You create the characters.
You design their personalities, their past, their dynamics.
And then they refuse to behave
the way you planned.
At some point you stop arguing with them
and just take notes.
seen from China
seen from Singapore
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from China

seen from Russia
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from Russia

seen from Türkiye
seen from China
seen from United States

seen from Philippines
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Germany
seen from China
You create the characters.
You design their personalities, their past, their dynamics.
And then they refuse to behave
the way you planned.
At some point you stop arguing with them
and just take notes.
me, half asleep: this is the best scene I’ve ever come up with
also me: too lazy to write it down, I’ll remember it
morning: what scene???
“If you write, you’re a writer.”
I keep coming back to that. Because it’s easy to feel like it doesn’t count:
if no one reads it,
if it’s just a few lines,
if it stays unfinished.
But writing doesn’t become real
because it’s seen.
It’s real the moment you do it.
Being a writer is carrying conversations that only exist in your head.
Entire arguments.
Tender confessions.
Apologies no one has spoken yet.
It looks strange if you describe it out loud.
But this is how stories form —
through internal rehearsal.
You don’t wait for life to hand you dialogue.
You construct it.
Carefully.
Deliberately.
And sometimes, inconveniently at 2 a.m.
"Later" is the most convincing lie we tell ourselves.
Later I’ll write.
Later I’ll start.
Later I’ll have more time.
Later feels safe because it doesn’t require action.
But later is also where most ideas disappear.
So at some point you stop negotiating with it.
And you begin.
Being a writer is doubting the draft and still returning to it.
You read it. You question it. You briefly consider deleting the entire document.
And then you open it again the next day.
Doubt isn’t a sign to quit. It’s part of the craft.
If writing is a choice, then returning is also a choice.
No one forces you to sit back down. You do it because the story still matters.
Not because it’s easy. Because you decided it would.
“This is just a simple scene,” you think.
Two hours later you’re still adjusting
a single line of dialogue
because the tone is slightly off.
It was never a simple scene...
The weight of a book
I love the weight of a book
in my hands.
Sometimes it grows heavier
when I realize
how much life
is inside it.