Someday fic about MoC Cas realizing that with Claire dead he's losing control, so he shoots his shot with Dean and gets met with exuberant and devastating outpouring of yes-please-i-need-this-so-bad grief enthusiasm
And they go again and again, in several ways configurations and Dean is getting softer and softer each time as Cas grows more and more distressed because
it's too late
it's not working
i'm incapable of being happy, dean
and dean just hugs him because he thinks this is grief i need to HOLD him
because they've lost too much they've lost too much
dean has no idea cas is actively trying to trigger his empty deal














