#thelastmelinian

[thelastmelinian]

So, I’m not dead lolol just more active on twitter which is where I post most of my WIPs. This is Bluebelle - my Blue Fiary Wren/Superb Fairy Wren mix OC. I kinda made her on a whim after I played Gris on Steam so she’s kinda got only general info. *sweats*

[thelastmelinian]

So uh... heyo, Mel here. It’s been a couple of years since I’ve posted my own stuff on tumblr. For those who still follow me thank you, and for those who’ve stopped, that’s cool too, no hard feelings. I haven’t been active much here so that’s understandable.

I went on a very long unplanned hiatus and there were a number of reasons for that, and I won’t go into too much detail about it. This isn’t what this post is about.

A long story short, I’ve been going through a tough couple of years emotionally. And I’ve been in a really really bad creative block - I ended up picking up a lot of other different hobbies in order to avoid drawing because it almost physically pained me to pick up a pencil. As a result I even stopped using my tablet and I haven’t been using it for almost 3+ years.

It took me a long time and I’m not completely okay but in the last year the drive to just draw has been returning. For the first time in years I plugged in my tablet and just drew, I’m rusty, and I’m clumsy, but I just sat there and actually ENJOYED what I was doing, no matter how weird it looked XD.

I’ve been trying to find my style and how I want to draw; as a result I was unnecessarily unkind to myself. To be honest, I think that was part of what messed me up so much. I’m directionless, I still am and that’s okay, I’ll end up somewhere I want to be eventually I just have to be give myself the time to do that and do things realistically.

I’ll end that here, I’m not going to be a consistent poster, like I said, I’m still getting used to the programs and tools again. To those who’ve stuck around; thank you and I’m sorry. And to those who haven’t I’m also sorry. I hope to be better about running this blog. :)

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Ok super long time since I posted anything up but I found the Voltron fandom and I found the Klance fandom and I had to. I’ve had to put this on hold though since I’ve got to move out of my place this month and I still need to verify with the landlord of my new place. Yea it’s a shitstorm, but I’m finally in a relatively good place where I feel like my drawings are decent.

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I was doing other drawings but then I ended up just messing with the modes on SAI. I've been in a slump, partially because I'm having doubts about my own abilities, and partially because my feels have been so intense that they've often reduced me to tears. So, have this doodle that was supposed to be a doodle but then it ended up as a sort of final?

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This was only supposed to be a sketchy doodle to get me back into the feel of SAI tools... and then I arted... ^^ I have two versions because I couldn't decide if I liked it with out the bruises and dirt or with them. =3=

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Dear senpai <3

I hope you like the final part of your xmas present art- I'm very sorry it took this long to complete UwU

Have some hijackson frozen!au things

-love Kit

Omg! Thank you for the X'mas gifts! I love them so much! QwQ

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Was feeling down and then I found this in one of my older images. The fluff made me feel a little better. :')

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Have some doodles of one of my unfinished sketchdumps. Having an on off summer this year 'cause I'm moving to university.