So, I feel bad and I feel ashamed of myself. I feel embarrassed to even say this on here too, I fucked up. I admit, I fucked up. I fucked up with Eugenia Cooney and I believed the lies. Why? Good fucking question!
This was going to be my first ever Deep Dive on a YouTuber, Eugenia Cooney (this was going to be one years worth of evidence) and I was going to do a YouTube video on my second channel (that will be my first video on my second channel)…. But boy, was I wrong! I was so fucking wrong, I even shared a petition of her getting de-platformed. I even payed £10pm on that petition because I legit thought, I was doing something right. But nope, I was wrong.
So for a while I thought and I legit thought Eugenia Cooney was bad because I believed some tea channels, especially Repzilla, Pastel Bell and Sl04n. I believed their lies. I shouldn’t have and I feel guilty. I do, I feel incredibly guilty.
I have a habit of watching tea channels every few years because I want to stay up to date on YouTube, so I don’t accidentally support a racist, a peadophile and a rapist. I know I supported some in the past without looking into them, so I occasionally watch some YouTubers to keep me up to date. Especially SL04N and I’m glad he’s stopped doing Eugenia Cooney and started doing Free Britney instead. I do admit, I still watch his content, but only on Britney Spears and Amanda Bynes (if you didn’t know, I’ve been a Britney Spears since she debuted and since her conservatorship, I’ve always been a Free Britney person too).
I got caught up with the “drama” of Eugenia Cooney and I said one tweet, which is now deleted because it was a hate one. It was about her not believing sexual assault survivors because again, I believed the tea channels. I WAS WRONG!
I was planning for a long time, of doing my first ever Deep Dive Youtube video, on here and on Reddit (this is one years worth of evidence. I wanted to do a Deep Dive and find MY own evidence). The thing is tho, the more I researched Eugenia Cooney, the more I started to realise that there was NO proof.
Mostly everything that people said about her was rumours (aka, made up shit). Even the “pro Ana” thing, completely made up. It got to a point I was questioning Jaclyn and her story because I thought they were best friends, but they weren’t. I had to watch WillyMacShow to confirm MY OWN beliefs were actually true.
I even planned to have back up evidence of her streams, Twitter posts and the shit she said, even going into a Sub Reddit (btw, Eugenia doesn’t even control, it’s her fans!). 2 people messaged me about the “groomers” in Reddit. Even to a point where this guy was going to do a YouTube video about it, but never did. Like, I felt something was off. Something huge!
The thing about Reddit is that, I tried to look into it and I was talking to people too, but I couldn’t find anything. Even when they said Eugenia Cooney is secretly controlling the Reddit behind the scenes and she’s looking at all of the posts… but I couldn’t find anything to back up this claim. The only thing kept popping up, was some of her fans did have fetish for ED. But no evidence to back up that she had direct contact with them, just some weird fans that had unhealthy obsessing over her. Just like any celebrity and YouTuber. Again, NO evidence to back up peoples claims.
Some strange conspiracy theory that Eugenia had these fans that sexualise her ED and she was supporting them by “picking things up” so she got bits on Twitch. Again, NO proof that she engaged with these people privately and her being in full direct contact with them. Just Eugenia picking up her makeup box and people thought she got bits every time. So she changed it and got a better storage thing for her makeup. If it was true, she wouldn’t change the storage to a better one. People are just reaching!
This one is a conspiracy theory; I found a video from a person and she was reading out these posts that other guys created, saying how much they love girls with eating disorders. It comes from peadophilia (I did do a post about this and it is true, the sperm donor loved ED girls) BUT I can’t find anything proof worthy with Eugenia Cooney. The only actual evidence I found, was through someone else, sharing their own experiences with ED and how THEY met people who had a fetish with ED. But, that never really directly tied to Eugenia Cooney. So I was questioning about that video. I do believe that person, don’t get me wrong. I’m just questioning about having actual ties to Eugenia.
The only thing that was true, when she deleted her Discord because it had groomers in it. Well done for her! I’m actually really proud of her that she deleted the Discord server.
One video she did was about shoes and she accidentally showed her vagina, the tea channels were saying how her underwear was matching her eyeshadow… how she was “pleasing” people with her ED fetish fans. Even tho, her underwear was red and her eyeshadow was pink…. That’s not matching, and like I said before, there were no actual ties to Eugenia Cooney herself. Again, reaching af. The only thing I thought, was age gating that video because you know, it’s showing her vagina… Again, the tea channels went beyond that and started to reach af.
It’s around the time on here, I started to question the tea channels. They started to reach, like her having a pink room is childish because children like it… or maybe she likes the colour pink? Saying she has a lot of children watching her, but the people commenting on her videos are adults? Saying how Eugenia likes Hello Kitty and it’s “childish”… but even me, I have Hello Kitty plushies. All of it, made no sense.
I don’t know about her mother tho, I can say that. I found out narcissists can be the nicest people you will ever meet. Me now, I can spot one from a mile off. After that disaster of a friendship and dealing with my mother, I can tell. So I can’t say that shit because I haven’t met the woman. But like, this is the thing, I couldn’t find anything that was Deep Dive worthy of her mother being abusive. Only ONE video that her mother made her get stressed in public? But I saw that on a tea channel, and the rest about her mother shouting at her, was kinda reaching. Even a VERY old video about her brother, like how that one time she called her brother, brother? That’s not being abusive, that’s sarcasm and maybe, just maybe, Eugenia wants to respect her brother’s privacy and not saying his name. Just sayin. Even in the same video, how her mother didn’t want to be on camera because she was getting changed… people legit said her mother is being abusive. Erm…. No, no it’s not. Again, fucking reaching.
EVEN Eugenia body checking when she showed off her clothes…. “Apparently” showing her arms is “pro ana”… That makes no sense. I like showing off my clothes, I like to dress up every time I go out. But I’m not body checking. People are only saying she’s body checking because her ED is showing visibly. Wtf mate, it makes so sense.
The tea channels were getting to the point where she was posting quotes and a blue butterfly. Even saying “she is quoting from pro Ana content” but she’s not. If you, legit look up the quotes, she’s quoting, they are not from pro Ana content. Again, reaching hard.
All the analysis that I looked into, weren’t true. The tea channels were copying each other, getting their content from other content creators and getting their sources that way. But never actually doing any digging of their own and finding evidence of their own. Again, reaching af.
Since this, even on my personal twitter (which I won’t show on here bc everyone and everything is anonymous), I’ve slowly started to watch less and less tea channels. Within a few months, I just see their fake persona and I’m done with it. They don’t hold accountable to their own actions, they don’t admit when they are wrong. I’m so done. Worst thing, they don’t say “I fucked up”. When I fuck up, I admit when I’M wrong and the reason why.
If you’re saying “bUt yOuR mOtHeR DiD tHiS tHo. YoU bLaMe yOuR mOtHeR fOr a LoT tHaT hAvE dOnE” why do you think I stopped talking to her? Why do you think I want her fucking dead? My mother did unthinkable things that doesn’t deserve forgiveness. Most of it happened when I was a child? Do you think a child can control a parent? Do you think even an adult can control a psychopath? I do blame her because I’m not the one who worked for social services… I was a fucking child. If you are complaining and we are the same age… where were we, when we were both 15? Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t realise I had a full time job with already have full blown qualifications from school that I finished when I was fucking 7, could drive and have kids at 15 *sarcasm*… I swear dumb ass people. Don’t at me about my mother. My mother doesn’t deserve forgiveness.
On my Twitter, you have to really have to look back from a year ago when I believed the tea channels. The past few months, I just stopped because I don’t believe them anymore. I’m done. I’m done following them and I’m done believing their lies, I’m fucking done.
