3 for the writer asks!! 💖
3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)
HOHOOIHIOOIOOOO ELSIE I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED THIS!!!!
I literally have had this in my Google docs for ALMOST TWO FUCKING YEARS LISTED UNDER “idk- Angst Scraps???” AND JUST HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH IT!!?!?? (Let this be an invitation for anyone to come up with a story for it!!!)
In my mind, it’s like. fwb that went wrong??? Mixed with a road trip that happens years later?? I don’t know HOW and I cannot be bothered bc it would take to much time and energy that I do not have but HERE:
“It wasn’t exactly, um, easy, you know? But I do agree with you. We’re better off as friends.”
“Really?” Blaine asks in mild surprise.
“Really,” Kurt affirms, keeping his eyes on the road.
The confirmation shouldn’t send a dull ache rippling through Blaine’s chest, yet it does.
“We really do make a great pair, Blaine. And I am so glad we have each other in our lives. After that day, though, it uh, I did need some time to lick my wounds. Heal a bit. It took a lot of work, but I was finally able to make myself realize that we would never have worked out, realize that you could never love me the way I needed to be loved. And I don’t say that as a testament to your empathy, or your commitment to your relationships.”
Blaine isn’t sure he wants to hear the answer, but he asks anyway. “Then what is it?”
“You just. Didn’t feel the same. And on the very foundation of that logic, you couldn’t have given me what I needed at the time.”
It comes as a shock to Blaine, when his mind without hesitation supplies, What if I could now?
(This also could be part of it, or not, but context would be that Blaine just tried to kiss Kurt and Kurt was into it but then pulled away and is Lowkey having a crisis)
Kurt draws his head back, and the room goes completely silent.
“I have to go,” he says, rising up from the couch and not meeting Blaine’s and eyes as he reaches for his keys.
“No, don’t—” Blaine tries, but Kurt’s already by the door.
“I have to go,” Kurt repeats, only this time Blaine can hear the tension in his throat.
(Blah blah blah they’re outside)
“What the hell was that, Blaine!?”
Kurt scoffs. “Yeah, you never do.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You know exactly what it means. It- It means that I have been so fucking sure about how I felt about you from the moment we met, and I thought. Hell, I don’t know what I thought. That giving you time to think would make you as sure as I was?”
“No, it’s—I’m not sure about a lot of things, Kurt, but I know I care about you—”
Kurt chuckles humorlessly, hands on his hips and blinking tears at the stars above them. He finally fixes his stare at Blaine.
“You—what? Why— why didn’t you—?”
Kurt nods and sniffs a bit. “I think a part of me knew you wouldn’t try anything if you knew about him. And... and it’s been years, and I still... still want you to want me.”
Blaine stands there in the yard, speechless.
“I have to go,” Kurt repeats, voice soft as an echo.
Blaine reaches out a hand. “Don’t”
“I have a boyfriend.” Kurt says firmly, as if reminding himself more than Blaine. “Who loves me, and is so, so sure about me. And if I stay any longer, I am going to ruin everything I have with him just for the chance that you might love me back.”
I also have NO CLUE how to resolve ANY of this so 🤷🏽♀️
THANK YOU FOR THIS I LOVED IT!!!
