#thegivenchycode

[santullianal]

thegivenchycode replied to your post: i’m going to santa monica to meet someone friends...

just take the 3 all the way to 4th

the 3 or the 4 aren't close to me :(

im taking the 10 all the way, but im just worried on taking the wrong bus

[cimmeriansun]

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talk to supermodelgif about brown if you havent already! ill tell madison youd really appreciate her advice/help etc

lol i actually have talked to her! she added me on gmail, but i haven't really asked her any questions yet because i'm still talking to my counselor and whatnot.

[cimmeriansun]

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oh wow. i understand why you feel that way. its still an immense amount of pressure im sorry you have/have had to go through that

i feel like i've just been feel more stressed because it's almost college application season and my entire existence has basically been dedicated to getting into a good college so if i don't i'm going to be a failure and i have no idea what i'm going to do \m/

[cimmeriansun]

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what the fuck? oh my god thats terrible. it will pass, i know it feels like it will never end but it will! unfortunately it doesnt solve all your problems like youd hope but it definitely helps.

going to throw a bitch fit if my skin doesn't clear up tbh

[cimmeriansun]

thegivenchycode replied to your post: thegivenchycode replied to your post: 3 39 40 55...

no stop blaming yourself seriously i wish you could see how unfair this is to you. this is on your parents they need to stop putting so much pressure on you, theyre treating you like an object instead of a person

but like my parents both basically work 2 jobs so they can pay for all my crap and save up money to send me to school and they've worked so hard to get to where they are, especially since they immigrated from south korea to the usa with like zero knowledge of english, and i feel like the least i can do is repay them back by becoming successful and like studying is really the only way i feel like i can be successful because i have no special talents? and i mean, yeah i do wanna successful for myself, but it's mostly for my parents? i don't want the 20 years they've spent working relentlessly to make sure i get the life they couldn't have to go to waste.

[cimmeriansun]

thegivenchycode replied to your post: thegivenchycode replied to your post: im going...

i know how that feels! theres nothing more depressing. i used to stay home from school bc it got so bad. accutane ultimately saved me! the side effects seem scary but theyre rly nothing to worry abt. only 1 other pill worked but it didnt last

ugh and it's worse when my family points out my skin and stuff bc i feel bad enough about myself already and when they pinpoint it i just feel mortified and ugh i just really hope my skin clears up soon

[cimmeriansun]

thegivenchycode replied to your post: im going to the dermatologist RIGHT after school...

if you ever need advice or anything, i have had EXTENSIVE experience in this area. id be happy to help, i know how traumatic bad skin can be

ugh like i've had bad acne and stuff on and off for years and i think it's partially the reason i find myself so ugly and disgusting to look at so i'm hoping i can figure out how to fix it tomorrow??? I'M SO MAD BECAUSE MY SKIN WAS ON A GOOD STREAK AND THEN IT BLEW UP ON ME AGAIN.

but thanks for your offer <3 i probably will have questions and whatnot after tomorrow lol

[cimmeriansun]

thegivenchycode replied to your post: 3 39 40 55 c:

aw baby :( this makes me so sad i wish there were something i could do

i really think i just need to change the way i think about myself because i HONESTLY hate 99.9% of myself and the .1% i do like is the fact that i at least realize i'm a shitty person and need to get my act together