#total honesty

[alwaysdeadinsidesworld23]

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🔞¡MINORS DNI!🔞

¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ I’m not for everyone — and i don’t try to be.¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

This space is where my mind spills when i’m not holding it together. ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

Emptiness, desire, soft moments… and thoughts that probably should’ve stayed quiet.

Art, impulse, sensuality, strange humor, and moods that shift without warning.🫠

Not everything here is healthy.😏

Not everything makes sense.😜

But it’s honest.

Feel free to stay and enjoy what you find👀❤️

[dinosaurwithablog]

I have just received a lot of attacks on me and my positivity. The person lashing out doesn't know this about me, but i get it. I sooooooo get it. I have very, very severe PTSD. It's overwhelming at times, but i decided a long time ago that I wasn't gonna let the people who did this to me win. I decided that I'm worth the time and I'm worth the energy to find a way out of hell. It took a lot... it took a long time... I almost didn't make it... but I made it out of hell. I can barely breathe as i write this and it's hard to see through the tears, but i will tell you my story. I do this for those who are filled with hate or fear from what they've been through. I do this because I care. I do this to let them know that you can make it out of hell... you can make it out of the hell that resides in your head that keeps screaming and flashing images... that wakes you up because you're screaming out loud from the hell in your head. I do this because it's the truth. I do this because i care. I do this because you all deserve to feel better and be happy. I do this to let you know that you're not alone and i understand how all consuming this can be. If i can do it, you can do it. I don't have anger issues. I have psychotic rage issues. I couldn't live like that so I taught myself to find a better way to vent those horrible, destructive feelings. Do you know what I did? I decided to turn those negative feelings into love and compassion. There are great lessons to be learned in hell... Compassion, kindness, self care, understanding, love.... that's what I have focused on doing because that's who I was before hell. I not only liked that person, I loved that person. The person who you meet on my blog most of the time is that beautiful soul that they tried to kill and extinguish in hell. It took everything that I had to get back to being who I truly am, but I did it and I move forward every day to survive. I will never let the bastards win. So when I tell you that I care, I really do care. I care more than anyone that I know because I get it. I get the fear. I get the anger. I get the pain. I get it all. I want to help others feel better and know that they're not alone. No one helped me. I did this on my own because I had to do it to survive. I'm not qualified to help in a lot of ways, but I'll listen and I'll care. I think those are very powerful things and I know that they're helpful. I made it through hell. We can all make it through this. You matter. I care. I'll listen. I get it. You have no idea how much I get it. Together we will be okay. We will make it. Believe in yourself. You matter. You got this. 🫂🙏🏼💜💜💜

[howifeltabouthim]

We will never lie to each other. You will always look at me like this.

Lisa Taddeo, from Animal

[angst-fairygodmother]

i want to write, but ive seen so many of my favourite writers get hate and it scares me. you seem so unbothered when you get stuff like that. how do you deal?

So, I've been debating most of the weekend on how to answer this. I am not a good person to ask for advice here.

Because a good way to handle it is not the same as how I handle it. I kind of do the opposite of what a lot of people say you should do when you get anon hate. Because there is only room for one petty bitch in this house, so it's going to be me.

So a good way to handle it is with liberal application of the block button, and remembering that they mean nothing. Every anon that sends hate is a sad, sad soul who's taking out their own insecurities and problems on you because they can hide behind a grey face and think that making someone else feel bad is going to make their life somehow suck less. And odds are there are a lot more people that like you and your work then don't (especially once you've been writing for a little while. Even if they don't say anything. Which you'll often wish they would because you need them and can only guess they're really there).

My way of handling it is to be as sarcastic and rude as possible and try to have the last word. I'm a creature born of and powered by spite and have spent far too many years trying to cater to exactly the kind of person that is the average Hate Anon, so I decided I'm done with that shit. My goal is to out asshole the anon. 

I'm not going to lie though. It hurts. It sucks ass. And every one of those hate messages hits its mark. I've cried. I've doubted myself. I've been heartbroken. I've thought about giving up. At least one and often all of those things, Every. Single. Time. And I know there are a lot of creators out there that feel the same. I'd like to say there will be people on your side to remind you that the anon is full of shit, and most of the time there are, but not always. Or if they're there you have to find/reach out to them first. And it's rough. It feels bad and wrong.

I don't want to discourage you, Nonny. Because writing is exhilarating and addictive and healing and fun. It can be so many wonderful things. And if you're really, really lucky it will bring you to a community of friends whom you love and are loved by, heart and soul. But good times bring bad, and nothing's sunshine and roses all the time.

If you do decide to write, I'm happy to be here for advice/support and either way for friendship if you want. Hell, I'm usually here to throw down with shitty people too, mine or someone else's.

I hope this helps.

[that-house]

I’m constantly bouncing between immense ego and immense insecurity. The open skies and the pit below are just the abyss from different angles, but it’s a lot easier to fall than it is to fly.

I guess this is just my convoluted way of saying that my inbox is always open and compliments (even anonymous ones) never fail to make my day. I could really use some of them sometimes.

I’m okay. No, really, I am. My standard mood is one of happy confidence. But it’s a lot easier to fall than it is to fly, and the doubts always find their way in.

[corporatedragon]

Sinday: List your three top turn ons.

Bowing his head he rubbed his temples.  Top three huh... Why had he ever agreed to do this...

1- Confidence.  Shy and coy are cute but if you want to turn me on be confident.  Take my hand.  Smile.  Dance.  Laugh.  Be yourself.  You are worth knowing.  

ok... that's one.  What else...

2- Have a wild side.  Don’t just simper and go along with everything.  Challenge me.  Tease me.  Surprise me.

Are we done yet?  Ugh... three...one more to go

3- Aggressive.  Not saying be dominant, but don’t back down.  If you want me.  Kiss me, hard.  Bite my neck.  Demand my attention.

[dma-dima]

/Pats Faraday's back/ I know the feeling, friend. That's exactly how I feel about Sole. Don't worry, I'm sure DiMA would understand more then Sole ever could. you should just try to talk to him some day. He would never pressure you over anything. Then again, you would know that better then me, so the real question here is. Why do you feel so cowardly?

*Doing his level best to keep his mouth shut, of course he fails utterly.*Um.. thanks I guess? Good to know I’m not the only one rowing the lonely boat.That’s just the thing though, he’s got to have some idea of how I feel about him, he’s not blind, but he doesn’t ever make a damn move. It’s hypocritical for me to say that I know but if he’s not got much of an interest then who am I to wish for more? We’re good friends, I should be satisfied with that, but I’m not. I’m a coward because I can’t just ask him like a normal human being if he’d be interested so I know either way.. even if he wanted things to stay the same between us at least I could stop wondering if it’s possible then you know?

[howifeltabouthim]

'There need be no secret between us.' 'There need be no secret between us certainly,—and on my part there shall be none. On my part there has been none.' 'Nor on mine.'

Anthony Trollope, from Phineas Redux