idea if I should worry about it, lol. It only happens with books or series or other stuff that I loved so much it consumed me. And this is why I wrote this essay/thoughts about Will, Tessa and Jem and the transience of life.

Yesterday I was reading The Midnight Heir story from the Bane Chronicles and I felt so elated, in love, heartbroken and depressed at the same time, when I thought about the Will/Tessa/Jem interactions. Of course, that didn’t just make me think about their interactions in that specific story (thankfully, we have plenty of their interactions to use as a reference) and how dramatic everything is.

I’ve read TID five years ago, I think, then I re-read it a few weeks ago because I wanted to refresh my memory, which I did, and once I was done, I felt so happy for Will and Tessa but also sad because Jem had to become a Silent Brother or he would have died. The epilogue when we know that Wessa had a happy life and how Will died just shattered all of that happiness I felt... which is, I must say, in some ways great, because it means an author can make you feel that even if people are happy, not everyone gets a happy ending and life is about death as well, so Tessa and Jem knew that sooner or later Will would die. It was surely a tragedy for Jem as well, because he not only couldn’t be with Tessa and Will, but being with them gave him life despite of the brotherhood he was part of it, and that was fantastic even if, like I said, heartbreaking. 

The Midnight Heir story managed to bring the same feelings as CP did, somehow. We still see that Tessa, Will and Jem are tight as always despite Jem can’t be with them whenever he wants (even though he tries to be as much as he can), and that he still plays the violin whenever he goes to the Institute, that to Will and Tessa he is always the same Jem, just wearing different clothes. In the story we also have James looking at them and longing for that kind of thing, not realizing that he sort of already has it. Well, Matthew is not Will or Jem, even though both Jem and Math are “addicted” to something. Math abuses of alcohol because of his issues with his past and not because he needs drinks to live like Jem needed the drugs to survive. (But this I should perhaps write it on another essay, haha!).

Anyway. As Magnus himself notices, the bond between Tessa, Jem and Will, will never be really severed and we know that is true, because we see that after Jessa get together, they still cry for Will and for those they lost (including James and Lucie). And this is even more sadder than what I mentioned above (Jem becoming a Silent Brother), because at least, Jem was there. In the present time, Will is not. Magnus knows that once he will go because he is mortal, a part of both Tessa and Jem will die with him, but at the same time, Will won’t, because he will still live in their memories (as we also see in various Jessa scenes set in the present time).

Now, all of this to say that all of this gives me deep, opposing feelings of happiness and sadness because it is all so real. For Tessa, it shows the struggle of being immortal. I think this is why CC chose to make her live forever, because that is the tragedy of life. You will see the ones you care about die, and you can’t do anything about it. I wonder, now that Jem is a mortal (is he mortal after becoming human again, or I’m wrong?) if history will repeat itself. I mean, the point was that Tessa had two loves in her life and that she got to experience life with them in different eras of time, but what is gonna happen when Jem will also leave her because of the tragic nature of life? I dread to know it, somehow, because I know it will be break me even more.

And this, my dear friends, is the reason why I couldn’t sleep last night or most of the nights ever since I re-read TID and I finished Chain of Gold.

[bloggylongway]

Here’s to another five years of Cronus...!

Well, provided I get a new pair of jeans. Those things finally gave up this fall.

[alarmedpigeon]

So I’m bisexual and not really out about it, except with some friends. But today in my literary theory class a girl who I’m friends with kinda but haven’t known her for long starts being weird. She knows I’m bi. In class we were talking about queer issues and gay rights in the 80s, etc., and every time he mentioned it in lecture this girl would turn around and look at me as if to say “hey look you’re a gay and he’s talking about gays!” and then he asked if there were any questions. 

she raises her hand and starts giving her opinion on something- then stops halfway through a sentence to TURN AROUND TO ME and say “maybe you  could help me with some terms here, since I’m not really part of the community, you know? I could be saying this wrong” and in doing so literally outs me to the whole class and everyone was staring and I wasn’t ready for that. Plus I’m bi but haven’t been in a long relationship with anyone who’s not a cis man so I don’t really feel like i’m fully in the community at all yet? so i feel like that was misrepresenting me at the same time as outing me to a classroom full of strangers, and my professor. weird and uncomfortable and now i feel kinda crappy. 

[just1cy]

HELP I JUST SAW UR ART AND NOW IM HOOKED (dont mind if a spam you teehee)

also do u do doodle request :0

Ten years later I’m only just seeing this😭 thanks so much! Also I took some on my insta a while back but I could always do some again, it was fun!

Ig if people have any, feel free to shoot and I’ll eventually get to them :D

[purplebass]

When your fandoms help...

I have to write a short essay about Leonardo da Vinci for my Italian literature class, and I didn’t know which theme to discuss, since in his notebooks he has practically talked about a great deal of things. It didn’t help that the only thing I had in my mind these past weeks was Chain of Gold, TID, and of course their characters. 

The other day the professor talked about Leonardo’s Bestiary and the allegory of birds and animals during Renaissance and how he talked about them. He talked about the seven deadly sins and how they were associated with specific animals back then. Among these animals and birds, he talked about the kite and the eagle, and how they treated their birds. For example, the eagle estranges their birds when they can’t look directly towards the sun, as if they weren’t his. This made me think about the falcon Jace had to train when he was young and how Valentine had made him kill it because he had come to love it. 

Then I realized... Birds! Herondales! Because I’m sure there’s also symbolism behind the reason why CC chose to have Valentine treat Jace like this in order to make him loveless, maybe she was inspired by how the birds really treat their sons and daughters? After all, the surname of the characters in TSC often if not always is a good example of how their family is or how they are or are expected to be because of their heritage. So yes, while thinking about fictional characters may hinder my studying, in this case it also helped it. 

Thank you, Herondales. 😂