#thisissirius

[madroxed]

anyway @thisissirius making episode related posts means we're getting new fic soon right siri? right??? siri. siri, hey!

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

Last Line Game

I was tagged by the darling @thisissirius forever ago and I haven't really been writing fanfic lately but I am dashing off bits and pieces of WinterJones as I can so, here, have the last line I wrote for them!

“Jamie?” Jones says very carefully, and oh Jamie needs to hear him say his first name more, a lot more. “I’m going to put my hand on your shoulder. Is that okay?”

and yes this is from the omega!Winter ABO fic nobody hates me more than I hate myself

[capseycartwright]

you’re as intimidating as robert sugden 😌

listen. i’ll take that. I’m happy with that. me and robert are kindred spirits in the sense that if i were to commit a murder it would be accidental

[lover-of-mine]

not sure if my ask sent BUT I’m loving people being vocal about the fandom not caring about eddie outside of buddie. it’s been happening since the dawn of time (lol) and there’s a reason so many vocalists about eddie decided to be loud and obnoxious about it (including yours truly). his journey is nuanced and he’s such a good character to explore a straight-maybe to bucksexual love with but it will take TIME for anything to happen because of that journey. still. you said eddie rights and i love that.

This is the only ask I got from you, so it probably got lost in the blue void if you sent something else. But absolutely, something I noticed during the hiatus, because while I have been lurking around the fandom since season 5, I only really started to actively post thoughts and stuff after the lightning, so I spent a really long time observing people even more when I started posting random metas, or just thoughts, people have this almost pathological need to make everything about Eddie about Buck. I legit remember making a post about Shannon and blocking several people because they kept making what happened with Shannon about Buck, and that's not it. Eddie is a FASCINATING character. He is so nuanced. And he is so well written and acted out. Like, I was casual about the show until fear-o-phobia (tbf that was the 3rd episode I watched live but still). Eddie grabbed me by the throat that day. And there's so much that people give Buck a pass that they would NEVER give to Eddie. And there's so much to explore with him. And yeah, I think his queer journey will involve Buck somehow, but because I truly believe that man is demi and I don't care about anything else. Making him have a complicated relationship with attraction as a whole is so much more interesting than saying he's just looking for a beard his whole life. And the amount of people I saw picking fights about people not shipping Buck and Tommy because "they have this need that Eddie should be the only man for Buck" (when literally everyone in the fandom hc Buck 1.0 as having slept with guys too) that are people I had seen saying that Eddie only ever loved Buck, straight up erasing the whole concept that he might've been in love with his wife is wild. If Eddie is not adding something to Buck and this idea that Buck is this baby that needs to be protected and can do no wrong, then he is being unnecessary or ooc or just plain weird and THAT'S WILD. Sure Buck and Eddie have a compelling relationship, and I LOVE exploring the possibilities around how much Eddie loves Buck, but Eddie exists for more than loving Buck and both of them exist outside of each other. Honestly, right now, Eddie needs some defenders because it's rough out here. If people can pick fights about Buck the way they do, Imma do the same about Eddie. If people don't agree then that's their problem.

[thebestbooksaround]

kindness is a language (which the deaf can hear) by thisissirius (@thisissirius)

Buddie | 1k | Teen

Buck’s left in a house where his parents talk to him as though he can hear every word.

Can you repeat that, becomes Buck’s go-to phrase.

[mistchievous]

if we can’t find anyone to take us off the market, we’ll take each other off the market????

Abso-fucking-lutely.

Sign right here, my lovely possible future wife. 🥰📜

That'll make it official. 😍😘

[tripleaxeldiaz]

how back are you

[extasiswings]

“I fell in love with you, not them.” + eddie :)

Not what I originally planned at all, but Eddie insisted, so...

Eddie feels like he might throw up. Every mile marker they pass seems to create another knot in his stomach, and he can’t decide if he’s glad that Buck is driving because his head would still be a mess regardless or if it would have given him a welcome distraction.

Christopher is asleep in the backseat, having nodded off somewhere along the state line after the excitement of a road trip that helped him power through their early start and the first few hours of the drive finally wore down. Eddie’s fingers are tapping on his thigh as he stares out the window. His shoulder aches from sitting still for so many hours, and the tension stiffening his muscles doesn’t help.

This trip was a bad idea. What’s the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over and hoping for a different result despite having no reason to expect one? That’s how Eddie feels about his parents.

But. Here they are, in a car on the way to El Paso. Because he’s in therapy and he’s happy and he’s in love and yeah, he doesn’t know if he’ll ever be able to forgive his parents for the things they’ve done but he’s also not ready to cut them off entirely. He’s not prepared to be responsible for creating a massive rift in which his sisters and everyone else have to take sides and everything is clipped and silent and awful. So. That means trying. At least one more time.

Another mile marker. Another knot in his stomach. His fingers keep tapping.

Buck’s hand covers his, stilling the movement. Eddie turns his head.

“We don’t have to stop, you know,” Buck says quietly, glancing over. “We can keep going—head to Houston to see Adriana a few days early, go up to Arizona to stay with Sophia, hell, we’d have to stop somewhere overnight, but we could go all the way to Florida, go to Disney, avoid your family completely if that’s what you want.”

Even stressed, Eddie manages a small smile at that.

“We’ve been driving for ten hours and my parents are expecting us for dinner—it’s a little late to change plans now,” he points out.

Buck shrugs. “Maybe, but...emergencies happen. I’m sure we could come up with something.”

“Disney emergencies?” Eddie laughs.

“Very real. Very serious,” Buck replies, flashing him a grin.

Silence falls. The lightness of the moment fades. Buck squeezes his fingers.

“You also don’t have to tell them. About us,” he says. “You don’t owe them anything.”

Eddie’s brow furrows as he looks at Buck for a long moment, unable to fully read his expression when he’s faced forward, focused on the road.

“I’m not ashamed of this,” he says, and Buck’s lips curve up slightly.

“I know that,” Buck replies. “I’ve never doubted that.”

“It’s just—” Eddie sighs and lets his head fall back against the seat. “They’ve approved of exactly two decisions I’ve ever made—marrying Shannon when she got pregnant and joining the military—and even those they changed their minds a few years later and decided they were wrong after all. And I know I shouldn’t care—”

“But that doesn’t mean some part of you doesn’t,” Buck fills in. “You don’t have to explain—I get it. You know I get it.”

After watching everything Buck’s been through with his own parents—yeah. Yeah, he does know that.

Eddie stares down at their hands, turns his enough to lace their fingers.

There’s a ring in a box tucked away in the nightstand. It’s not really a secret—he’s pretty sure Buck knows it’s there and is just waiting for him to ask. And the only reason he hasn’t is because they’ve only technically been dating for four months.

He thinks he will though. When they get home. No matter how this trip goes.

“Just remember, whatever happens,” Buck adds, glancing over again, “I fell in love with you, not them.”

Yeah. When they get home.

“I know,” Eddie replies. “I love you, too.”