It used to pain me so much that Joey bounces on Pacey at the end of The Longest Day and ostensibly chooses her relationship with Dawson over what they feel for each other, and don’t get me wrong, it still breaks me to see him crying on that dock when she walks off at the end of the episode...but when you know what’s coming?? When you know where the story is headed? IT IS ACTUALLY PERFECT. Isn’t it that much more compelling for Joey to believe *so strongly* that she couldn’t live without Dawson’s approval just to turn around and realize (again and again) that in fact it is Pacey she can’t lose???? This girl who has lived through too much trauma and has always viewed Dawson (along with his parents, his house, etc.) as the constant that got her through the tragedies of her life...that girl forces herself to go for safety & comfort only to find it isn’t enough. It isn’t what she needs anymore, because she’s outgrown her security blanket and every moment that she denies the actual desire of her heart is another moment of sheer misery for all involved. Joey, who often clings to the so-called moral high ground, who can be so unbelievably stubborn and self-righteous, has to admit that she made a mistake and consequently launches herself from the foundations of her life by turning her back on everything she’s ever known. Joey who turned down Paris. Joey who struggles to define herself without the context of Dawson’s lens. Joey who is riddled with doubts over whether or not she’ll ever make it out of Capeside. This Joey falls in love with the last person she ever expected to feel for in this way, and because of that love she *finally* decides to sail off into the sunset, embarking on the adventure of a lifetime, throwing all consequences overboard for an entire summer on the open sea. This is what she’s always dreamed of—freedom, happiness, a story of her own. Would she have trusted herself to do something so bold without attempting to fall in line with Dawson’s ultimatum first? I think not. I think she would have always wondered if Dawson had been right, always questioned if it was worth the emotional turmoil, always looked back wistfully thinking *she* was the one who ruined things by continuing to pursue a relationship with Pacey. She has to take that detour, momentarily allowing Dawson to set the narrative for her before realizing it’s impossible. This isn’t what love looks like. She can’t suppress her feelings. Maybe she had theoretically convinced herself that her attraction to Pacey would fade, that the whole thing would prove to be fleeting and insignificant, but when she puts that concept to the test, it is an indisputable failure. Joey can’t deny it anymore, but she had to be wrong before she can know in her bones, without dispute, what’s right...which is why she returns to the exact same location of her initial misstep to rewrite the ending: that dock, that boat, Pacey. It’s where she leaves him at the end of The Longest Day, breaking both of their hearts in the process, and it’s where she finds him again three episodes later at the end of True Love. No ultimatums or stipulations. No turning back. It’s True Love—the episode, the boat, the relationship. She just took the long way in getting there.