Kaneki and Why the Scene with Seidou is so important his Character
One of the major discoveries that we learned about Kaneki during V14 is that Kaneki is a very selfish man pretending to be selfless. Kaneki throughout the original ghoul was only trying to protect Anteiku and be kind because he didn’t want to be alone. Kaneki became this “self scraficing savior” because of a will to die and to live on in people’s memories as a savior so there is an emotional reaction from those he knew.
Yet, we learned un :re during Kaneki’s fight with Arima that he was pretty much lost all the will to live after all he’s been through. But during his fight he realized one thing
He wants to live for the opportunities to meet people and finally be told the things he’s always wished for. Kaneki realizes how much he wants to live, and then one of those people he wants to live for kills himself in front of him, and in so many words tells him all the words he wanted to hear.
Kaneki from a young age was neglected of love and someone who cared for him, his mother neglected and abused him and he’s been searching for parental figures in his life. Hence why anyone who holds on this parental pedestal has hurt him to some degree. From his biological mother, to Rize, to Yamori, to Arima, and even Akira has hurt him. Yet, Arima did something that nobody else did he told him that he was sorry for leaving him behind because he does care for him. Which was something Kaneki always wanted to here and many ways gave him closure with not just Arima but with his mother. We know that this hurt Kaneki deeply as he slept for almost a month after the incident represented by the fact that everyone is commenting on him being awake as well as him not knowing that Koma and Irimi were working in :re
However, Kaneki is able to move on because Arima gave him a purpose
Arima wants him to fix the issue that made it possible for Arima to have had to suffer in his life, the issue with V. Yet, Kaneki has no other desire to do it, other than because Arima asked him to, which is why Seidou called him out for not caring about the coexistence of ghoul and humans
Kaneki is doing it because at the moment this is the only thing he has to live for because even with it he’s empty. Yet, it’s because of him being empty he needs something to make it worth living
Kaneki states that sometimes you just need something to hold onto to keep you from floating away. Which is why he can’t take away Seidou’s cross, because he knows it’s the only thing keeping him alive, which is the guilt of what he has done and how much he cares for Akira and Amon. Kaneki is using being king as an excuse to live, which is both dangerous to his mental health, as well as him repeating the same character cycle of part one. I think this is because while Tokyo Ghoul is a story about supernatural creatures, Ishida is using Kaneki to show what depression is like. Ishida is trying to give this message of living through the pain, and trying to find meaning to your life. He is giving Kaneki a simple and sweet one “to live for others” but I think he’s trying to show that it isn’t the best method. Kaneki all of :re has been on this downwards spiral of repeating events from part 1 as the story is paralleling more than ever right know, as there are many hints to :re being raided. I think this is because until Kaneki realizes that he has to live for himself, he’s going to have to repeat his pain until he learns it. Thats why if this arc becomes the :re raid, I think it’s going to be the time that Kaneki finally learns to care about himself, because look at all the relationships he’s built of people who care about him and love him, he’s just been to blind in his own self destruction to notice.
I think that it’s pretty clear that while, he might not want coexistence himself his search for meaning to live he will be able to realize why what he was been doing is so important. I feel like Kaneki finding his will to live, will create in return find a way for coexistance, but thats not the true meaning of this story. I think if anything Tokyo Ghoul:re is going to be story where Kaneki takes his own life back for himself instead of others.