Why can’t I get rid of you?
I am not an idiot, even if I am a fool. There is no longer any chance I could have you and I am capable of understanding and accepting that truth. But why then should I still be tortured with thoughts of you. More precisely thoughts of loosing you. My kind of obsession is hardly worthy of Poe but my madness is another story. one, it seems, he could well have written himself.
Anger and self loathing over the wretched follies of my youth and the disheartening consequences I suffer to this day. A body racked with pain and deathly cold to the touch, I shudder at any person who comes even the slightest increment too close. My mind an endless cacophony, a cave filled with shadows and unseen pitfalls, and the screams. The endless screaming that reverberates through every hall, permeates the very ground.
Basically, I’m all kinds of fucked up over the fact that I love you but I can’t have you. And sometimes I want to forget you but I can’t because I love you, even though I can’t have you. which means I’ll have to send a robot back in time to destroy my enemy, but if I do that then they wont be my enemy and I won’t have to send a robot back in time to kill them, so then they will be my enemy and I will have to send the robot back….