i dont know if i will ever go too in depth in what i draw here because the point is to draw something fast and not overthink it but i do kinda wanna talk a bit about how i see brian x hoody in particular (because it’s the one i feel most strongly about)
i personally feel like hoody— (while still brian. it is not a tim/masky situation to me. which unfortunately to the like 6 asks this blog has gotten asking for timsky. timsky isn’t selfcest to me that’s an in-sys relationship between two very separate alters. i do have an idea of what i might could do for tim x tim though. masky x masky however…more complicated and i have no solid ideas yet)
but yeah hoody has a very complicated relationship with his sense of self. he feels more like an ideal personified, or some sort of creature at best. while he is still technically brian, because of what happened to him, he almost completely does not connect to his past or his personage as an identity. “brian thomas” in hoody is dead pretty much. all that’s left is an untreated weeping sore.
what remains of brian in hoody is his attachments, his habits, the remnants of things that used to be weighed and handled in sometimes very different ways
so i feel like hoody would have a very intense view of brian if, however it happened, they came to exist at the same time. something absolutely not healthy because hoody is incapable of healthy attachments as we know him, but something that hits harder and faster and deeper than his attachments to other people (only fitting comparison relationship perhaps being his intense lovehate for alex kralie)
i feel like hoody would simultaneously see brian as someone to keep and save and protect as well as someone he was deeply envious and ashamed of. i feel like regardless of which side the pendulum had swung on, he’d be captivated maybe even obsessed with brian for better or worse
as for brian. honestly i think it’d take him a while to even stomach the idea he was looking at technically himself. i think he’d find himself sometimes wishing hoody had never been unmasked (if that happened) and not knowing that there was ever a chain of events that’d lead him to being like that
regardless it is brian thomas and he wouldnt be able to leave hoody alone in return either. i feel like he’d have that same intrinsic tug and almost responsibility to help hoody and try to make him feel more like a person again or at least…find some sort of peace. almost feeling completely personally responsible for hoody as a whole sometimes
i feel like especially as a psychology major that brian would be unendingly curious on the hows and the whys and the whats on how hoody behaves, thinks, acts, and the conclusions he’s come to about the world and his situation. and as much as maybe he’d think “thank god im not that guy and hopefully ill never personally be” there is that looming What If ? because the proof he’s capable is right in front of him
though still he’s brian so those are all thoughts and motives he keeps to himself and outwardly he’d be indulging in the fact there’s finally someone he can be more or less 100% authentically himself with. because that’s him. and he already knows himself what’s to judge
i always think of them as getting close with hoody masked 24/7. not only because to me, given his disconnects with being the brian people remember, hoody doesnt only wear a mask for anonymity but also because thats now more or less his face. something simple that serves its purpose as a facial region while not being particularly anyone or anything
theres a lot to the idea of literal masks and what they mean not only to the person wearing them but to the people around them
and so this lends to brian being able to know hoody without the complication of knowing thats technically himself and that hump can be covered later lmao but by then he’s already become attached to the hoodyisms as what they are
because i know people love to see brian as the token normie or even prep/jock-adjacent of his friendgroup but i think brians always been a little weird and had a lot of like…stuff that would be seen as atypical and alienating as interests and sometimes behaviors. i think there’s always been something a little off-putting inside brian thomas but just like everyone else, he didn’t like feeling alienated and thus created a personality for himself that more people would like and was very successful with it also imo
i do think he was the kind of guy who could get along with everyone: the preps the jocks the band kids the weirdos. i was also kinda this person especially as a teen while always feeling like i was in my own category
and i think there’s a lot about brian that he keeps carefully withdrawn until youre only seeing this..basically himbo presentation while theres always more going on beneath the surface. we see how calculating hoody can and tried to be. thats not something you just gain after becoming traumatized thats something youve been cultivating all your life (for example)
so i think yeah. there was always something a little wrong with brian thomas and i think having a masked stalker would obviously freak him out at first but i think if hoody didnt give him reason to outright fear for himself (aggression, threat, assault) brian would easily get over his fear and more into curiosity and trying to basically lure a stray dog into being friendly with him
theres also the whole undercurrent of all of this being i see brian thomas as aroallo and especially in the late 00s/early 10s in the deep south you are NOT going to get any validation about being like that. so literally being with his literal own self would be the first time brian would feel validated and even safe to express his orientation to the fullest. eventually of course because he’d also be completely discovering what he actually wants out of intimacy with someone who wants the same thing for once at the same time
and really vice versa with hoody. (i have endless thoughts about hoody and masky’s relationship and how they both go about expressing their needs and wants and discovering things with each other but this is a selfcest blog and this is a brihoody post so) hoody has gotten a slight taste probably atp and he’s disconnected from society entirely so he’s more freeform but he still hasn’t known a full aroallo relationship until now imo
(while on the subject of being queer in the south, there’s also something to be said about gender identity and expression because im a nonbinary brian truther but i feel like given the nature of how i see brians nonbinaryism in particular itd not really be something that came up explicitly in brihoody to me unless im thinking of pushing some sort of event to make it so. though i do think that’s another place their identities fork whole being the same person. bc i see hoody more agender-adjacent and brian more something closer to genderqueer but its also hard for me to believe brian ever truly realizes this in either case much less has words for it. c’est la vie. maybe in an au somewhere)
but yes thanks for reading if u did. as u can see i am normal about them
