So, I did a reading for myself and asked the cards how my birthday would go because I am working that day. I had plans to take a day off from my work, but since I am a part-timer now, I can't afford to lose more hours. But guys, the cards were brutal lol. As soon as I laid out the spread, I was like bye!!!!
The Spread- 9oS, 9oP and 8oS(hermit)
The thing is, as soon as I saw 9 of swords, all the painful memories of my birthdays came back. How I never got to celebrate my birthdays, how none of my family cared to give me a small celebration. I never asked for big parties, but I never even got smaller ones, lol. I never had any friends who could celebrate with me, and honestly I don't have any memories of any of my birthdays. I started crying, and I cried a LOT, like a LOT. Well, yeah, that took a wrong turn, but at the end I felt relieved. It felt like I emptied myself.
That's why I try not to do readings for myself, because whenever I do, either this or that, nothing in between.
