#Repost @mother.ly • • • • • • "I knew so many people who struggled with getting pregnant that when we started to try to expand our little family, I wasn’t surprised it didn’t come easily. Each month would come + go, and I’d experience such a sadness when we weren't pregnant. A year later, we decided to pause on trying because life was getting busy and complicated with work, and the stress + sadness of finding out each month we weren't successful was weighing on me. My world was becoming ovulation apps, ovulation sticks, pregnancy test and endless tracking. So many things went through my head about maybe not having this be my path, or that maybe I wasn't deserving, or maybe I was just here to document others + their life stories, but that motherhood might not be a part of my story. Friends + clients around me were all getting pregnant, and as happy as I was for them, my little heart felt such sadness as well. Then, that same month we took a pause, we were lucky enough to find out that our world was going to be totally different in nine months time. Maybe it was letting the stress go, maybe it was just timing, I'll never know. We waited a while to share the news. I've always read into signs and the day we found out we were pregnant, a friend of mine had experienced the loss of her one-month-old, then a week later another friend had a miscarriage. I was nervous about sharing our news, afraid maybe things would take a turn for the heartbreaking. When we did finally share it, I tried to be very conscious of those still trying to get pregnant, or dealing with pregnancy loss. Especially because so often we don’t know the struggles the people around us are going through. I'm thankful every day for being able to experience motherhood, but what I’m very thankful of is that I feel I’ve come into it at a time where aspects of motherhood that haven't always been shared openly, are finally being brought to the surface." 📷: @scarletoneill #teammotherly #thisismotherhood (at Charlotte, North Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7fbrURg4nn/?igshid=1vp5uqvjjvvr5
