"Everyone goes through this crisis. For the average person this is the point when the demands of his own life come into the sharpest conflict with his environment, when the way forward has to be sought with the bitterest means at his command. Many people experience the dying and rebirth - which is our fate - only this once during their entire life. Their childhood becomes hollow and gradually collapses, everything they love abandons them and they suddenly feel surrounded by the loneliness and mortal cold of the universe. Very many are caught forever in this impasse, and for the rest of their lives cling painfully to an irrevocable past, the dream of the lost paradise - which is the worst and most ruthless of dreams."
"Once he stood again on the high cliff at night by the sea and gazed at the planet and burned with love for it. And at the height of his longing he leaped into the emptiness toward the planet, but at the instant of leaping “it’s impossible” flashed once more through his mind. There he lay on the shore, shattered. He has not understood how to love. If at the instant of leaping he had had the strength of faith in the fulfillment of his love he would have soared into the heights and been united with the star."
― Hermann Hesse, Demian: Die Geschichte von Emil Sinclair's Jugend
10/08/2020
These were the excerpts, which touched me so deep...
I thought a lot about these sentences and sometimes am still thinking about them, because whenever I feel like Emil I remember his story.
Yeah, sometimes I too think "this is impossible". Whenever I fear or I'm insecure about something, a decision, an act, a choice, a responsibility, a speech, even a small talk, everything goes wrong, I fail or I end up with problems. And again, I feel like I'm standing on a high cliff...
Don't we all feel like Emil from time to time?! Maybe we can all learn something from Emil Sinclair's story, especially from these two paragraphs.
Have faith in yourself my dear, no matter for what you need it for...!