I have promised to always be real with you.⠀ ⠀ I really don’t like curated social media wherein a person is marketing a polished version of themselves, particularly to sell you something.⠀ ⠀ I don’t necessarily think it is morally wrong, I just can’t do it. Whether someone has known me for 20 minutes or 20 years they’ll tell you I am always 100% authentically me. ⠀ ⠀ No matter what I discover in myself if I see it i say it.⠀ ⠀ I have more thoughts on the selling something part, but I also have no issues with people making money. I want to see more women, & millennials in general, making living wages.⠀ ⠀ My issue is with being false to trick people into giving you their money. I literally lay awake at night checking my motives. I am PASSIONATE about this business I am building because I believe it will help people be free. ⠀ ⠀ In fact, because of you kind souls reaching out, I know it already is. I have big dreams & feel zero percent bad about making money off of them.⠀ ⠀ SO.⠀ ⠀ This is me today. Puffy faced & wounded eyes. ⠀ ⠀ After traveling a few family members got sniffles. I got knocked down, dragged out sick. I can barely think straight. I can’t breathe without pain. Every joint is screaming. My neck is so stiff I can’t move my head. Being awake is exhausting but I am sleeping like crap.⠀ ⠀ I decided to do some research & it isn’t in my head—autoimmune illness sufferers tend to be hit much harder by viruses & that can cause an autoimmune flare. I always felt like that was true & it is.⠀ ⠀ So this is me. Things aren’t great today. The deck of cards dealt me aren’t the best. My body suffers because those who were supposed to protect me harmed me instead, & #TheBodyKeepsTheScore always.⠀ ⠀ But what is also true is that I only have #ThisOneFuckingLife. I’m LIVING it, not just surviving. ⠀ ⠀ I’m #AliveAndFree.⠀ ⠀ [As always, raw selfie image included.]⠀ ⠀ #bopo #bodyposi #trauma #healingfromtrauma #healingaftertrauma #FreedomAfterTrauma #autoimmuneillness #chronicillness #chronicpain #chronicfatigue #spoonie #t1fl #thisoneeffinglife #BelieveSurvivors #BelieveWomen #ACEScore10 #ACEStoohigh #loveyourself #selflove #childhoodtrauma #incestsurvivor #abusesurvivor https://www.instagram.com/p/BoNmCmpnGbL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=a9nmwxf8w7ik